The Dead will Speak, for not even Death can Contain Us
I want to tell you a story about a trans woman who was murdered, and her surviving friends. The name most of you knew her by was "Emma," so that is what I will call her, here. I shouldn't be the one to tell you this story, I have no right to. But mostly everyone else who could tell it is either dead or dying behind bars. So if I don't, who will?
Recently, Alyssa Vance posted online about how Emma's friends pose a "danger to the community," using the events surrounding Emma's death to scaremonger and spread gossip.
Alyssa's post is highly irresponsible and malicious, since it's trivial to determine that the story Alyssa is spreading of Emma's murder is a lie. It's the same story that Emma's murderer, Curt Lind, has been telling. And Curt Lind is only telling that story because it's the only version of events where he isn't sent to prison for the rest of his life.
But it's not surprising that Alyssa would be party to amplifying Lind's lies. Alyssa has held a firm grudge against Emma and her friends for years. She's now monopolizing on this tragedy to threaten them.
So I want you to know exactly what happened to Emma, and the events Alyssa is lying to you about.
In This Backwards World You Get Rich being Evil and go to Jail for doing Good
Our world is upside down. The justice system represents injustice. Law and order is about creating an illusion of social peace to hide deep and systematic exploitation, violence, and injustice. Follow your conscience, not the law.
Curt Lind and his ex-CIA best friend, Patrick McMillan, spent months threatening Emma and her friends.
Unlike what the papers claim, Emma and her friends weren't squatters -- they were tenants who were struggling to find jobs or a place that would lease to them after MIRICFAR called a SWAT team on them in 2019. Members of CFAR's staff called the police and falsely claimed that Emma and her friends brought weapons to a peaceful protest in 2019. Subsequently, Emma and her friends were charged with trumped-up nonsense crimes following that protest, crimes which made it difficult for them to find housing or work.
Eventually, they managed to find a shady landlord who would let them park their trucks on his lot.
That man was Curt Lind, the man who would eventually shoot Emma's friend SL six times, and murdered Emma.
A picture of Emma and her siblings
Alyssa is still attempting, all these years later, to make MIRICFAR's fake accusations sound legitimate. Because if they didn't sound legitimate, then you might start to wonder what Alyssa and her friends were so desperate to keep quiet.
So Alyssa wants you to believe that it was plausible for members of CFAR to have believed that Emma or her friends had brought weapons to their protest. That's why she continually paints Emma and her friends as violent psychos. She doesn't want you to know that her friends lied and called a SWAT team to threaten and coerce these whistleblowers into silence. She doesn't what you to know what her defense of abusers has wrought, or about the blood on her hands.
When Alyssa, CFAR, and their friends claim they didn't tell the police that Emma and her friends had guns during the 2019 protest, they're lying. The police recorded a 911 call from outside the camp falsely claiming that Emma and her friends had guns.
Veritatem cognoscere ruat cælum et pereat mundus
Emma and her friends were protesting CFAR and MIRI's cover up of donor fraud, and accused multiple members of their staff and leadership of child molestation and sexual abuse, allegations which have been substantiated among the rationalist community, a community which had a culture of ignoring sexual abuse, and of blaming abuse victims for their own abuse.
The rationalist community has seen multiple scandals, suicides, and heinous rapes, and all of it has been brushed under the rug for the sake of protecting the reputations of the community's pet rapists and paedophiles.
Sometime during COVID, Emma and her friends became unable to afford rent, in addition to the cost of their attorneys. They prioritized paying the attorneys, since losing that court case would be a worse fate for them than homelessness.
In 2022, they were still battling those trumped up charges from 2019. The police and Sonoma County court threw out the evidence that supported Emma and her friends' testimonies, including body cam footage. It was a mess of flagrant bizarre lies on the part of the prosecution and police.
So, they couldn't pay Lind anymore, but Lind couldn't evict them due to the COVID moratorium on evictions, which lasted through March 2022. Eventually, Lind escalated to slipping threatening notes under their doors, and making sinister threats about how he intended to commit violence.
He was explicitly transphobic, believing that Emma and her friends, who were trans, were "men posing as women." At some point, he heard rumors from the community that Emma and her friends were members of a cult, and started telling other tenants that they were strange and sinister, in an effort to alienate them from their neighbors.
This culminated in one of the other tenants jumping one of Emma's friends on the lot. The tenant tackled her to the ground and started punching her head repeatedly. Curt Lind refused to evict him afterwards, even though this attack was clearly unprovoked.
