My Mind is a Mystery (HIATUS..again.)

Name: Kim Ukwon My Mortal Age: 20 (actual age 135) My Species: Night Elf My Orientiation: Bisexual r/s: Engaged Terra Dorm 4K with Nevaeh White Disc: this is not the real Kim Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

When he was shoved back he let out the tiniest of nosies, eyes widening at the shock of the fall. It wasn’t that he was hurt, he was just slightly taken aback that the woman he thought was mad at him was suddenly covering him with her tiny body. His fingers slid up protectively, almost instinctively around her waist to hold her closer and suddenly her lips were on his. No..just on his lips, all over his face. Her plush mouth trailed from his lips to her nose to all over him and he felt the blood rushing automatically down to his lower region. His whole body began to swim with adrenaline. One of his hands wound itself into the back of her shirt, pushing her tightly against him while he tried to catch her wandering lips in a kiss.

His head began to fill with all of the scenarios that had unfolded before this and what could happen between them now. He could feel his breath began to coem out in pants as the feelings inside him were overwhelming all of his senses. Everything he ever wanted, everything he ever needed was right here in this moment. It was exciting and he could kiss this girl all day. He would, he would take her against a wall, he would push her till she begged him to go further and he would he would do anything she wanted him to.

But he was also terrified.

Sitting up with her still in his arms, he kissed her back but slower this time, trying to stop her fervent movements. He wanted to stop himself before he said or did anything stupid that would break the facade he was so clearly trying to keep of how he didn’t want to hurt, that he didn’t feel like he could protect her. Soon, soon he would keep her so close that she might try and run away. But right now, the only thing on his mind was the current time and no the future. When she finally broke off, he let out a shuddering breath, fingers swiping small circles on her exposed back as a warm blush rose to his cheeks. “Should we…..be doing this right now..?” He hesitated, but he felt like he should ask. He wasn’t mad, or angry, he was genuinely concerned for the two of them. He didn’t want to start and stop so quickly like he did the last time this all began. 

[kimhyuna-ia]

She let herself be cradled in his arms, her fingers still threaded through his hair. She looked up at him, her cheeks matching the soft pink, rose colored hue of his own. Her mind buzzed with thoughts, questions, possibilities and she simply laid her forehead against his and brought her hand up to tenderly caress his face. Her eyes slid shut and for the first time that night, she didn’t bother to fight back the sudden sting of tears. She felt the cool wetness of her tears slide down her hot cheeks, her body slightly trembling in his embrace.

She couldn’t put words to it, but she had missed him. She had missed him with all that she was and having him near suddenly became completely overwhelming. Her arms encircled his neck and she hugged him tight, her face buried against his shoulder as she simply sat there with him. It made no sense to her, that one moment she could feel such an intense happiness,  just to have it replaced with tears the next. 

Her voice was soft, shaky as she held him tight. “Please don’t leave me again” she pleaded, “I can’t….I can’t handle that again.” She took a breath, doing her best to calm the tears. He still meant so much and his presence seemed to bring that all to the forefront. She heard her phone go off and she frowned, the alarm alerting her to the fact that it was time to vacate the studio. With a soft whine, she forced herself to let him go and very reluctantly moved herself from the warm circle of his arms. 

She went and retrieved her things, put the chairs away before she turned back to look at him. She offered her hand to him, “It’s time to close this place up…” she didn’t want this to end just yet, didn’t want him to go away, didn’t want to be without him so soon. “Come on…” she said softly as she waited for him to get up and take her hand.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

Finished. 

[taexmin-ia]

I know this is a very OOC post but I find this to be very important.

In the US a woman is being put to trial for miscarrying her unborn child. She is being PUT IN JAIL for having a miscarriage due the inability to care for herself because of fear of her parents finding out about her pregnancy, miscarrying in the streets and going to the hospital for help.

Where she was arrested for murder for something that could have killed her, and something completely out of her control.

I’m not usually one to post things like this in an RP blog but this hits very hard. What would you do if you were scared, in pain and unable to take care of yourself because your parents may disown you, even society?

Please click here to sign the petition to pardon this poor woman.

I’ll remove this after a while. It’s a .gov website, so it is real. If you’re in another country, you can use my zip code, 75028.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

Please sign this!

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

She didn’t know where he stayed and so she left it for him at the studio knowing he would find it eventually. It was a small black bag with red paper sticking out and inside was a silver box.  When he opened the box he would find this with a note.

