I apologize for the sudden announcement, but from today, October 10th, 2015 I stopped all my activities as 「Suzumu」
as the reason for it, I’ve summarized it in points of these clumsy sentences
・ I have admitted some songs, lyrics, music I have not own as mine and gain profit from it
・ I have spoken about 「things that disadvantages the related person above」on public
・ due to my lack of management I have made trouble from financial aspects to related person
about the details of 3 points above, as the related person asked, I’ve decided not to listed it here.
there are also other reasons more or less, unrelated to these.
the sense of justice I had as a child, before I knew it it has turned into excuses to protect my own self,
I lie to myself again and again, lost in my own pride, before I knew I’ve come to have this ugly eyes, eyes that unable to see straight to anyone.
I’ve betrayed my friends who believe me even that I’ve become like this,
I manipulate, I said something that started a rumors which is different from the actual facts, and regarding to that I’ve done something that I can’t take back,having feeling guilt from these all,
I know I should not making anymore trouble to anyone, and to take all responsibility I’ve come to this decision.
speaking the truth, even though I said to take responsibility, there is myself who run from it.
from when I started working on music, no, even before I started, I believe I don’t have confidence in myself,
but in the opposite I’m scared that my name that have grown bigger will disappear.
from the start of this year, there are many friends who offer help to me who come to get lost of my own self.
but I’ve become unable to trust even these kind people, I neglect all advices, and so day by day all these things piling up as I still unable to find my self, thus this day come, and I’ve decided from the bottom of my heart to end this.
no matter how hard things are going to me, I’m not that person that have courage to end my life.
please do not worry about that.
lastly, I deeply apologize that I come to this conclusion without consulting anyone or even related person.
I repeat, from now on there will be no activities from 「Suzumu」, if there’s any person using that name, it’s another different person.
Finally from today on I feel like I can be honest.
Thank you for all support to Suzumu until now.