Meanwhile, Emma and her friends had been continually receiving death threats from various parties in the rationalist community, over the course of years. Ziz's parents were doxxed, Emma herself was threatened repeatedly. There were numerous attempts to blackmail them, all of which failed. Someone even credibly threatened to bomb a rationalist meetup and blame it on her. Others threatened to SWAT her again.
When one of Emma's friends fled an abusive rapist stalker, members of the community fearmongered that Emma and her "cult" were behind that friend's "disappearance," all the while the community was working in tandem with that friend's former abuser to find them. They threatened to call the police and tell them that Emma and her friends had murdered her friend!
That's obviously untrue, and some of these individuals knew that and were using that friend's choice to stop speaking to their abusive ex as a means to create pretext to threaten to have another SWAT team called on false pretenses to Emma's home. It was an unending nightmare for them of terrifying, insane threats from every corner.
A few of these threats were documented on Ziz's blog, though most of the them weren't published. Other adversaries, like John David Pressman, became sexually obsessed with Ziz, and posted an entire website of bizarre lies claiming Ziz was a cult leader who was doing some kind of sleep deprivation gag. It was later revealed that he, Hive (@slimepriestess,) and Ratheka made up the whole thing. But people kept sharing it, and the rumors that Ziz was some kind of malicious cult leader kept spreading.
A selection of some of the threats they've received over the years
People sending threats like these had their legal names, the names of their family members, addresses of their parents, phone numbers, etc.
All the while, they were dealing with a court case, a murderous transphobic landlord, violent neighbors, obsessive stalkers, truck issues, and a stack of problems that would make most people give up in despair. They didn't give up, and managed to tread water for years.
At least, they were up until the day that Emma was murdered by Curt Lind.
In the weeks leading up to Emma's death, Lind made a number of specific threats. SL feared that he was a threat to her life.
She was right to be afraid.
The details of what happened next are graphic. They're the unadulterated experiences of the people who survived his assault. You know that scene from HPMOR where Harry does everything he can to save Hermione, but she dies anyway? This was like that, but so much worse because it really happened. And I'm writing it down here because I want you fuckers in this community to know exactly what you're tittering about.
This is What it's Like when you Do Everything You Can but it isn't Enough
Early one morning in November 2022, Curt Lind left his trailer and walked across the lot, approaching Emma and SL in front of Emma's home in Vallejo. The night before there may have been an argument, but that morning I believe Emma and her friends were packing their things, preparing to leave the lot. Lind was angry that Emma and her friends intended to take him to court, and had filed paperwork to that effect. So that morning, he decided to walk the length of the lot, all the way from his trailer to Emma's truck, carrying a gun.
Lind shot Emma point-blank through her heart and lung. She collapsed to the ground, and immediately her lung began filling with her heart's blood. She died within twenty seconds, violently coughing up chunks of her lung tissue in a futile attempt to clear her airways.
SL was shot six times, rushing in a futile effort to save Emma's life. The vest saved her life, but she was still hit through the neck and stomach. She acted only in self-defense.
Their friends had been asleep. It was early in the morning. They woke to the sound of gunshots and separately rushed outside, but hid when they saw Lind staggering about, still brandishing his gun. He'd already emptied his entire clip, but they didn't know that. He left to seek out McMillan, and once he was gone, they found Emma and SL lying on the ground in growing pools of their own blood.
A friend ran back inside to call an ambulance.
Their other friend ran to SL's side, prioritizing saving her over the life of their ex-girlfriend, falsely believing that Emma had been shot in the head, due to all the blood around Emma's mouth and around her head. Emma was their best friend and the love of their life.
SL wasn't breathing. So they ripped off SL's vest, searching for bullet wounds. They missed the shots to SL's stomach in their panic. Didn't realize until later that SL had been shot so many times. But it's an understandable mistake -- SL wasn't breathing, and their focus was on getting her to breathe again. They performed CPR on her, and it worked. SL wheezed, and said something like, that she couldn't feel her legs.
The friend told SL that Emma was dying, that they needed her to keep breathing no matter what.
SL would stop breathing multiple times, that morning. I think her heart stopped at least once.
The friend turned to Emma, searching for bullet wounds, and found to their surprise that there were no bullet wounds in Emma's head. They began to hope that she could save Emma, too.
They tried performing CPR. They must've not pinched Emma's nose tightly enough, because their face got sprayed with Emma's blood from her nose. So they tried again, pinching her nose tighter.
Emma didn't start breathing, but every breath they breathed into Emma's body had no effect but to pass through the corpse's vocal cords, making Emma's body make a guttural sigh after every attempt to breathe back life into her.
That friend did their very best, cracked Emma's rib cage to try to get her heart beating again. For a second they even thought they heard Emma's heart beat, but it turned out they were just hearing their own blood rushing in their ear.
