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[astrronomemes]

A NOVEL I’LL NEVER PUBLISH : STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings from a YA novel I wrote back in high school. change & alter as needed.

“Are you just going to keep staring at that thing all day?”

“This is a bank, right? …So why does it look like there’s some serious horror movie shit going down here?”

“Personally, I think she was just born a bitch.”

“Get yourself something to eat.”

“We’ve got to get this place cleaned up and looking nice.”

“It only takes sixty seconds of your time, but the peace of mind it gives you will last for a lifetime.”

“And you’re not frightened of needles, right?”

“That’s got more lies printed on it than a presidential campaign poster.”

“Remember that weekend in Los Angeles? Well, this is just like that, except we’re not using dynamite, and there won’t be any human sacrifices.”

“Oh, god, it’s trying to break the door down!”

“Did you get that off a bumper sticker?”

“No one wants to deal with your shit, [name]. Why else do you think your parents ditched you?”

“I’m fine. I ate last night.”

“Yes, a fair number of global concerns could be resolved if only people would stop ‘saying things’.”

“I’m sorry that happened to you.”

“It’s been like this for as long as I can remember.”

“My parents weren’t really into all that sentimental ‘loving your child’ shit.”

“Do you think it’s after midnight yet?”

“Correct me if I’m wrong, [name], but I’m pretty sure no one in recorded history has ever had laser vision.”

“Still, it’s kind of cool, isn’t it?”

“There’s no reason to be nervous, honey. It’s just standard procedure.”

“Things will get better. They just have to.”

“We have enough to keep the lights on, or the water running, but not both.”

“Look, nobody cares about people like us, okay? They never do. They never will. We’re on our own out here.”

“Apparently, I’ve joined the ranks of the demons. That’s what the priest told me when he was trying to ‘save my immortal soul’, or whatever.”

“I’m just a fuck-up, okay?! I fuck everything up! Everything! All the time! That’s why I’m alone! That’s why no one wants anything to do with me!”

“I’m sorry it didn’t work out for us, son.”

“She’s probably just mad at us for breathing. Repeated offenses, you know.”

“I’m doing this for you! For all of you!”

“We’ll leave a light on for you.”

“You’ve always been a part of our family, [name]. You just took the long way coming home.”

[kshahrewarslight]

@inanthesis (for Alhaitham!) liked for a starter!

As much as he thought his life was going to change for the better going into the interdarshan championship, it is still just as much of a mess as it always has been. At least there was a bit of normalcy in that, he supposed, the expected hum and drum of life was something he could appreciate. Every single day need not be chalk full of unexpected happenings taking everyone and everything off guard and launching them into a crazy whirlwind - no.

Some days were just spent around the house, between projects and suddenly deciding Alhaitham needed a better art piece in his office.

So there he was, curled finger tapping his chin as he stood before the piece he had just finished mounting. Truth be told, he liked it a lot. It was a simplistic piece but it seemed to match the vibe of his office more so than the previous piece had - said piece now settled on it's side at the end of Alhaitham's desk.

Just as he heard the door to the office open, Kaveh turned, a smile pulling at his lips, "Ah, good! You're back, I just finished mounting this new piece of artwork - what do you think? Looks good, huh?"

[kshahrewarslight]

One would think after so many years writing on tumblr, I'd have a better concept on how to use the queue or a desire to use it better than I do.

[erabundus]

oh.  it's him ...  the  kshahrewar  representative,  huh?  the  wanderer's  expression  is  (  deliberately  )  UNREADABLE  —  only  the  faintest  glimmer  of  curiosity  conveyed  in  the  subtle  tilt  of  his  head.  he  isn't  one  for  striking  up  a  conversation,  yet  he  supposes  as  far  as  humans  go,  this  particular  person  is  slightly  more  interesting  than  the  norm.

❝ how are your RIBS?  ❞ is it an honest question or a thinly veiled jab? it's impossible to say; perhaps the true answer is somewhere in the middle.

@kshahrewarslight &&. liked for a SMALL STARTER.