Ukwon,

There are certain things a girl will always remember. She will always remember her first crush. She will always remember her first kiss. She will always remember her first love and she will always remember that first love’s birthday. Since it’s yours, I thought I would leave this for you. I thought you might like it. I had them engrave the symbol for strength on it as a reminder to you that you are stronger than any of your demons and you always will be. I have faith that you will over come it all.

Happy birthday my love.

Always,

Hyuna

~~~~~~

The night was growing dark as Ukwon made his way towards the studio. No one had really congratulated him on the fact that he was a year older..not really that he had wanted them to anyway. Walking this earth for over 300 years became wearying on a already weary heart. He remembered the days that he would want to disappear all together, though those days were few and far between now. Now...now he had purpose again. he had purpose to become a man of strength; become something someone could depend on. 

When he entered the studio,  he saw a bag where he normally put his belongings and picked it up, the writing automatically familar to his eyes. His heart squeezed painfully in his chest, “Hyuna....” The note was short and sweet, just how he always loved them to be. And taking out the braclet, he attached it to his body, cradling it in his hand. Raising his wrist to his lips he pressed the metal to his mouth and a tear rolled down his cheek. “You remembered..Thank you.”

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

She felt her heart drop as the tears fell down his cheeks. This wasn’t what she wanted. She threw her arms around him, the two of them falling back onto the floor. “Nope….” she shook her head, laying on top of him now. “Not happening…” she pressed kisses all over his face, nuzzling his nose before kissing him deeply.

Her eyes slid shut and she let herself have this moment. She buried her fingers in his hair, tenderly caressing his scalp as she kissed him the way she had been wanting to for far too long. Their bodies were pressed together and she could taste the salt of his tears. She couldn’t give him what he was asking for, not yet, but she could give him this.

She poured herself into the moment, letting him feel the range of emotions flowing through her. There was heat and passion tinged with sadness and loss and yet, at the same time there was a happiness at having him back that she couldn’t find the words to express.

Her free hand slid up his side, fingers caressing his form through his shirt. She rested her hand over his heart, leaving it pressed there and enjoying the way it seemed to beat for her. It was moments like this that she lived for. Something that would be burned forever in her memories. Here he was and there they were, locked in an embrace that she had only dared to dream about anymore.

This was real. This was them. It made very little sense. It spoke of all the wrong ideas. But that was always how they had been. Nothing ever made sense when it came to the two of them, but then again, what about passion and fire ever did? She ever so reluctantly broke their kiss once the need for air took over. 

She looked down at him, lying there beneath her, her eyes bright, warm and loving, speaking for her all the words she couldn’t say. He would try and that meant more to her than she could even begin to say. She smiled at him before she pressed kisses all over his face again. Sighing softly before she rested her head against his shoulder,  burying her face against the curve of his neck, her hand never once moving from where it lay, over his heart.  

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

When he was shoved back he let out the tiniest of nosies, eyes widening at the shock of the fall. It wasn't that he was hurt, he was just slightly taken aback that the woman he thought was mad at him was suddenly covering him with her tiny body. His fingers slid up protectively, almost instinctively around her waist to hold her closer and suddenly her lips were on his. No..just on his lips, all over his face. Her plush mouth trailed from his lips to her nose to all over him and he felt the blood rushing automatically down to his lower region. His whole body began to swim with adrenaline. One of his hands wound itself into the back of her shirt, pushing her tightly against him while he tried to catch her wandering lips in a kiss.

His head began to fill with all of the scenarios that had unfolded before this and what could happen between them now. He could feel his breath began to coem out in pants as the feelings inside him were overwhelming all of his senses. Everything he ever wanted, everything he ever needed was right here in this moment. It was exciting and he could kiss this girl all day. He would, he would take her against a wall, he would push her till she begged him to go further and he would he would do anything she wanted him to.

But he was also terrified.

Sitting up with her still in his arms, he kissed her back but slower this time, trying to stop her fervent movements. He wanted to stop himself before he said or did anything stupid that would break the facade he was so clearly trying to keep of how he didn't want to hurt, that he didn't feel like he could protect her. Soon, soon he would keep her so close that she might try and run away. But right now, the only thing on his mind was the current time and no the future. When she finally broke off, he let out a shuddering breath, fingers swiping small circles on her exposed back as a warm blush rose to his cheeks. "Should we.....be doing this right now..?" He hesitated, but he felt like he should ask. He wasn't mad, or angry, he was genuinely concerned for the two of them. He didn't want to start and stop so quickly like he did the last time this all began. 

