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ugh

Toward the end of January, I saw Mufasa: The Lion King, and the song “Tell Me It’s You” has been scampering around my mind palace, chasing its tail and bouncing off the walls, ever since. I have spent my entire life in a state of constant hypervigilance, all too aware of how much space, time, effort, and oxygen I occupy despite my best efforts in shared spaces, and the lines, “Everywhere that I…

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hahahaha That’s really what true friends do xD

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LOOL

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Facts: - Shinhwa are trolls. - Shinhwa Changjo are bigger trolls than Shinhwa.  xDDDD .. (fc @yoom0324)

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unallowed

As an adoptee, I would like to humbly and respectfully point out that all circumstances necessitating the relinquishment of a child to the foster care system are inherently traumatic.  Adoption itself is a form of trauma.  In some cases — the best cases — adoption is akin to the amputation and cauterization of a limb to preserve life, and even then, you are being forcibly severed from someone to…

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just more of the same

just more of the same

My dog is suffering. I am suffering. I know that there are people who think I’m exaggerating.  I’m not immune to the natural human tendency to wax hyperbolic, so I get it.  I haven’t written extensively about what’s going on with Kennedy.  Kennedy has a condition called Geriatric Onset Laryngeal Paralysis Polyneuropathy [GOLPP] which means that he has some degenerative laryngeal and esophageal…

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🌟 Merry Christmas 🎄 @mattymattymatthew was very happy with the gift I got him from @beanboxcoffee. I embellished the box a leetle beet but it was already cute on its own. What a lovely company they were to work with. ♡♡♡ . . . . . . #beanbox #beanboxcoffee #christmas #christmaspresents #merrychristmas #merryandbright https://www.instagram.com/p/CJQlGkMpuAO/?igshid=bi1x5lyss482

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🌟 Merry Christmas 🎄 . . . . . . #kennedy #kennstagram #케네디 #켄스타 #켄스타그램 #펫스타그램 #펫스타 #petstagram #dogstagram #dogsofinstagram #개스타 #개스타그램 #babykennedy #christmas #christmaspresents #merrychristmas #merryandbright https://www.instagram.com/p/CJQkPD1p41s/?igshid=1tyinbfjcal9v

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Dumbcat the Orca ♡ . . . . . . #고양이 #고양이그램 #catsofinstagram #petsofinstagram #catstagram #petstagram #tsuki #tsukigram #月 #bluetabby #dsh #domesticshorthair #cleveridiotsinc #catinahat #kitanclub #kitanclubcatcap #catcap #catcapblindbox @kitanclub_official https://www.instagram.com/p/CGgFd2OJcz-/?igshid=18f7ub98tmndu

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Dumbcat the Orca ♡ . . . . . . #고양이 #고양이그램 #catsofinstagram #petsofinstagram #catstagram #petstagram #tsuki #tsukigram #月 #bluetabby #dsh #domesticshorthair #cleveridiotsinc #catinahat #kitanclub #kitanclubcatcap #catcap #catcapblindbox @kitanclub_official https://www.instagram.com/p/CGgFOpEp_MK/?igshid=1gu2dyvfwnxnt

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My baby puppy has been struggling lately. I have not written about it at length on social media, and I am not ready to do it here and now. I just want to celebrate how much I love this dog and how much he loves me, even when I do not deserve it. The abbreviated update is that Kennedy was recently diagnosed with #golpp, or #geriatriconsetlaryngealparalysispolyneuropathy (what a mouthful!) and will be starting his physical therapy journey with @healingartsvet in earnest this October. In the meanwhile, we will be focusing on his worsening anxiety and possibly encroaching #ccd, or #caninecognitivedysfunction. I treasure each moment where he is peaceful, lucid, and anxiety-free as a gift. All the other moments are out to break my heart, but I still would not trade away a single moment spent with him. Please think sweet, calm, serene thoughts for my #babypuppy, and if I seem sluggish or down, know that I am just grieving and care for you greatly even when I am quiet. ♡♡♡ . . . . . . #koreanadoptee #koreangirl #koreanamerican #korean #kad #nofilter #denimblue #denimblueombre #denimbluehair #modernselkie #shyselkie #kennedy #kennstagram #케네디 #켄스타 #켄스타그램 #펫스타그램 #펫스타 #petstagram #dogstagram #dogsofinstagram #개스타 #개스타그램 #babykennedy https://www.instagram.com/p/CFf4QxXpHBh/?igshid=k2vsiynufwy

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@koa.wild.lux worked her magic and painted me a new shade of blue. It was so good to see you, my sweet friend! Thank you for being patient with me dozing off in the chair during the toning process. It was 100% worth it to forego sleep after my twelve hour shift to leave your salon feeling like a chubby, happy, and positively pampered selkie. The skies are grey and weepy, but you are always a ray of sunshine to me. ♡♡♡ . . . . . . #koreanadoptee #koreangirl #koreanamerican #korean #kad #nofilter #denimblue #denimblueombre #denimbluehair #modernselkie #shyselkie https://www.instagram.com/p/CFf2Esdpicv/?igshid=brjnh13dajdt

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dear kennedy

Venting. My dog’s neuroses make me sad.

I know some of your demons: the trill of a pea-whistle, the shriek of the fire alarm, the gnawing growl of thunder and cymbal crash of lightning —

I know that you love your ears rubbed hate your paws touched only think toys are worth having if they make noise.

You rub your face all over the carpet after you eat, prance like an Olympic gymnast during…

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불러 줄래 my name

불러 줄래 my name

trigger warning: racial slurs

Before I was Amy — before I was even 84C-3093 — I was Kong Joo.  My name is the first Korean word I can remember memorizing and assigning importance to.  I have read comments, posts, and messages written by other Korean adoptees who were older when they came over.  The recurring phrase, “I knew who I was,”and the common fate of changed names and altered…

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blank

A working title. This one just kind of happened to me.

Tonight, I discovered that my fear of blank pages is not learned, but innate — a preexisting condition with a multitude of vicious comorbid disorders.

Sometimes, when I pore over the pages, (press my fingers to the text press my lips together press my fist against my chest) the empty spaces between the lines expand, a horde of horizontal,…

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My answer to the universe. ♡♡♡ . . . . . . #koreanadoptee #koreangirl #kad #nofilter #sealofdisapproval #teeturtle #modernselkie #sulkyselkie https://www.instagram.com/p/CD478--BjAY/?igshid=15keurav81mls

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Happy anniversary to the love of my life, @mattymattymatthew. ♡♡♡ I had so much fun scampering around Seaside with you today (and being part of the mask-wearing minority). Now we get to cuddle on the couch and watch the @dodgers! The past never seems as dark or lonely when I am reminiscing with you at my side, and the future always seems gilded with promise and grounded in possibility. And for the next five days, we can continue to dream about tomorrow while rejoicing in each today and celebrating all of our yesterdays. I love you so much, and I am so proud of the man you have become. Thank you for marrying me ♡♡♡ . . . . . . #happyaniversary #sevenyears #luckyseven # copperandwool #iloveyou #marriedlife #seaside #koreangirl #kad #dodgers #ladodgers #letsgododgers #dodgerblue #dodgernation https://www.instagram.com/p/CDxlNwEB5ni/?igshid=v8spy8u66fd0