Hello, this is konknonbi. Please call me konnbi. Female pronouns. This blog was made for appreciation towards @/Nekoboydreams' visual novel, The Freak Circus.
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"Did you know some animals eat their offspring when they sense danger...?"
Angst, hurt/no comfort
Everyone was nervous for some weeks now…
The town, the circus crew, everyone.
A silent, but growing animosity was brewing between the 2 camps.
The circus was here for a time now, and more and more people disappeared. And while not all were the faults of your lovers, the town's population was ready to pin them all on them.
Silent scowls following you when you walked to the circus or left to return home. They knew you were with them. And each passing day you felt less and less safe crossing the streets of your hometown slowly becoming an estranged place to you, now that the Circus was your home and family…
Even the babies could sense the heavy atmosphere and you and their dads have difficulties calming them down. They cried and cried in the sick air of animosity. Sometimes you had to leave them still crying to return to your apartment. You proposed to take at least one with you, to share the burden for at least a night.
But Jester was not budging.
No underage monster will leave the premise of the Circus where none of the Fathers could protect them. They already had difficulties letting you go home when you announced the pregnancies, they are not about to let their offspring roam the town unsupervised.
So you left them to their fathers, crying yourself, and hurrying to return the next day.
Of course, Pierrot followed you to make sure you were okay on the way home at night. But you had to come alone in the morning most of the time.
You chose to silence the fact that people were whistling when you walk past them. That they purposefully bumped into you, or, sometimes, slammed you against a wall to spit at your face.
You chose to not tell them. To not anger them more.
To not put the entire town to death.
But each day it got worse.
Each day you grew more and more uneasy.
Each day, you jumped at mere shadows, or real tangible threats.
Each day you hurried yourself more to reach the circus quicker.
But today…
Today feels different.
Today feels… Worse.
The air is thick and chokingly hot and heavy. You sweat in your clothes. Everyone's face is darkened by shadows of anger and irritation. No one looks at you, which is not normal nowadays. and instead of relieving you, it sets an alarm in you mind.
And everything is so… Silent.
Eerily silent.
No music from the bars.
No chit chat from the tables of guest.
No car horn or engine.
Just.
Dead silence.
Only the wind wails in the tight streets of the city, and with it a scent of… Burning.
Like a fire…
Pushed by a gut-wrenching fear, you abandon your purse on the pavement as you rush to the Circus.
It doesn't take time for you to inhale the first fumes of smoke.
Fire….!
Fire!!!!
The closer you get, the worst the smoke and heat gets.
And when you finally arrive, a wall of the towns people are circling the circus, huge flames dancing, high like buildings, licking the tents. Some rose fools in their masks are on fire, or fleeing away, immediately stopped by some town citizens by a powerful punch in the face, circling them to do God knows what.
You press yourself between people to pass through the human barrier and reach the Circus opening. They let you pass in silence, but their gazes carry the threats.
And without thinking, or taking a proper last breathe, you jump into the flames, entering Hell itself.
None tries to stop you.
You rush to the babies tent the quickest you can, barely evading a falling heavy girder, only saved by Bil who grabbed your hand last second to pull you away from danger.
"(MC!)" He shouts to be heard above the rumbling fire, "What are you doing here?!"
"The babies!" You retort, pulling to let him go of you, "My babies!"
"The… Forget it, (MC), do not go there! It is in the middle of the flames! You can't do anything!" He tries, trying to pull you out of the fire.
But you pull harder, and manage to tear your arm off his grasp. You press your hand to your mouth and nose like it could do anything against the amber entering your gasping lungs, burning you from the inside. You dive under a fallen pole, Bil screaming at you to come back, but stopped by the wall of flames.
Your jacket catch fire, so you throw it away, leaving your arms bare for the fire.
It is a Capharnaum. Screams, bodies, people running to escape, slowing you down. And it is way too hot for your human body, you can't stay here much longer, but you can't abandon your children and your lovers behind!
You finally reach the tent, devoured by flames. You rush inside with the scream of your babies' names.
And what you see inside.
You struggle to believe it.
You even think this is just a distortion because of the boiling air and flames.
But… No.
You are truly seeing it.
Pierrot
Harlequin
Holding the babies
Blood on their mouth, pearling in with an obscene carmine tint.
Pierrot opens his mouth, baring his sharp teeth, and takes another bite of the infant that is already no more…
Harlequin swallows before getting at it again.
You feel your blood leaving your head and you just… puke on the ground. You fall on all four and your stomach empties itself.
That. Catches their attention.
You hear Pierrot gasping your name and Harlequin letting out a choked 'Fuck…'
And before you can say a thing, or even move, a purple mass appears before your eyes, blocking the horrors to your view, and carries you outside of the tent.
"(M/C)…!" Jester berates you, blood pearling at his chin too, "What are you doing here? Are you mad?!"
"Wha… What are you doing in here!?" You demand, gasping for air. "My… My babies!"
" So you saw."
" Why…!" You feel tears instantly evaporating from your cheeks, "Jester, why?! We could have saved them!"
You see a fleeting mixture of shock and horror flash on his white mask tainted with red, instantly replaced by a stern and resolute expression.
"No, (M/C). It was over for them. They started the fire near this tent intently." He simply tells you, "We arrived too late."
You press your hands on your sternum, trying desperately to breath. But you can only inhale fumes and amber.
"I… I can't… Breathe…! I…" You gasp out loud, mouth wide open, and you puke once more.
Jester holds your shoulder, keeping your hair out of the way.
You babies…
Your children!!
The incarnations of your love!
Your dreams taken human forms!
Your…
You cough up, your fist pressed to your mouth as your body curls over itself violently.
