wtfalexx:
“I’d be happy to send you instead of me so you can pretend to my step-father’s perfect son for a night.” He offered with a light shrug. It wasn’t like he made any effort at the parties, the most he did was dress up, show up, and end up in a closet with one of the rich guy’s daughters for an hour or two. He rested his head on his hand, chuckling a little. “It’s like…well, I don’t know what it’s like. I guess I’m just…scared? I don’t know. I’ve had girlfriends before. I’ve loved the first one, but it wasn’t like…in love. I’ve known Gen for a while and everything that’s annoying isn’t really anymore and I fuckin’ hate it. She knows me. She knows my past. She knows things that make me tick and things that make me happy. She knows my passion and is 100 percent okay with a long distance thing when I graduate, but I’m fuckin’ terrified of that shit. I’m terrified of being in it for real and just screwing up like I’ve done with all the other ones. So I act as if I don’t care, it’s better that way for me. To hide behind all the girls I’ve been fuckin’ since we got back.”
“M’good, my own parents haven’t talked t’me in years, forget crazy step-dad’s that aren’t even my own.” He said with a sigh. Jesse listened to Alex talk, it was more or less a rant at this point about his feeling towards Gen, and every time he wanted to cut the other off he bit his tongue, letting him get it off his chest before cutting in. “That’s just ‘bout the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard. What good is pushin’ her away gon’ be? If y’all love each other then y’need t’just give it a try, an’ if it doesn’t work out then y’know. What good is gon’ come of all of this fightin’ and shit that you two put each other through just so after it all y’can just say ‘what if?’ What if Gen’s the love of your life and y’let her go, on awful terms, just ‘cause y’couldn’t bring yourself t’try an’ be with her? You’re not gonna get her back if y’do that.”