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MD2023

Less than 2 months, and I’ll be graduating.... yet again. Since I’ve been born, I have had 3 graduations, and I’m on my 4th one. This time, earning the degree of DOCTOR OF MEDICINE.

Damn, still too much to let it sink in. Magiging doktor na ako.

appreciation post for this solid medkada

unplugged

Hello. Hi.

Can’t even begin to process what I am thinking about right now. But I guess here it goes...

It’s almost the end of first semester third year, and things (aka my acads) are slowly piling up and it’s starting to become hectic. It’s high-stakes exams after all, everyone’s struggling to catch up on backlogs and make ends meet before this fucking semester comes to an end.

But anyway, lately I’ve been feeling and thinking things, and this is not honestly good for me, since I tend to drift away from people. Sometimes I wonder, “am I being reasonable? or do I just need some time off?” To tell you honestly, I’ve been quite distancing myself to people lately. It helps me think, it helps me get stuff done, it helps me not overwhelm my thoughts.

But the funny thing is, this is not who I am. I like being with company, and I like interacting with people, so this is why it’s hard for me right now haha but hey, this isn’t the first time I completely shut myself off from other people, since I had a familiar episode last year. In the end, I’ll be the one who will make the first move. I guess I had to be more adept with my coping skills. /sighs I hate it when I do this, I hate it when I’m being like this, I hate it when I keep things for myself when I know other people can help me. I hate it when I can’t talk to other people about it because I’m afraid I just might fuck it up. I wish there were better ways for me to cope up.

But I guess I really need this unplug moment, but promise, I’ll reconnect soon.

2021 Life Update

Hello Tumblr! It’s been a while.

My life has seen a lot of changes since I last posted. But, same old shit. COVID19 is still here, but at least vaccination is ongoing and I pray that I get my jabs soon enough. I really want this to end. I miss the outside world. I miss physically interacting with my friends. I miss face-to-face classes.

Oh and yeah, I just finished online second year medical school. It’s been one hell of a year. 2nd year taught me how to balance everything, and take care of myself more. I’m already halfway in getting that MD. Oh, and I was able to get my scholarship back so that’s one less of a problem for us, but we still have dues to pay. I only pray it gets better.

So yeah, incoming third year here. They say third year medical school is #TIREDyear, but yeah no way to go but Up! So close!

LIFE UPDATE

First five months of 2020′s about to come to an end, and I cant believe im almost done with Y1 medicine. idk it’s been really surreal. To be honest, I really felt that first year medschool just started yesterday, but now, it’s already coming to an end.

It’s just unfortunate that the pandemic sort of ruined second semester of medschool. I was really looking forward to neuroanatomy, and to be able to dissect a brain hands-on. :(

Classes have been held online since the ECQ started, and it’s taking on a toll with my mental health and physical health. I’m always tired everyday, studying up until the wee hours of the morning, sleeping in, then waking up to study again. Medschool was never meant to be learned online. We’re studying to be future health practitioners of this country, and we need to be taught well and hands-on. I have no idea how my Y2 will start next year.

I pray that everyone’s safe. Apart from this pandemic, our government is really f*cking things up. It’s far from over, and everyone’s just trying to live by the day.

How are things with you? :)

#kwento #med #053020