[kshahrewarslight]

This years Interdarshan Championship was definitely one to be remembered, if by no one other than Kaveh himself. Truth be told, as excited ( albeit nervous ) as he was at the start of it all, he was glad that it was over. Glad that Sacchin and his ideals were no longer forced upon him, crushing his mind with the sheer weight of it. It wasn't anything he could stand by, much less want to continue the research upon, and so he was glad to be done with it. All of it.

Granted, that meant he didn't win anything from the competition other than the title of 'Champion', but all in all? He'd rather stick to his own ideals and morals rather than take anything from a man who saw nothing but horrible, awful things and hurting people in the world and sought to do nothing with it. Not with his enormous mansion who could house many, or the funds he provided to the championship that could help fund projects to help all of those hurting people. He was proud of his decision, even if it meant not bettering his own circumstances. At least he would sleep better at night, he could figure out the rest on his own as he always has.

But now that it was over, he couldn't help but be relieved, he's barely slept in the past week which was likely why he was feeling the immense amount of pain he was in now, that and --

"how are your RIBS?"

Hesitation faltered Kaveh's steps as he turned toward the other, the renowned 'Hat Gay' who had joined them during the championship. He certainly turned out to be an... interesting person, and a much more fierce competitor than Kaveh had initially thought. He really had pulled out all the stops in the last round to retrieve the diadem. It was impressive! .... If not, incredibly painful.

"Oh -" As if reminded, Kaveh lifted his hand to his side where the other had struck him dead on with an amazingly powerful blast of anemo. Despite himself, despite the tenderness of said rib injury, Kaveh laughed, "Thank you, I'll be fine, really. But, I appreciate the concern, though."

A smile grew across his features as his hand dropped from his side, excitement bubbling up in him once more, "That was quite the competition you put up out there, really incredible work. I'll have to remember not to get on your bad side."

[kshahrewarslight]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN.

what’s your phone wallpaper : Currently it's Xiao fanart (with Xiao and Venti as my lockscreen - whoops) I was excited when his banner reran

last song you listened to : I've been obsessively listening to the new opening song from the Sweeny Todd Revival - Josh Groban is a GIFT

currently reading : ,,, fanfiction - lol

last movie : Marvel's Multiverse of Madness

last show : Hawkeye (i was binging Marvel stuff whoops -)

what are you wearing right now : an oversized blue longsleeve shirt and cloak sweats!

piercings / tattoos? : No tattoos (yet), but I have 4 piercings in my ears!

glasses ? contacts? : Glasses, my eyes get real sensitive to contacts so I can't wear them often / long

last thing you ate? : bacon egg and cheese sandwich!

favorite color(s) : blue! Just .. all blue

current obsession : fe3h (as it's been for the last 3 years lol) and genshin!

do you have a crush right now? : heheheheh @haravatatscribe

favourite fictional character : * pulls out a list that is several miles long * Dimitri and Sylvain from fire emblem 3 houses (tho just set the entire BL class here), Xiao, Thoma, Kaveh, Alhaitham and Diluc (amongst so many others) from Genshin, Naruto, Gaara, Shikamaru and Rock Lee from Naruto, and so many freaking more. Like SO many more.

tagged by : @niloupar (thank u!!!) tagging : anyone who hasn't done it yet! feel free to tag me! :)

[kshahrewarslight]

@primewitch said: "" you know , i have been asking the grandmaster for a 'makeover' of the library for a while now . i believe i am closest to getting him to say yes , finally . once i do , i want you to design the room for me . ""

It had been quite some time since Kaveh had seen the lovely Lisa from Spantamad back in Sumeru. Why, when he heard that she had simply dropped her studies right on the desk where she had them and moved away back home to Mondstat? He was surprised. From what he had heard of his senior, she had an incredible mind, set to be the next sage of her Darshan. But all of that changed overnight, and truth be told, given how relaxed she seemed now? He couldn't help but be a bit jealous of her decisiveness.

