diary of a romantic

heartbroken and lost in the world; looking for my Mr. Darby or my Rochester

[moonlitmourningjournal]

[koalamuffin]

When will someone treat me this way.

[koalamuffin]

I no longer care for him, but I am so incredibly lonely.

[peacozy]

[daily-spooky]

[koalamuffin]

Q&A tag game

I was tagged by @brain-rot-central. I’m tagging @verai-marcel and @luna-in-disguise. No pressure, of course loves.

Last Song: Flicker by Poppy (but I’ve also been obsessed recently with Good Luck, Babe! by Chappell Roan)

Favorite Color: Pink 💖 (I’m such a pink bitch, no shame.)

Currently Watching: So I don’t really watch tv. I watch like a lot of YouTube, like a lot a lot. So I’m currently watching Neil Newbon’s latest VOD playing BG3. But if we’re talking tv, Yuri On Ice is on my list.

Sweet/Savory/Spicy: Yes? I like them all except that when it comes to sweets, I prefer to drink sweet drinks instead of eating sweet things.

Relationship Status: Single

Current Obsession: Still after all these months, Astarion. You wouldn’t be able to tell from my second page (@koalamuffin01) since I haven’t posted in a hot minute, but I’m just struggling with writing, not my love for the character lol. I still read fics everyday, all the time, it’s literally almost the only thing I do.

Last Thing I Googled: “[My area] Animal Control” There were a couple of dogs running around my apartment complex without tags and I had to get to work, so I couldn’t help. I called so hopefully someone would go out there and help the poor babies. I live near a highway so I was worried about them getting hit.

[deloveusion]

being individuals together is so intimate. let’s read different books but curled up next to each other, let’s visit a coffee shop so you can study and i can write, let’s just be near each other

[whatsnewalycat]

[koalamuffin]

I want a love that is all encompassing. I want someone to not understand how much they love me, to war with themselves these feelings they’ve never known before. I want to infect them and have them infect me. I want something fast and deep and scary. I want something.

[koalamuffin]

A letter to a fictional man:

Dearest,

I miss you. I cannot breathe without you, and my very soul yearns for your embrace. Please, come back to me. Be mine once again. Let me know again what it is to hold you and to love you.

[koalamuffin]

I realized this is our first Christmas not together and I sobbed. I bawled like a child from the loss.

[koalamuffin]

I did it. I was able to say no to you. Able to say no to comfort and familiarity because it’s what’s best for us both. We can never be just friends if I keep allowing myself to indulge in you.

[koalamuffin]

I keep finding myself under you but dreaming of someone else. Anyone else.

[koalamuffin]

I want to be loved. I want someone to look at my as if I was their sun, their moon, and their stars. You never did.

[koalamuffin]

If we were normal, I could let you go with the breeze. But you’re here. In my life constantly. I wish you would release me from your grip.

[progna-deactivated20231105]

I thought he was my moon, but he turned out to be an eclipse in my life, casting a shadow on all my hopes.

@_.progna._

[koalamuffin]

I can actually start to picture myself with someone else. Is that weird? They are just a silhouette without features, but it shows me I can have a future.

[koalamuffin]

You get to treat me however you want because I upset you