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propazganda

how neurotypicals think triggers work

i had a traumatic experience but i’m 100% fine and never think about it

unless i see a neurotypical-approved trigger

then i will remember it all of a sudden and have a horrible panic attack

how triggers actually work

i had a traumatic experience and the long-time effects of trauma influence my life every day

seriously, no one forgets about a traumatic experience

(unless they repress those memories completely)

a trigger is something that makes those memories resurface

triggers can be anything; words, phrases, smells, symbols, colours, things that seem ridiculous to you but to me have a connection to my traumatic experience that i am not obligated to explain just because you think i’m “tossing the word trigger around like it’s nothing”

reactions to triggers can range from slight discomfort to severe panic attacks; none of these reactions are less valid because they’re not ‘bad enough’

my general mental health influences how i respond to a trigger. the same trigger might not bother me on a good day but make me suffer from paranoia and anxiety on a bad day. it is still always a trigger.

veterans are not the only ones suffering from ptsd. “war” is not the only real trigger.

mocking triggers (no matter how silly they seem to you) means mocking and disrespecting everyone who had a traumatic experience and asks people to tag triggers because they don’t want the memories to resurface more than they already do anyway

you’re not my therapist. you have no say in what triggers me and how i am supposed to deal with that.

so if i ask people to tag penguins, but don’t feel comfortable telling everyone that the reason for this is that they are my abuser’s favourite animals which they often talked about (when they weren’t hitting me, locking me up and letting me starve, and telling me i deserve it), you have absolutely no right to make fun of that

bye

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misscokebottleglasses-deactivat

Same

kt-slow-blog

Cat drugs

dogtired

kt-slow-blog

I feel that ppl celebrating this are the reason why we need trans people to tell us how to support them when they come out.

dreamybrowngirl-deactivated2015

Honest to god, I would pay money to see sex workers talk about white customers the way they do about customers of color.

I would pay to see you guys blame how white customers act on their culture. I would pay to see y’all ignoring white men and dehumanizing…

slutfromthe2000s

do you. if you’ve have personal experiences that have lead you to be wary of certain demographics, don’t ignore them. i sure as hell don’t. fuck these girls criticizing you. none of their asses are going to be in the room to save you if shit hits the fan.

dreamybrowngirl-deactivated2015

Missing the point entirely. Go on ahead and make assumptions about people based on their skin and dress it up however you want to, but like I said before, it’s bullshit. It’s racist. Period.

slutfromthe2000s

they’re not assumptions based on skin, their assumptions based on experiences. big difference. and if you think demographic realities don’t impact behaviors and how certain communities view and treat sex workers then you’re being extremely naive and i truly wish you the best out there because you’re going to need it girl. certain cultures DO have an entrenched view of sex workers as being lesser than and not deserving of respect and it comes through when members of these communities come for our services.

dreamybrowngirl-deactivated2015

1. They’re assumptions based on skin. If you look at a man of color and opt to ignore him because you think he’ll be horrible, you have just A. Assumed his race. B. Made assumptions about what his behavior will be based on his race. C.Made assumptions about his culture and upbringing when you more than likely aren’t familiar with his culture beyond what you’ve heard from sources which are more than likely very biased D. Assumed that this man and the men you’ve previously had bad experiences with share a culture E. Assumed that because those men treated you poorly, he will too, because they are the same race, which means F. You made assumptions based on skin!

2. Obviously there are cultural differences, but the fact that some of y’all can sit here and act like it’s totally okay to ignore and dehumanize men of color for the bad behavior of a few, while consistently being okay with white men is more than telling, as is the fact that y’all never have shit to say about white women being racist, but have EVERYTHING to say about a woman of color calling y’all out on your fucking bullshit. :)

3. “certain cultures DO have an entrenched view of sex workers as being lesser than and not deserving of respect” See. Glass fucking houses. Because I mean most of the time, WHO is it that bars y’all from jobs? WHO is it who is trying so hard to keep sex work criminalized? I TOTALLY forgot that it was just those pesky ass men of color, white men TOTALLY don’t have the same fucking ideas or anything.

4. I’m getting tired of repeating myself. For those of y’all in the back, once again, my point: When it comes to bad behavior, white men get a clean slate every time. Men of color get a slurry of assumptions based on the previous behavior of people they don’t even know.

kt-slow-blog

I got called out on this once. I said something rather racist and didn't think it was. I consider myself an ally and was such a shitty ally, participating in institutional racism and just fucking RACISM.

White guys offend at the same rate if not MORE bc they are entitled little assholes. Somehow I chose to not care about it as much. The man who touched my pussy that time? White. The men who sucked my tits? White. The man who drugged me and my friend? White. The men who did the worst things to me were all white but if you asked me what racial groups I would avoid, white never came up.

White men offended the most but I guess their behaviour was diluted by the sheer volume of white men vs poc? Who are we kidding. I was trained to be believe and think that when white men offend it's like. Not as offensive as when poc offend. When a white man offends it was somehow not as offensive as when a poc offends. And not only that but is it not strange that I remembered the poc offences and held grudges against them but not white guys?

It's racism. I was being racist. I check that fucking behaviour but I was extremely racist openly and didn't even fucking notice.

Part of being a good ally is to listen to the people you are allies TO. If they are telling you that you are being racist then take a seat and listen to them because you probably are.

orhgasm

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raptorific

By far the best part of Assassin’s Creed III is the fact that you can chase down the founding fathers and just harangue them, just bully those slaveowning nerds and shove them around a bit.

Here we see the guy on the $1 bill kneeling and crying because a stronger boy pushed him

one-big-hassle

George Washington didn’t own slaves. He inherited slaves but set them free because he saw slavery as inhuman.

