Firm as Authority
Another essay of mine. hehe There's nothing confidential; it just contains the feelings that I have experienced recently thank you and enjoy reading :) follow me on tumblr @kkgodessstuff.tumblr.com :* Firm as Authority Communication is an important factor that should be paid attention in order to have consensus. In relationship, you have to be vocal about your feelings especially when there is something that you want to clarify. Wait, why am I saying these things when in fact I cannot even apply such to myself? How awful, isn’t it? Maybe I should stop from dreaming and associating reality with fairytales because that will only confuse me on what really to do. For the past 19 years of my life, I grew up believing that I can achieve perfection through setting things up prior to the actual happening. However, fate is as playful as kids. No matter how I try to work things accordingly, there are still loopholes anywhere that will cause the destruction and downfall of everything. It is very devastating to see that things are not falling into their proper places, or maybe I just cannot accept how they were placed. Having that feeling in which all you want to do is to end your life so that the pain and sadness inside your heart will all be gone, makes me think that my presence in this world is of no use. I know that we are all born with the right to be loved but I just cannot find the reasons for me to believe that. Don’t I have the right to choose the man to love? Why is it that the person I opted to love does not end up being with me? Sometimes, I wonder why we have to experience defeat, heart break, disappointment, and sadness; is it because for us to appreciate the real essence of HAPPINESS or FULFILLMENT? Or is it because for us to realize that it is not good to hurt others’ feelings? If the latter is the case, then why is it that there are still existing people who continue to upset and break the heart of the person who loves them? I cannot have the exact answer but one thing is for sure, in every failure, there is always a reward. It might come through different ways, depending on God’s plan for us but the good thing is that we will end up gaining something to become better. I do not want to plant anger nor hatred to the person who hurt me so badly because I know that that would not help me to move on. Maybe this time, God wants me to realize and take my time on doing things that are needed for me to become the person He plans me to be. The bitterness that I am feeling in these past few days is turning into seeds which will grow at the right time and which will implant my heart with shades that will color my life again. Whatever life may bring to me, I hope that I can surpass them all. This will not be my first heart break for sure but at least I’m learning on how to start AGAIN. After all that had happened, I can now proudly say to myself that I am now stronger and fiercer. It might sound bitter to you but I guess, I m just being wise and careful when it comes to decision making and responding to every situation I am in. Thank You God!














