A love reflection in loneliness
I love you, as much as I possibly can, which is not as much as you need.
I need your heat but the touch repels me.
I dream your presence but somehow we are always further away from eachother.
I wish i could reach for you, but the rules bind my hands with messages i can't read, as i don't know the codes they're written in.
I'm sorry for my egoistic impulse to love you but just not enough to make you feel loved.
Platonic is too weak, romantic is too much, as if they where the flattest land and highest mountain. In the middle ground i'm alone, as no one is able to find the stability necessary to stop between the rocks during the climbing.
But the view here is so unique, free from the obstacles that block the land's perspective, but not as detached from reality as the climbers on the top are.
A sundown is painted before my eyes, my most beautiful sensation.
But you're efforts to drag me up, or down, from my spot, only result in deep cuts on my legs, as they're hitten and scratched by the mountain's side.
It makes me want to cut the rope and let you go. But i won't. As you are my most precious dilemma.
I just wish you could appreciate what i see from here, if only you won't need those definitions imposed on our relationship by others.
I want to feel you close, can we try to find eachother in this cold fog? My love, i won't disappear, can i trust you not to do the same?
~Ecar