#DO YOUR FUCKING RESEARCH #AND PAY ATTENTION IN HISTORY CLASS YOU DUNCE BUCKETS

raptorific

George Washington inherited some of his slaves from Martha’s first marriage, but owned over 100 of his own by the end of his life. He did not give any indication during his life that he saw slavery as inhuman and, in fact, was pretty enthusiastic about the practice of holding humans prisoner and putting them to work in a forced labor camp.

When he needed new slaves, he known to ask for “Six or more n*****s… males… well-grown lads… healthy, and none of them addicted to running away.” (Letter from George Washington to John Francis Mercer, November 6 1786)

There was also his practice of dealing with “misbehaving” or “unruly” slaves was to ship them off to an even more brutal plantation in the Caribbean in exchange for various luxury foods and drinks. Like in 1766, when he sent an “unruly” slave named Tom to the West Indies in exchange for barrels of molasses and rum, or then again in 1791 when he shipped of an unnamed “misbehaving fellow” in exchange for “one pipe and quarter cask of wine.”

Now, you’re partially right on one thing. He did set his slaves free. In his will. You know, when he was dead and therefore done exploiting them. Couldn’t be bothered to do it while he was alive and stood to lose something from, you know, releasing the inmates of his forced labor camp, but he did technically allow SOME OF them to go free when he was no longer alive to enjoy the fruits of their labor.

You might be thinking of Ben Franklin, who actually did set his slaves free and take up the cause of abolition because he thought the institution of slavery was abhorrent, but this was also something that made him incredibly unpopular, especially with enthusiastic slaveowners like Washington and Jefferson.

Oh, and in reference to your tags. Temple University, class of 2014. Bachelor’s in History. During my years there, I specialized in American history and specifically built my curriculum to cover race relations in detail. The subject area of my capstone class was the American Revolution. If you’re going to accuse someone of skimping on research and not paying attention in history class, maybe don’t pick someone who just came off of five years of history class culminating in a final intensive course on this exact subject when you couldn’t even be bothered to google it.

kt-slow-blog

I love this man

montoya

betteroffdeader-deactivated2019

There are three kinds of people.

gifak-net

sipnsyphe

That’s what you get you little shit.

thebootyclap

bwahaha.

workingitinportland-deactivated

Sedan Tank girl Climaxx Synthetic Committed…

yw84fun

The worst one I can remember was Chevon.

I asked her if she knew what her name meant, and she said she just liked the sound of it. Then I told her that chevon, spelled the way she spelled it, meant goat meat. She just looked at me funny.

I never found out for certain, but she might’ve been trying for Siobahn.

workingitinportland-deactivated

Worst stripper names I have heard

OMG but you know if she spelt it right DJs would have murdered it.

I used to work with a Giselle and the DJs couldn't pronounce it unless they spelled it "jizel"

kt-slow-blog

jizel rofl rofl rofl

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prestonhymas

"AHH, WALTER, GET THE BUG"

"I am TRYING, HELEN”

pan-pizza

milkvat3

Australian news at its finest

lookdespair

Hello! I'm not completely sure how to word this, but, uh- basically, for the past few years I've been trying to make myself comfortable with my body. I really admire you for how much you love your own, (as you should be, you're beautiful jfc) and I was wondering if you have any tips on learning to love the way you look...? I try really hard, but it's really difficult for me, and I would greatly appreciate any advice you might have to offer.

yeah, I have some!

I tried to internalize three concepts:

Nothing matters

I am going to die soon

I am going to be alive for a really long time

I know that sounds weird, but let me explain.

Nothing matters, for me in the long term I don’t think there’s a reason to be alive. Maybe you do - for a lot of people, their reasons to be alive are about being a good person, finding love, being close to their God, etc etc. But outside of those things? Nothing matters. So what if I’m actually ugly? Does it matter? No. What if I’m nothing but a big gross ball of flaws? It’s not important. I am not obligated to be beautiful. I can still be a good person with a good life and be physically hideous.

I am going to die soon. I know this is morbid, but really, human beings don’t live that long. How much time am I going to waste feeling ugly? Do I want to look back at 80 and go “ugh Claire you dumbfuck you spent 50 years of your life terrified that you weren’t pretty!” Life if so short, even for those that get to live longer than others. I am going to die soon. Don’t I deserve to live the rest of my years without worrying about how I look?

I am going to be alive for a really long time. I know, I just said I was going to die soon. But if I die tomorrow - 21 years is hella long. 21 years is way too long for me to feel ugly. I don’t deserve that. I’m going to be alive for a really long time, I’m going to spend it as best as I can.

Also:

Stop avoiding mirrors - look into them often. Get to know yourself very intimately. Pick out something - at least one thing a day - that you like about yourself. Bonus points if it’s in the same area of something you hate - like you hate your acne but you love your freckles. You love the shape of your ass but you hate your stretch marks. Focus on what you love.

Look for the things you hate in other people. You won’t hate them on them, you’ll just feel relieved. When I feel off about my stretch marks, I hunt for them on other models. I always find them, however faint. When I feel weird about the size difference of my breasts, I look for them on other models too. When I see it on them, I just think “well that’s fine. what’s the big deal?”

Take control of your body. I have never felt as good about my body than when I observed a fresh piercing. Or watched myself get tattooed. Or rinsed dye out of my hair. Or discovered that after months of hard work, I was exceeding my weight lifting goals. It is your body. You can do whatever you want with it.

Change the things you want to change. Wish your breasts were more even? It’s okay to get surgery. Hate your afro? It’s okay to get a weave. Hate your self-harm scars? It’s okay to tattoo over them. Wish you were a little more buff? It’s okay to work out. There is absolutely no shame in deciding to change what you want to change. Be who you want to be.

Hope that helps!