Ignorance? He had some damn place to talk of ignorance. He couldn't even understand why she felt the way she did, why she was responding to him in such a way- or maybe he just didn't care, and she wasn't sure which it was, which almost added to the stirring emotions she felt right now.
"Seek blame? Are you joking right now?" She couldn't quite explain the anger he brought up, but it felt like he had just poured gasoline on a fire and sat back while it erupted...
"I came back to help, Kaze, something you clearly seem to think I can't do, or shouldn't do. You sit here and say emotions don't belong on the battlefield like it's a fucking switch you can flip- well it's not, and it never will be," she snapped angrily, finding herself stepping closer to him.
"You don't get to say shit like that after what happened back then. I found out that a man I once loved wasn't even the man I thought I knew, and I don't know how long someone else had control over him, or if he was ever himself in the time I knew him. So dammit, Kaze, I get to have some emotions about that. I get to have emotions about everything that led up to that mess, I get to be angry as hell at Gaudium for causing it all in the first place, and at you for trying to make me stay there!"
How could he not understand? Why couldn't he just understand how she felt, why she was so angry then, and even now? Why couldn't he just stop acting like he didn't give a damn?
"I'm not blaming anyone else for my actions, Kaze. You think I don't know I went too far? Do you think I don't know the mess I made back then? What, do you think I just brought myself back through the portal and left everything as it was like I was on a stroll?"
The nerve he had to accuse her of seeking to place blame... As if she hadn't already taken accountability for what happened.
"Firstly, you don't get to fire a weapon that you had pointed in my face, and then act like there was any real choice there. You wouldn't have done it if you thought I wouldn't listen when you did that. Secondly, I tried making sure Ai and Yu were safe, but things got hectic and complicated before I could really get to them, and it was out of my control. And lastly, when I finally could come back to Wonderland, I made sure to try and close the portal. So don't you dare act like I'm ignorant, or like I'm passing off blame."
Lisa wasn't even sure if he was still listening to her ranting at this point, but she was gonna make sure it at least heard it.
"You want to talk about ignorance and you even have the nerve to ask me what my fucking purpose is, but you can't even admit that you weren't giving me a choice, and you know that. And I'll be damned if I sit here and let you act like it."
She wasn't sure when she had gotten close to him, but she had, looking up at him, her expression laced with anger at his so few words. Anger that came from his actions and her own.
He could say so little, and make her say so much, and she wasn't sure who that said more about, or if it meant anything at all. All she knew was she was furious, and she wasn't going to put on some fake smile for him or anyone else anymore. After all, he was the one that got her to stop doing it previously. So why should she act like she wasn't feeling these things now? Did he really think she should've responded any other way to him?
"You don't get to stand there and act like I don't know what I'm doing. Or like I'm ignorant. Or too emotional. Or like I just push the blame onto someone else. I've dealt with too fucking much to hear some bullshit like that from you. Especially when I came to try and fucking help!"
She knew he didn't care how angry she was, hell, he may not even care what she was feeling, or why, or anything she was saying. But she had to at least say something now. Hell, if it had come up later, she'd imagine he would just shrug it off as she needed to say something sooner. Or maybe he just wanted her to keep her mouth shut. And if he didn't care what she was saying, well she didn't quite care if he would want her to be quite, or to not be as emotional as she was, or whatever it is he expects from her.
"Not a damn person in this building is some perfect soldier, not even you, and anyone worth something won't be, ever. So stop expecting me or anyone else to just cut their emotions off the second you think they need to.. Call it ignorance if you want to, but it doesn't make you right."