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

Her eyes met his and the words that came from his mouth set her heart to beating faster. There were so many things she felt, but the one she felt above all else was fear. There was a part of her that was scared. Scared to let him in again because when he had left, she’d been shattered. It had taken this long, taken time and energy and effort to move past it all and here he was, just as things seemed to fall into place again.

She reached out and tenderly cupped his face in her hands, her eyes studying him as if she were taking the time to commit this moment to memory. In truth, she was. In her dreams, not so long ago, she had dreamed this sort of thing up. She had wished for it, almost exactly a year ago. She had been taken and beaten and completely mistreated and one of the things that got her through was the thought of him, being able to return to him. This was the sort of reunion she had imagined, it was not, however, the one she got. But she didn’t hold that against him in the slightest.

She very softly sighed and she leaned in to press a gentle kiss to his forehead before she was kneeling with him on the floor of the studio. She didn’t say a word as she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him tight, her head resting against his chest as she listened to the sound of the steady beat of his heart. She reluctantly pulled back before she took his hands in hers, their fingers laced together as she once again met his eyes. “Prove it to me.” she spoke softly.

"There is still so much that I have to let go of. So much that I need to get right with. Please…" she paused, letting go of one of his hands and again tenderly caressing his face, "Please don’t think that I’m upset with you, in all honesty, I’m not. But I need you to prove it. I need you to show me, to remind me because right now….for as happy as I am to have you here with me…it scares me because I don’t know if I could make it through letting you back in and having you leave again."

She felt tears threaten to sting her eyes. She didn’t know what he would say. It wasn’t her telling him no, it was her telling him she needed more. She needed him to win her over again, to put to rest the fears and doubts that had been created. She needed something so much more substantial than mere words and she hoped beyond hope that he understood. That he didn’t take it the wrong way and simply walk away. 

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

When she studied his face, he closed his eyes, waiting for her reply. He sighed softly, fingers reaching to stroke his thumbs gently against her long fingers. The kiss was pressed to his forehead; a sweet gesture that could mean a thousand different things. When she finally pulled back, he could feel his heart sink only a little bit. She had every single right to not want to automatically get back with him, and he really should prove to her that he means what he says for real. With his fingers still gripping loosely around her hands that had a grip on his, he swung them back and forth. "Prove it huh?"

Her fingers went up again to his face and swept over his cheeks. All the words that she said were making him panic a little bit as if she was throwing him off again. But she was right, he did up and leave with out a warning. And she even said that she wasn't upset with him. He was getting clean for her, he was making amends for all of the things he had done wrong before. And now here they were, kneeling on the ground with their bodies close and hearts closer. When his shaky fingers reached up to cup her cheeks, he felt like wanted to pause the moment for eternity. He could feel the sands slipping through his fingers as he knew that trust he tried to hard to build up in the end was broken but none other then himself. He drank, he killed, he did so many drugs that he probably was on the blacklist. And yet here she was, giving him somewhat of a second chance.

He pressed his forehead to hurts, silent tears slipping down his cheeks. Even though he had somewhat gotten over his addictions, his body felt weaker then ever. His body shook as he let out a choked breath. "I....I..." he couldn't bring himself to say to say sorry because he knew it wouldn't be enough. He knew words wouldn't be enough. "I will...try."

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

The music started and she listened to him sing, her heartbeat quickening as she watched him make his way toward her. His voice was melodic in its own way and the words he was singing, she  believed it. Her eyes followed him, a small smile creeping across her lips.

It wasn’t until he reached her and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear that she felt herself be put on edge. It wasn’t fear so much as it was an odd sort of anticipation. It was like a motor memory of what it was like to have him touching her. Breathing out slowly, she reminded herself to stay strong. His fingers on her collar bone, made her close her eyes a moment and his breath against her ear sent chills down her spine.

