Volatile Paradox

May your sentiments guide you to what your soul desires today.

[kinonetic]

Hello, world!

I go by the name K's／Kino／Hikari and I like breaking my fingers 🤞 【Carrd】

My interests shift like a revolving door, but my mainstay fixations are Arcaea, BlazBlue, and Reverse 1999！ (...Even if I barely talk about them LMAO)

I normally spam reblog than post my own content, sorry... Everything in this blog are tagged accordingly for convenience.

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(TBA)

[the-art-of-sanshoku]

[mothtowers]

danganronpa dialogue:

"maybe the killer gave them a heart attack by writing down their name. like with a certain notebook from a certain anime."

"h-huh?"

zero escape dialogue:

"and so, mr tortoise continues to believe theres a teapot floating in space because mr hare can not definitively prove him wrong. but what if something like that... applied to the entire world?"

"like how theres no way to prove if youre wearing panties or not unless you offer definitive proof"

umineko dialogue:

[thedesucomplex-deactivated20130]

[darkoverord]

Maaaan there was a version of this that also did all the spellcard calling too. I wish I’d saved it now.

[rabbitlegs2]

A classic

[zombiesakai]

spellcard version

do you mean this one

[rustic-ghost-deactivated2022112]

The laughter this cause almost killed me

[kinonetic]

Guess which dumbass is juggling between four artworks and a hard deadline!!!!!!!!!

[kinonetic]

DLC IN MARCH 4 FINAL NA BA YAN

We love Umi in this house

[markosep2001-blog]

Ninja Gaiden: Ragebound fanart

I finished Ninja Gaiden: Ragebound and I am very impressed with the game. Dotemu knew how to code the game. I had to trace buildings from a promotional poster and a level because I didn't know how else to draw them. I also the them to represent our protagonists: Kumori and Kenji Mozu.

[kinonetic]

Anyways I hope they don't reveal Yakumo's face for a long time you know what they say less is more

[kinonetic]

(heavy vent move along) ((warning sewerslidal tots))

Ever just feel like you want to disappear off the net for good yet you can't let go of it completely because being here is what keeps you going

I love the little interactions I get with people online and the appreciation (affirmation? attention??) they give me esp when I post my art but also I just can't ever shake off the feeling that I shouldn't be here. That I went past my expiration date. I should've been gone 5 years ago and yet I'm still here. My lock is a constant reminder of that.

It's suffocating to keep living and have your every move scrutinized, and the weight just keeps getting heavier because I'm a coward. The pent-up frustration from being infantilizzed and ridiculed by those around me throughout the years and then expecting me to "know [it] already" after reaching a certain age just because they spent a lot of money raising me and sent me to school (<- which is another can of worms but we don't talk about that). Really makes me wish I caught the bus a long time ago.

But also I can't just leave now especially after finding two steadfast friends who are just as crazy as me (if not more) and helped me step out of my cave even if a little.

These days I'm trying to interact with the community of a game I really like, and these feelings resurface every time I think of joining in. I'm still scared of being scrutinized/judged/hated/whatever when I interact with people. I just keep rationalizing that "it's just how it is, you can't get along with everyone in life" but that just made me more closed off than ever. So I end up not saying anything back.

It also doesn't help that I've embedded my self worth in art because constantly posting art has become "the only way to be seen／interact with others" so I become devastated when I don't draw or if it flops. (Not here though, I made this blog semi private lol)

Genuinely idk what to do anymore

Maybe it's this nostalgic song from highschool making me feel things. Maybe because my right hand is injured again so I've got nothing else to do to keep The Thoughts at bay. Maybe it's just my period making me like this. Whatever

[kinonetic]

Hggrnggghnnghj as expected I feel awkward posting my rambles on bsky (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠)

Is it bec there are a lotta eyes in there and my posts can get pushed into the latest/discover feed? Anw I feel a lil bad leaving oomfie out (after encouraging me to express my fantasies freely) but I like Tumblr more for rambling because it's quiet ++ I can control my blog visibility +++ I can also hide my rambles under the cut or in the tags

[remremreverie]

[tirtyturtle]

Mgs 4 Raiden ⚡️

[luckyladybee]

The last day of one's life.

[lemon1034]

some ragnas

[kinonetic]

Just forget

[aurilyus124]

helena / ヘレナ

[asahina-neru]

I finally finished it before deadline……

Congratulations on Ephemeral Page's fifth Anniversary🎉🎉