Here he was doing absolutely everything he could to survive, to get enough commissions to not only make his rent to Alhaitham, but to save up enough to get a place of his own. Though that all just seemed like a pipe dream at this point, that didn't mean he would stop trying, though! Especially not if wonderful opportunities such as this keep finding themselves into this hands!

Kaveh couldn't help the light that brightened his expression as he sipped on his tea, settled in the seat across from Lisa in the outdoor seating area of Lambad's. "Oh, really?" He leaned forward, his hand already reaching down to tap Mehrak awake from beside him.

"That sounds like quite the job!" His smile was grand as his head tilted to the side with inquiry, "I've heard the library that the Knights of Favonius keep could rival even the House of Daena, do you have any ideas as to what you'd want done to it? I could start jotting somethings down until you get his approval." Eager as always, pen already in hand as he settled his scrap paper down before him.

[kshahrewarslight]

I'm still working on icons, but perhaps like this for a small starter?

[niloupararchived-deactivated202]

#𝙉𝙄𝙇𝙊𝙐𝙋𝘼𝙍 — independent, private, & highly selective blog for Nilou from Genshin Impact. this blog is LOW ACTIVITY, CANON DIVERGENT and HEADCANON-BASED. please read my rules before interacting & following. anyone under 18+, do not interact. penned by kee.

[promptfairy]

𝟑, 𝟒, 𝟓   ♡   𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒

𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄

“  let’s go home.  ” “  um,  excuse me?  ” “  you broke it.  ” “  need a hand?  ” “  please,  help me.  ” “  i missed you.  ” “  i’m not sorry.  ” “  tell the truth.  ” “  what happened here?  ” “  got a minute?  ” “  life’s a bitch.  ” “  you’ve done enough.  ” “  i’m still learning.  ” “  don’t touch me.  ” “  was that you?  ” “  there’s no god.  ” “  you deserve better.  ” “  you’re a saint.  ” “  you are enough.  ” “  maybe you’re right.  ” “  this will pass.  ” “  you complete me.  ” “  you got this.  ”

𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐑

“  don’t be so dramatic.  ” “  no guts,  no glory.  ” “  i’m calling for help.  ” “  run away with me.  ” “  it’s always been you.  ” “  some things take time.  ” “  you’re being awfully quiet.  ” “  please don’t hurt me.  ” “  snap out of it.  ” “  did you miss me?  ” “  how do i look?  ” “  i wanna get better.  ” “  whatever floats your boat.  ” “  i’ll love you always.  ” “  what are you waiting for?  ” “  at least i tried.  ” “  give me a kiss.  ” “  what’s the fucking point?  ” “  god,  i love you.  ” “  i’m doing my best.  ” “  i waited for you.  ” “  you woke me up.  ” “  stay with me tonight.  ”

𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄

“  you can’t keep doing this.  ” “  i think i love you  …  ” “  you make me feel special.  ” “  are you upset with me?  ” “  you need to heal first.  ” “  let me see the wound.  ” “  is your brain even on?  ” “  don’t give up on me.  ” “  you are perfect to me.  ” “  i can’t take this anymore.  ” “  you are my favorite person.  ” “  you had me at  ‘  hello.  ’   ” “  i wanted to see you.  ” “  don’t give me that look.  ” “  you’re a work of art.  ” “  i’m not scared of you.  ” “  i have  …  so many questions.  ”  “  do you think i’m stupid?  ” “  just tell me what happened.  ” “  i just want to help.  ” “  we need to be careful.  ” “  what did you just say?  ” “  i miss talking to you.  ”

[haravatatscribe]

kshahrewarslight asked: “ I don’t want to be a burden to anybody when I die. ”

Alhaitham bit back the tut he felt in his tongue, knowing that all it would do was put Kaveh on the defensive. Drinks or otherwise, he was. . . troubled. Alhaitham was certainly one to stir the pot with one as emotionally volatile as he, it was true. This however felt a degree of insensitive even he would steer clear of.