The warmth of his lips against her skin had her biting her lip and she forced herself to look up at him again. He pressed kisses along her jaw and then to the corner of her mouth, bringing heat and color to her face. It all seemed to happen so fast and yet the moment dripped ever so slowly into eternity. His lips met hers and the contrast between the heat of his body and cool pane of glass from the mirror behind her made her shudder.

Her eyes drifted shut again and she returned the kiss, her lips seeming to mold to his. To fit. She pulled her hands out of his grip and she slid her arms around his neck, pulling him in closer and threading her fingers into his hair. She lost herself in that moment, in the feel of him so close and she savored it. Drank it down like it was the first drop of rain after a drought. She kissed him until she couldn’t breathe anymore, her lungs burning for want of air.

Once their kiss had been broken, she pulled back, just a little and looked up at him again. There was so much she wanted to say, so many things she couldn’t verbalize and it frustrated her in more ways than one. With a sigh, she pushed the frustration away and kept him close, her head resting now on his shoulder. “Tell me something….” she whispered, “Do you love me?” It was something she needed to hear, something she had at one point begun to question. So she found herself asking and bracing herself for whatever it was he would say because that was one thing he had taught her well. He was, even at his best, completely unpredictable and that was a fact that both thrilled and terrified her.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

Ukwon's memories started to flood to the front of his mind as their kiss deepened. Within a couple of moments, he felt her fingers slip from his grip as he didn't even care enough to grab tighter and let her go. The kisses became more forceful, building in pressure as a noise of pleasure left his parted lips. With her hands tangling in his brown locks, his breath hitched dangerously close to nothing at all. He hadn't really become accustomed to her forceful movements -- not that he was complaining. He bent further into her, the air in his lungs becoming scares as he didn't want to release her lips just yet. Tugging on one of them gently he finally let go, both of them panting into the now quiet studio. 

Her whispered request made Ukwon grin, hands slipping around to touch her exposed waist with the pads of his fingers. Letting them drift around her abdomen, he turned his head so he was up against her ear again. "If I told you yes, would you believe me?" Reaching behind him, he pulled out the remote for the stereo from his pocket and flicked to the next song on the playlist which was Baby I'm A fool. Stepping back for only a moment, he undid the button up he was wearing to reveal a black tanktop to show off his arms. Along with composing, he's been trying to work out more Pulling her up off the stool, he put the remote back in his pocket and brought her close to him, Pulling one of her hands up, he began to sway back and forth with her in his arms. His fingers were placed along her lower back, skin on skin sending prickles down his spine even though the room grew hotter. He spun her around the room, humming with the music's soft melody. 

Look me in the eyes and tell me love is never based upon insanity..

Kiss me now..

Reaching down his lips ghosted down her neck, a faint kiss brushing the pale skin. As the song came to a close, stopped his spinning and held her hands out in front of him. Getting down on his knees in front of her, he spoke with a slightly shaky voice. "Hyuna Kim, you drive me mad. Your lips, your skin, the way you move and the way you smile. Everything about you makes me want to never, ever let you go. I never want to see you leave again, and I never want to leave you again. I want us to be together for along time and I know that's a lot to ask after I disappeared from your life for so long. But If you would have me, I would be yours again." He paused, slipping the bracelet from his wrist and putting the ring back on his finger. "Yes. Yes I do love you."

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

She blushed and fought the urge to giggle, the sight of that smile, one she hadn’t seen in so long made her stomach flutter. She bit her lip and tilted her head to the side, her eyes taking him in as she considered. She could make him get on his knees and beg for it. She could make him say anything that came to mind. But really, what she really wanted was to know he wasn’t going anywhere and despite the fact that she harbored no real ill feelings, words were just words at this point. 

She needed something more substantial. Something real and tangible. How to put that into words though was beyond her. She leaned back in her little chair, stretching her legs out in front of her, purposely situating herself in a way that showed off the curves of her body as well as the skin that she had chosen to expose. 

She ran her fingers through her long hair, her eyes meeting his as she smirked, a thought coming to mind. “Sing for me.” she tapped a finger against her lips a moment before she added, “I want you to sing for me, but I want the words to be your own. Give me a song that’s for me and me alone and then….maybe…I’ll let you kiss me.” she shrugged. It was silly, sure, but she wondered what words he would give her, how he would express the things he felt. She nodded, pleased by her own idea as she sat back and watched him, clearly expecting something good. 

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