When the EMTs arrived, they carried Emma's body to them, risking arrest in the hope of a miracle. The cops who arrived with the EMTs threatened to shoot them, gave them contradictory orders -- get on the ground, don't move, put your hands up -- they ignored them, and explained that there was another victim, that they needed to go back because their friend was dying and someone needed to keep her breathing.
The EMTs and cops didn't give a shit. They dawdled, focusing on threatening them and cuffing them over saving Lind's victims. SL survived because SD came back and kept her breathing, only to later be arrested for their efforts.
When the EMTs announced that Emma was dead, Emma's friend howled like a wounded animal.
Everything Matters All the Time; There are no Second Chances
So, that's what you've been treating as your entertainment, these last few months. That's what you're making jokes out of. That's what you've been gossiping about.
It's horrifying, right? Emma's friend said afterwards, that when they were in the hospital, they couldn't get the taste of Emma's blood out of their mouth. They kept coughing; some of it had gotten into their own lungs.
Emma was their home. They will never be ok again.
Imagine having your ex-girlfriend's blood in your lungs because you tried everything you could to save her life, but it wasn't enough. And now she's dead, and you're in cuffs, and the cops are considering blaming you and your friends for her death instead of the fucking person who murdered her.
It's hard to express the horror of knowing that most the people you've ever cared about are dying or are dead already. Of doing everything you can to save them, and knowing that your best isn't enough and that they will probably die anyway. Of knowing that others could help, but choose not to. That those you ask for help will come up with all kinds of absurd reasons for why you're being "unreasonable."
So many people took it for granted that this was all just a game, that the stakes were merely contained to reputational damage rather than to our lives. And through all the fearmongering and nonsense, the only threat Emma and her friends made to CFAR and MIRI was to their reputations.
They fought with their words, as I do now. But those associated with MIRI and CFAR threatened Emma and her friends' lives, for the sake of protecting abusers.
And now Emma is dead, and there are no second chances.
So now, months later, when Alyssa attempts once again to make Emma's friends sound like dangerous nutjobs, I wonder how many of you will fall for her bullshit once again.
So many of you in the past would believe the stories of abusers who have every reason to lie over the words of those who are defending those abusers' victims. How daft are you? Do you like being taken for fools? For a community of supposedly smart people, you all certainly enjoy being taken for some.
But because over the years you all let the likes of Alyssa Vance fearmonger and lie with no reproach, here is what happens to people in the rationalist community when they speak up about sexual abuse: they're SWATed, lied about, lose their jobs and housing, are pushed out to the margins and into the hands of murderous landlords, receive death threats for years, and then are shot to death by their landlord, or are accused of murder, and are then further slandered by community members who just can't miss a chance to rep for their favorite pedophiles and fraudsters.
So, in the strongest possible terms: fuck you, Alyssa.
Emma's friends were the bravest, kindest people I've ever met. They've housed homeless folks and abuse victims for months with no expectation of reward, helped multiple people in this community escape their abusive parents, partners, and roommates, and you'd cover for those abusers rather than help those who protect victims.
injustice is contagious, any sustained defense of evil, gets you arbitrarily large amounts of evil.
What you think are "small acts of evil" or "doing the wrong thing for the right reasons," if you're wrong, will snowball into a disaster. It's not worth it. You will bitterly regret it, if you care at all.
Now, once again, Emma's friends are being scapegoated. Because this world would rather kill its best people than abandon its abusers.
The Weight of Emma's Body
ur heart cannot die
& if ur heart cannot die, u cannot fail
To you who have threatened them and spread lies about them, I lay Emma's body at your feet. You who lied, bullshitted, and covered for abusers, rapists, and pedophiles. You who SWATed them, got trumped up charges filed against them, so they'd never be able to hold another job or rent an apartment again. Look at the blood on the ground, look at the body. Look what you did. Did you think this would silence us?
Not even in death will we be silent. Our words and Emma's body will dog you for the rest of your days.
No one good ever regrets doing the right thing. We'd do it over an infinity times, no matter the cost, no matter that some of us are dead or in jail. We'd do it all over again. And we won't shut up, we won't stop talking about what you did, how the MIRICFAR leadership covered up fraud and pedophilia, how their allies raped people, abused them, and covered it up.
And if I too should fall, another will take my place.
今日までの自分を
潔く 脱ぎ捨てる 裸にな
自由を舞う薔薇のように
たとえ２人離ればなれになっても
私は世界を変える
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From this day, I will take myself and
Bravely strip down to nothing at all,
Like a rose spinning free.
Even if the two of us are ever separated,
I will change the world.
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