Even now, im still learning to stop myself from comparing and getting pressured with other people's lifestyle... we all don't get the same amount of resources and chances... that some of us just cannot do something fun (travel, adventure...oh, all the things i wanna do) spontaneously without worrying about money.. that we have different priorities...some people, like me, need to focus on providing for the family's needs...and that means setting aside (i hope not too long) once dreams (i want to buy a condo :<)
Seeing the life of my friends, how much theyve achieved, what they have now, made me question myself...what did i do with my money? where did it all go??? ive been working for 4 yrs but this is all i was able to save?? Do i have bad financial habit?? even with the salary increases, why am i not able to save much????...
Then i remember...i had to take care of a number of things..our family is not well-off. My father had to be a school service driver for years to support my studies, while my mother took chance on a number of businesses (lol i highly doubt some are networking schemes)... i was able to attend private schools thru the help of my relatives.. when i graduated college, i knew right there and then that i have to start giving them some of my earnings. Looking back, the first 2 yrs are the hardest. None is left in my pay bec of dorm, food, and the money i give... now, it improved a lot. But with the compensation improvements, a lot of expenses that i shoulder were also added. The pandemic did not help my situation at all. I remember being furious on the fact that my parents did not save well. That they have bank debts....but i couldnt blame them. They had to survive, and give us our needs thru diff means....cause that's their priority for a long time. And i think they were able to start living a little less stressful when i started working.
At random times, i find myself wondering how come my friends are able fo buy this n that? Able to go here and there? Isnt that expensive? How are they already living solo (im dying to do this but... budget constraints now) do thay get to keep whole of their earnings??? Sana all.
i now realize what is wrong. I looked at this responsibility as a burden of achieving my financial and freedom goals. I tend to forget to be grateful -- that i have a good-paying job to support my family, give back in a way, and still atleast have some money saved. I forget to give credit to myself... and recognize the things i have provided for my family from then til now.
i admit i am still in acceptance phase on the fact that my life differs from others and that it might take longer for me to buy my own place and live independently. IT IS OKAY TO NOT GET WHAT YOU WANT IN A SNAP BECAUSE WE ALL HAVE DIFFERENT SITUATIONS. Life is like that. Just gotta keep on going on. Let go and let God.
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