He was taken aback by her request, blinking a few times. Singing? Rarely had he sung for anyone but himself; the only talent that he really 'showcased' was that of his dancing skills. When he played his guitar, he was playing more for practice then performance and he though his voice sounded a little bit like a cheese grater in quality with a naturally raspy tone. To add to that he had done multiple drugs that messed with the quality of ones voice.

But then again, it was for Hyuna and she would maybe not judge him as badly. "Your wish is mine to fulfill," he bowed slightly. Turning on his heels, he walked over to the stereo and unplugged her ipod. Having a fair amount of time on his hands now, he had in fact dabbled in a little bit of composing music. With what limited knowledge Hakyeon had given him along with some of the other dancers, he had started a song that was written for a very special girl and when or if she was going to hear it, he had no idea. But here she was, sitting across from him with her snide little grin and alluring eyes. Playing along with plots others had planned was not exactly his forte but he would try if it was for her. "It's unfinished, but here we go."

The beat counted off 1..2..3 as a jazzy piano started in the background. With Korean coming as naturally to him as it could, he sang in that language as he he held his water bottle up as a mic.

"The stars in the sky are envious of your beauty. Each breath you take is like the softest wind through the leaves. A flowers grace is incomparable to the way you are. With each passing moment I fall...fall...fall...

Breathless. Timeless. Speechless.

Too many times I wanted to tell you the truth, how much I need you, how much I wanted you. I couldn't think straight, I couldn't function without you.

My brain, only set to your name. My heart, ticking only to your beat." He walked up to her, slowly rocking with the song as he tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. His fingers rested just below her neck against her collar bone that protruded out. "My lungs only function when you're near by. You make me whole, you complete my broken half. You're beautiful and you make everyone.."

Leaning in, he made sure his breath was right up against the shell of her ear as he finished the last part of the song he wrote, "Breathless. You make this moment," pushing his lips against her jaw he continued down, "timeless. And you make me," kissing just by the corner of her lips, he stopped and looked her in the eyes as he finished. "Speechless." 

And with that he leaned in, capturing her lips as he dropped the water bottle to the ground, the piano guide playing along in the background. His breath picked up as he could taste her again, her lips fitting together with his in perfect harmony. he pressed her hands up against the glass with a little bit of force, quietly mumbling. "I sang...now I get my Kitten's reward."

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

She felt her cheeks heat up, an all too familiar blush coming to her face and the nearness of him made her dizzy. The gentle glide of his lips just above hers had her holding her breath and she couldn’t fight the smile that crept across her lips as he asked her if he could kiss her. She shyly bit her lip, her eyes sliding closed for just a moment as her mind brought forward a piece of advice she had been given. 

"Then again, you do have to make him pay, and that can be anything from the most expensive chocolates to hours on his knees begging for mercy… you’re also a lady, and ladies are not meant to be kept waiting."

she smirked then, nuzzling his nose gently, her lips just a breath away from his. It would be so incredibly easy to close that distance and kiss him and she made him think that she was going to do just that, but at the very last second, she pulled away and instead place the lightest kiss on his cheek before she removed herself from the circle of his arms and walked back over to the stereo. 

She flipped her long dark hair over her shoulder and shot him a knowing glance before offering him a simple smirk. No, it wouldn’t be that easy. She took a seat on the little stool she had been using for her dance and daintily crossed her legs, her eyes never leaving his as she watched him. The look in her eyes suggested a million and one things and yet her body language said another.

If there was one thing she had learned from Jieun, it was this. Sometimes you just had to make them work for it. She tilted her head to the side and slowly peeled off her jacket revealing the fitted black crop top that showed off all of her stomach. “Tell me…if I said you had to earn it….what would you do?” she perked a brow and offered him a playful smile, wondering what he would come up with. 

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

He was so close; his lips were just centimeters away from hers and all he had to do was lean forward and get her lips to fit just as magically as they did in the past with his. He could feel the heat between them, their breaths tickling each others noses softly. The moment turned from sweet to daring in a flash however as she smirked at him. Smirked...that was never a good sign. When she smirked, that meant it was play time. He was about to pull her in and not let her start on her fit of teasing but was too late when her lips kissed the corner of his mouth. Stunned for a moment, he couldn't grab her before she pulled back and skipped away.  