Pierrot and Harlequin leave the tent, looking at you with only sorrow in their eyes. Even Harlequin's usual mischievous light is dim.
They are not proud of themselves.
But it was an instinctive act.
Purely an act of survival.
You hug yourself, crying on the ground, not seeing a thing anymore in the sea of tears.
"Do you have the bones?" You hear Jester asks.
"We do…" Harlequin responds in a voice void of all life.
"Then, we can go." The purple monster declares.
He wraps his arms under your knees and around your shoulders and lifts you up, still blabbering incoherently about your kids.
Your heart is bleeding.
How could you ever survive such a turn of events…
How…
Your chidren…
You carried them, felt them grow in your core.
You gave birth to them, in blood and tears. You fought fate itself to give them life.
And now…
Now…
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"How is she?" Ticket Taker asks Jester.
The purple monster remains silent for a moment, observing what remains of all that they built going on in flames down the valley.
"I put her to sleep via hypnosis. The Doctor is checking her up."
"A chance they didn't see us flee into the mountains." The blue one retorts, turning to observe you, sleeping on the lap of Pierrot, The Doctor checking your pulse.
"You think they did not see us?" Jester asks with cold venom, a terrible smirk stretching his mouth, "I think they know exactly where we are."
The Doctor approaches with his arms crossed, joining his seniors.
"The fire and smoke provided us a solid cover, human eyes are not meant for such environment. They surely know we are in the mountains, just not where precisely."
"It is not important, when they'll come for us, we will be long gone. But we still have a present for such a good public. Doctor?" Jester turns his gaze up at the giant cloaked figure.
The black masked man opens his cloak and takes off a little box
"Pierrot, cover her mouth and nose." He orders.
The red clown presses your face to his chest, embracing you tight, an air of desolation on his features. The Doctor opens the box and a thin black smoke escapes it, descending towards the town, carried by the wind.
"It should take 2 or 3 days for the first symptoms to reveal themselves. And it will already be too late." He closes it back before sighing, "I had great experiments in process… I'll have to restart everything."
"We all need to restart everything." Jester reminds him, "Start anew. Fresh."
"And (M/C)?" Ticket Takes asks.
"We bring her with us, obviously." Jester orders, spinning on his heels to return to you Pierrot and Harlequin, "She sealed her fate with us. She comes with us."
"What if she wants to leave after what she… saw?" Taker dusts his hat, following his boss.
Pierrot looks up at them, blood smeared on his face, hugging you as he trembles. Harlequin is kneeling next to him, silent.
Unusually silent.
Jester sighs, kneeling in turn.
"She made her choice." He caresses a strand of hair behind your ear tenderly with his claws, "Despite everything, she chose us. In all our monstrosity…"
someone sold a physical piece of my art in TikTok.... and added LED lights to it too. They didn't contact me and said they just found the image from pinterest.
Big fan of your work!! You made a comic before that Briar worked part time as a model. What do the other circus members think of this? (aka Harlequin, Jester, TT and Doctor) Surely, Pierrot can't hide all the magazines he bought that included his lady hehe
I think they would say something like this:
Ticket Taker: "Has he been using his personal savings for this? I must contact the salesman who sold him these."
Jester: "These photos are not bad, the better it is on the model, the more likely humans are tempted to buy one~"
Harlequin: "He bought so many of these? Surely he doesn't mind if a few went missing ~?"
Doctor: "Some of these products all have the same function , why must have so many different colours and sizes?"
Also can u gimme some tips on drawing plssss ? :D i want to create a tfc oc with who i'll ship with Jester hehe
Uhhh drawing tips for your oc right?? Let's see.... Colors always matter when it comes to drawing the s/o of your ship. They can be harmonious, clashing, or something in-between. It tells the relationship of the characters. Always focus on bringing out the distinguishable feature about them, i care a lot on how I draw Briar's rose shaped curls, because it's what I want it to stand out from her simple attire. Hope this helps🥹
she is, but in clinical terms, she just had a damaged voice box. there's lore to it but I think when I finish chapter 1 of my comic and then focus on chapter 2 afterwards, you'll understand why!
Hey! Your drawings are DROP.DEAD.GORGEOUS GIRL!!!!!!! (gn)
You said reposting without authorisation but with credit was allowed, but can we use your delicious drawings as covers for fics (with credits, obviously), here on Tumblr? 👉👈
Sorry if it was already asked before, I'm new to the fandom and only just discovered your art ^^'
But magnificent art either way, you have a new subscriber!!!!
Thank you nonny!!!💕💕💕💕 In my blog reminders, I did mention personal use is allowed with credits! I'd be surprised and happy if I find someone using my art as cover for a fic, I'd read the heck of it!!
I made this illustration in collaboration with @春醴记工作室 Studio!
I never imagined seeing so much love and so many beautiful artworks celebrating Pierrot’s birthday! I’m truly delighted!
I also made another fun one as an extra little tribute haha!
By the way, some of you may have seen the earlier post where the symbol on Pierrot’s left arm had the wrong color. That was completely my fault, sorry about that hehe. I was so excited that I let that slip by!
Thank you all so much for the messages for Pierrot!
Feliz aniversario para Pierrot!
Fiz essa imagem em colaboração com o estúdio @春醴记工作室! Nunca imaginei ver tanto amor e belas artes para comemorar o aniversario de Pierrot! Estou encantado! Também fiz outra divertida como mais uma homenagem haha!
A proposito, talvez alguns de vocês tenham visto a postagem mais cedo com o símbolo do braço esquerdo de Pierrot da cor errada, Isso foi totalmente minha culpa, desculpem por isso hehe estava tão animado que deixei essa passar! >.>
Obrigado a todos pelas mensagens ao Pierrot!
