Procrastinating Dying

[ko-s-chei]

Literally why the fuck are we even here right now

[ko-s-chei]

Don't bother turning 30

[ko-s-chei]

Will I ever do anything about it though? No

[ko-s-chei]

Genuinely so fucking exhausted of being like this

[ko-s-chei]

How are you supposed to feel satisfaction from just venting when what you really want is to rip your whole body open

[ko-s-chei]

He doesn't want you he wants his prettier ex

[maybe-an-aspd-angel]

Not me sobbing in secret because I want comfort and love so bad but whenever someone tries to give it to me I hiss and scratch like an angry abused cat.

[ko-s-chei]

I never learned to actually listen to my gut I only learned how to gaslight myself out of every single instinct and feeling I've ever had.

[ko-s-chei]

.

[ko-s-chei]

It's only because I was consistently throwing myself at you

[ko-s-chei]

He doesn't want you

[ko-s-chei]

Clarity

[ko-s-chei]

being around you makes me want to kill myself

[hearthholmes]

[dead-core]

"i'm here for you if it's a crisis!"

i am literally in constant crisis. it would genuinely be too much to ask of you and i would feel abandoned whenever you were (understandably) unavailable.

[narcissisdicks]

[ko-s-chei]

I want someone to be excited to be with me and actually want to use their days off to be with me