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Nice to meet you!

[komeiji-sisters]

#closedeye : posts made when I'm dissociating ¦ vent art and dolls ¦ posts about alice in wonderland syndrome ¦ posts about hypnagogic, somatic, trauma and sleep related hallucinations.

#openeye : pictures of my black cat friend or crows that visit the garden ¦ dream diary ¦ posts about animals and humans (connected to @comfybreeze10 Durin account)

#whiteroses : detached, dissociative state ¦ pictures of white things.

#littleeye : when a little fronts.

[komeiji-sisters]

I keep seeing critiques saying Osiris Dance means nothing... But I thought it was about the cycle of awareness, suppression, and forced coping in a world that normalizes harm. (Every time I want to cry > the idiot appears).

That's why it uses Osiris, because Osiris is the god of death, rebirth, and judgement, and the story of Osiris I know, is that he was murdered out of jealousy, and even after putting his parts together, he still couldn't go back to the world of the living, so it made sense to me as a symbolism of unjust suffering.

Wishy-washy, painless killing while the symbol is painting nails seemed to point to polishing injustice and harm.

The dolphin and nyannyan part looked like a clear comparison to how humans are forced to act like something they are not.

But maybe that's just me... For now the animation I was making is on pause for other reasons.

Honestly, it’s almost fitting if a song about language breaking down and people dressing up unfairness gets criticized for being a meaningless mess.

[inuyama0205]

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[komeiji-sisters]

Why are beliefs important aspects of our identities, if most truths cannot be known?

I think humans seek absolute metaphysical truths because they fear ceasing. There's this thing called Münchhausen Trilemma that resume pretty well how humans can't find that metaphysical truth.

But that's not to say faith or skepticism are bad. I think saying "this exists/doesn't exist", or "we can't know, so we tend to the present" is fine. If only curiosity received more love. When we can’t imagine alternatives, falling into the Münchhausen trilemma again, that frustrates me.

I'll try propose an idea that escapes the trilemma as an example.

For context, the exact patterns are:

1- The circular argument, in which we assume something in order to justify that same thing. So it needs a belief to justify a belief. Eg: X is true because Y, and Y is true because X.

2- The regressive argument, in which each proof requires a further proof. Eg: X is true because Y, Y is true because Z, Z is true because...

3- The dogmatic argument, in which we assert something without justification. Eg: X exists because I say so.

So for example if I say "possibility as autocatalytic": Negation, doubt, or contrast presuppose possibility (thus it's not circular), to deny possibility you assume possibility (thus it's not infinite regress nor a dogmatic argument). Possibility is a transcendental condition.

Still, this theory can be torn apart in several ways, especially because human language carries assumptions inside its words. To write anything like a ‘proper’ metaphysical truth I would need to understand language better, and maybe even then it would slip away. I just wanted to play.

[komeiji-sisters]

I'm trying, yes she's bald for now do not judge pls

[komeiji-sisters]

Sleepy creature 💤

[komeiji-sisters]

Vent/explanation ¦ video post

The song reminded me of a time when my best friend was manipulated by their parent into hurting me. That became one of the reasons for my agoraphobia. It’s also tied to how, as the agoraphobia developed, I ended up breaking a promise with another friend.

I related to the idea of a ghost still playing “hide and seek”, hiding home while everyone else continues their lives, with studies, careers... Originally, I wanted to do something felt like it might “haunt” the people who hurt me, but decided not to.

[komeiji-sisters]

best friEND ¦ youtube link ¦

The boy who glitches in is my OC/persona.

This was originally meant to be a vent animation and slightly different, but I decided to leave it like this.

I hope you like it :3

[softwaring]

mountain spectre moving up as the sunsets

[komeiji-sisters]

It hurts. Hurts. Hurts. Hurts.

(this makes no sense. It's a vent. Not thinking straight. I don't know if it's tw so just. I don't know.)

Every day paralysis for hours with mom asking "need help?" and not helping. Scary woman. Scary. Scary. Feeds me sweets and desserts over and over and over andnober.

Lately it's paralysis with heartracing. It hurts. I hate this. Boyfriend told her and she will call a doctor so she put a message to a doctor, that's good, we wanted emergencies but that won't happen, maybe tomorrow. It hurts. It hurts. She's broken lol.

Uncle keeps thinking I'm weak. Even though he still talks with the ones that made me disabled. That I shouldn't have dolls that it's bad that I'm not properly raised that I'm lazy. But also apparently saw dad do much worse things to mom and I and mom let them happen and just. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. All of them.

It's funny so funny when the family member you admired talks to one of the few people who you thought understood you. In public. A video. Everyone can see. Saying we basically bad family. Even though I was the baby closed in a small window space by his wife because she didn't like me crying. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. KILL ME.

(not for real tho I don't want them to die and I don't wanna die either it's the first time I say die about them actually but I really. Really. Am. Tired.)

Another funny thing is I usually don't care about my family but today I exploded and the thoughts was about them. I'll be ok. It's just a vent art text thing. It's ok.

[komeiji-sisters]

I like Osiris Dance, working on a short video with it :3

[cottageaesthetic]

[komeiji-sisters]

It's meant to be Koishi from Touhou. I keep trying to write things. Draw things. I keep trying to post things but then I don't or remake accounts or just fall asleep.

I can't vent, I don't even want to vent, I just want to let something out but no words nor shapes are enough.

[arianisaias]

favorite photos I’ve taken this year: series 2, photo 7

by arian isaias

[doll-babyx]

[komeiji-sisters]

I was really sad because I kept dissociating and couldn't feel I was anywhere, so I got under the blankets with the cat, and it was really dark so I started seeing floating eyes and things that weren't there and it was so nice and relaxing.

[komeiji-sisters]

Working on an animation :3