Watching her gracefully step away from, he felt like there wasn't enough air in his chest for a moment. She was that sexy kitten that had sent him on a fit of romance the first time they had met. Her fingers reached up, tucking themselves under the sleeves of her jacket momentarily before stripping it off. "n....hyuna..." he whispered, watching her walk to the stereo. Stereos meant dancing, and he didn't know if he could control his feet right now. Her crop top peeked just a little bit close her chest which made Ukwon's fingers itch to stop her teasing. But a part of him knew he deserved whatever sort of punishment she had planned for him.  

While she perched herself on the stool, he crossed his arms over his chest. His own catlike grin graced his lips as he raised his eyebrows quizzically. "Earn it, huh? What is your price, my love?"

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

She clung to him as he picked her up and spun her, her eyes closed as she kept her face buried against his neck. The scent of his skin made her softly sigh and she couldn’t help the smile that crept across her lips as she heard him laugh. She reluctantly let go of him with one of her arms, wiping away the tears with the back of her hand.

Her eyes met his as they stopped spinning and she smiled softly back at him, her hands cupping his face again as she laid her forehead against his. Her thumb tenderly caressed his cheek and she simply savored that moment.  Her eyes studied his face again and she sighed. It wouldn’t make sense to anyone else, that after all that had happened there would be a tearful reunion. 

The fact still remained that he had left. He had left her behind with no word of where he was going or why. He had left her heartbroken and sad, but she couldn’t bring it in her to be completely angry at him. Perhaps the time apart had given her a chance to work through all that. Perhaps she had truly been able to overcome it or maybe she was just that happy to see him again that none of it mattered anymore.

She didn’t deal with loss well. She never had and she knew in her heart that she would give anything to have the ones she cared for most back and he, despite everything else, was one of those people. She smiled then, a warm and soft smile, her eyes bright as they met his. “I’m so glad you’re okay…” she murmured, her fingers still caressing his skin, tracing along the planes of his face. “You have no idea just how…” she frowned a little, “Just how worried I was about you. I didn’t know what happened, just that you were gone and…” she shook her head and playfully hit his arm, “Don’t you ever disappear on me like that again.”

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

He closed his eyes as her hands ran over his soft skin. Her scent, her breath, her everything was near him again and he felt stronger then ever before. He hiked her up, laughing again as he let her search just to make sure that it was him for sure. Seeing her again made him so happy he felt like his whole core was buzzing with happiness. He waited for her to be done and faked offense at her tap to his arm. "Oh my, how could ever hit me after we've not seen each other for such a long time?" He paused, his lip jutting out as he looked down, "then again that is my fault. But at least you aren't trying to kill me with those lovely little nails of yours...yet. You might after this.." 

After not seeing her for so long, he had so many things he wanted to say, so many things he wanted to do. He wanted to tell her about how he was getting clean for her, how he felt like everything would be better if they would have seen each other sooner. How so many times he came to the gates of the academy with his hood pulled over his head to hide himself. He looked at the dorm that they shared and thought what it would be like if he showed up at her dorm soaking to the bone in sweat. So many times he called for her during his withdrawl episodes. He would hold himself at night, shivering and begging for the symptoms to stop. Even though they wouldn't the mere thought that maybe, just maybe he could become that man that she so wanted to be with. He wanted to be, he wanted to support her and love her and hold her and never let her go..

Looking into her eyes for a brief moment he set her down on her feet. And after what seemed like a millinieum, he leaned down, lips just ghosting over hers. "I want to kiss you...can I kiss you?"

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

She heard him taking steps closer, her heart beginning to race in her chest. She listened to every word he said, seeming to hang on every word. The things he said told her he missed her, but the way he said it, the almost breathless quality to his words made her feel it.

She could feel the heat of him as he drew closer to her and she took a deep breath before she finally looked up at him. He was close enough to touch, not even a full arm’s  length away. Her eyes studied him a moment, taking in the shape of his lips, the curve of his jaw. His cheeks were fuller than they had been the last time she saw him. He looked healthier. 

When her eyes finally met his, she was speechless. She felt the sting of tears in her eyes before she force them back. Biting her lip, she did her best to keep them back. She didn’t want to cry, not again, not with him standing there. But she couldn’t help it. She was hit by a strong wave of emotion and she felt the tears slide down her cheeks as she stood there, simply looking at him.