He leaned an elbow on the table, quirking a brow. "Good that you're not dying. Just drunk." he observed, measuring his tone to maintain a casual air. He dare not give any indication of being actually concerned- nothing would make Kaveh clam up faster than unmeasured sincerity from the supposed 'egoist' in his life. So- rational, poised, clipped, keep it judicious.

"Though you've sparked curiosity- why is this the slope we're slipping down today?" He hadn't missed the anniversary, he was certain-

[kshahrewarslight]

It was, unfortunately, often that Kaveh found himself in this particular booth, in the particular seat on the far side of Lambad's tavern, upstairs and as far from others as he could possibly be, he may as well call it 'home'. Well, now that he thought about it, he called it that for quite some time, didn't he? So just how could he be surprised when it was one of the few places he felt comfortable enough to drown himself in his own sorrows.

His mind had been riddled with the ever growing darkness that seemed rampant throughout his mind, one thought latched to another and made their way into the darkest depths until there truly was nothing left but the horrible swirl of thoughts he found himself now. Lost and stumbling through his own consciousness, he found it hard to even deal with himself when he was like this, he could hardly imagine forcing him upon someone else. Here he was devoid of any filter he typically made sure to keep up, alas now, his words flowed endlessly like the rivers that split apart the trees deep in the rainforest.

"'m not dying," He lifted his head from the place it had previously found rest on the table, giving the other a gentle nod before bringing the chalice of wine to his lips once more. "Just not drunk ... enough," A bemused chuckle was cut short as he finished off his wine, settling the cup down on the table with a satisfied sigh.

One would think, after the sheer embarrassment he felt after occasions such as these, he would do better than to get himself into a predicament like this. But alas, when the darkness creeps up on his doorstep, he found himself uncertain what to do but sit alone in the horrible trenches of his own mind.

A shake of his head as Kaveh leaned back in his seat, his gaze going anywhere but his junior, "Besdies ... being a burden is all I seem to be good for," His words were quiet, barely a whisper, as if a small breeze were to flit through the tavern it would've taken his words away without a second thought. But alas, in the still air of the tavern, they could be heard over the quiet of the upstairs seating area, much to Kaveh's own chagrin. Even if he, himself, hoped was the only one to truly hear the words and gather their meaning - Alhaitham was smart, he saw Kaveh for what he truly was.

"The least I could do is to try not to be one when I pass." The conversation was not one Kaveh, himself, was fond of, in fact were he not drinking he would never dare to bring up such topics at all. But unfortunately several cups of incredible wine on an already empty stomach did not bode well in the game of secrets.

A burden, it seemed, was all that he was. That, however, was no secret, not to Kaveh, nor anyone else who looked at him with a close enough eye. After getting his own father killed, one just might believe that he'd do better for those around him. And archons, he tried, truly he did. But it always just seemed to never be enough, not smart enough, not good enough, not enough, never enough -

Now his father is gone, the anniversary of which was coming up too soon for Kaveh to be fully prepared for, his mother found herself a whole new life in Fontaine and here he was ... stuck in the stew of his own misfortunes.

Never enough indeed.

[primewitch-a]

if i were to recover my full power , WHO KNOWS what kind of things might happen ?

[kshahrewarslight]

Are you ever just absolutely devastated by a character that you are just emotionally compromised for the day?

[kshahrewarslight]

@haravatatscribe said: Pray tell- why does everyone suddenly call you- let me just che- ahh, yes. . . babygirl?

Arms crossed firmly over his chest, a scoff escaping him, "Perhaps because I deserve the title, unlike some people I know. Why? You don't have an issue with it, do you? Some people seem to actually like me!" at least he hoped they did.

[aiiouros]

I'M NOT A PART OF YOUR GAME Stop pouring fuel to my RAGE Don't think you're so hard to BREAK Come close to me, come close to me

Private | Canon Divergent BASTET DEHYA of Genshin Impact [Beloved by Koi & rules under pinned! ]

[kshahrewarslight]

Kaveh is besties with all the Sumeru Girls, I don't make the rules.

[kshahrewarslight]

The way I can't wait for Tuesday so I can be the most delusional 4* main --