kipper😂✌️

i am 16 i like pokemon and metal and cigarette 💝 im lopunny irl actually i love metalocalypse and dark deception and im chopped but im sososo nice i feel hwllo

[kipperdawg]

OKAY! FORMAL INTRO POST!

MY NAME IS KIPPER!

i’m 16 brah

ANY PRONOUNS BRAH 🥹✌️

i love video games, (dark deception, idk roblox?), art, fursuit making, pokemon, (LOPUNNY!!) music, (METAL), shows, (metalocalypse) and umm dumbfuck humor 😂✌️👀

i’ve been institutionalized 3 times and i suffer from severe mental illness so I KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE I DO (not gonna go into specific disorders but if you wanna know ask)

i do smoke sometimes and i wanna do that MARY JANE again brah i don’t drink but 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

i’ve never been in any kind of relationship so i have no advice for that….

THIS IS ME!

[kipperdawg]

going to tour an alternative school i hope the students think im tuff brah

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yummy i had a full day of school today i did it happy 😂✌️✌️😍

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an foid is here !!

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even at my worst i could talk to him at my absolute lowest i knew at least i had someone who truly understood and like. now. i just don’t have that anymore ill be on my own i know i have other friends they just don’t get what i go through everyday and i don’t want to stress them out but uh.

i don’t know why life has to fuck with me this bad i don’t know why im responsible for carrying these issues and emotions why do i have to have this shit when all the other people my age have fun

im fucking wasting my teen years trying not to fucking kill myself by any means possible i’ve tried everything im in every possible program and just. nothings working. it’s hard trying to cope when it’s something that’s eaten at me for my entire life what else am i supposed to feel when my first coherent thought i can remember was the plan of hurting my family then killing myself when i was 6.

every memory i have of anything is tainted by my own issues and thoughts nothing is ever happy and i know people say it gets better but. maybe for others it will. but i know im just meant to be one of those people that never really gets anywhere. i guess every family has to have one and i guess this time it’ll be me. people look at me with sad eyes like all i am is mental illness. and the thing is that they’re not even wrong. it’s all i experience it’s all i think of its all i feel it’s all anyone around me thinks of me and it’s all ive ever known. no coping mechanism has ever worked for me as well as cutting myself has and ever since i stopped i just feel even worse than when i was.

i try so hard to not pity myself i say im privileged and have everything going for me but how can i concentrate on that when my brain is constantly telling me to do the worst things possible. that im a terrible person and that everyone will always leave me. and how can i think past that when things constantly happen that prove those thoughts right. i try so hard to feel better and make things better but i know for sure ill just end up killing myself. it’s not a question and it never was i always knew ever since i could think and feel that id end up doing it to myself no matter how i felt. there’s just no point in going on in life if everything just ends up falling apart i know things don’t work out sometimes but all my life it’s felt like nothing ever has at all. and i know thats not true but its all i can remember. i guess i just have to continue feeling like fucking shit every day simply because my family want me to “get better one day” when i know fucking great that’ll never happen and the thing is that i know they’re just trying to help and i have no reason to be mad at them i just really don’t know why it has to be like this

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yeah this actually is happening to me

i don’t think it’s sunk in yet that he’s really gone like

i knew this guy in real life i knew him personally he was one of my closest friends

he said it’s him that wants me to find better friends and that it’s his own problems that are doing this and it’s like

so i was fucking right when i said that everyone leaves and nobody genuinely likes me

what can i do anymore i just don’t know what i keep going for he was one of the only things that was consistent recently and not being able to talk to him is gonna fuck with me i know it

i can’t even bear to look at any of the things he made or got for me even my fucking profile pic on all platforms this one it was made by him for me i have to change everything

i haven’t experienced this type of loss in fucking years and i don’t know how to handle it

im just numb right now i guess i mean what else do i feel when my closest friend someone who i really connected with on all levels someone who’s been with me through it all leaves me for good

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what the fuck just happened

he said he shouldn’t be friends with me anymore because he’s just too depressed

is this like actually. fucking happening to me?

2 and a half years over in less than an hour?

[kipperdawg]

big news im seeing him today i made him a gift bag

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nevermind #crying

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big news im seeing him today i made him a gift bag

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please come to me if you need someone to talk to 💝

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please someone cancel me i wanna be problematic but not like actually problematic yknow what i mean!!!

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does anyone else like this band i love them so much

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i know that younger me would love who i’ve become today and that’s all that matters

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i try not to be chronically online but like every now and then i see some of the dumbest shit ever

also how come proshippers were just able to steal like cute aesthetics one of my closest friends said they thought i was a proshipper for a while cuz i dressed with lots of color LMAOO bro i can assure you i am NOT into that shit ✌️✌️

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im straight up so bored dude

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discord fuckers generationally easy to fuck with

i joked about mexicans as a mexican and they fucking banned me 😭😭 yall take shit too serious im crine

this your sign to get out that server and delete discord

[kipperdawg]

shit better burn my throat