Everything then became a blur, she didn’t know if it was the tears or the speed of her movements, all she knew was one moment she was standing there, simply looking at him and the next, the next she was reaching out and gently touching his face. Her fingers caressed his skin and she closed her eyes, more tears making their way down her cheeks as she savored the feel of his skin beneath her fingertips. 

"You-you’re really here…"she murmured. Her hand slid down from his face and the next thing she knew she had pulled him across the small distance that was left between them and her arms were around him, hugging him tight as she simply breathed him in. He was there. He was solid. He was real and this was something she never thought would happen again and yet here it was. Here they were and she was once again, rendered speechless.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

The tears began to slide down her cheeks and he automatically, as if on instinct, broke out in a cold sweat. He was about to fully reach out and touch her, drying off her tears and saying he was sorry even though he didn't think it would work. Her eyes finally met his, black features watching him as her gaze set his heart on a rapid pace. His lips curled up into a wider smile, trying to figure out how to if maybe that's what she needed. 

Thankfully, the tears, although they didn't stop, were happy ones. Her cold, pale hand cupped his cheek almost as a feather brushing the skin. It was so light, so dainty that he though if he moved, he would move right through her hand. His own hand moved to touch her then, smooth skin like satin under the pads of his fingers. Her trembling lips made his own eyes fill with unwanted tears, emotions sweeping through him like a storm. "I am," he whispered, a half laugh, half sob noise choking out of his throat. "I'm here. And so are you...you're right here. You're here, and so am I."

His words weren't working as well as he wanted them to but no matter that. Hyuna's arms came hurtling around his neck, the tight grasp knocking the air from his still recovering lungs. But nonetheless, a laugh barreled from his chest, growing louder as he reached down, picking her legs up and wrapping them around his waist. He spun around with her in his arms a few times, still chuckling and almost tripping over himself a few times. Stopping, he looked at her, a tear rolling silently down his cheek as all of his face seemed so smile. "You're here. My kitten...my Hyuna...it's you."

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

[kimhyuna-ia]

Her mind was completely on what she was doing, her motions fluid and each step perfectly timed and in tune. She kicked the chair out of the way as she turned away from the mirror, taking the second to let the music catch up again. When she turned again though, she stumbled, completely caught off guard. There was someone sitting there that hadn’t been before.

Her eyes narrowed suspiciously and then she heard his voice and the suspicion flowed away. What replaced it was pure shock and she turned away from him and walked over to the sound system, turning down her music and taking a moment to collect herself. He was the last person she was expecting to see, especially on a night like this. She bit her lip and took a deep breath before turning back to look at him. “You know, you’re not the first to tell me that.”

She couldn’t bring herself to meet his eyes, not yet. Too much was going on in her head, a million and one thoughts racing through her at the speed of light. Thoughts, emotions, memories….they all came forward at once, it seemed and she needed the space to sift through them. She looked down at her hands, wringing her fingers together as she spoke. “You know, you really shouldn’t sneak up on people like that. You never know what someone is capable of. For all you know, I could have freaked out and stabbed you with my oh so lethal finger nails. I mean…these things are sharp. They could do some serious damage.”

She didn’t know what she was saying, couldn’t stop the flow of seemingly endless word vomit that was escaping her mouth. All she knew was that so long as she kept talking, she wouldn’t start crying and  goodness knew that crying was exactly what she wanted to do. “H-how did you know I was here?” she asked, still focusing on her hands, refusing to look up.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

Watching her melt into a quiet, nervous state made him smile. There she was, his adorable love who seemed only to want hugs and love with protection. "I don't feel like that's a good thing. I want to keep all of your beauty all to myself along with that body of yours that seems to draw me in like a bee to a honey...or a mosquito to blood.." he stood then, the hood falling from his face to reveal his usual blonde hair dyed back to it's original black/brown. His lip tugged into a small smile. "And your nails are pretty terrifying sometimes. They've always been sharp, and I'm glad I've never had to bend to their will. Though I wouldn't mind feeling them against my skin in a different light."

Leaning down to try and catch her eyes but missing them as they looked down at her wringing finger, his lip was pulled back between his teeth. A hum sounded in his throat, "Hmmm, well. One of the other dancers, Kyosuke, told me you were here. Well he said actually that girl I was into was here, and well let me tell you that I just about threw my phone across the room." Taking a step towards her, his voice dropped a little quieter. "And I ran....I ran so fast that it felt like there was fire in my legs. Because if it was true, if you were here, I felt like if I waited even a moment that you might disappear. And if you did, I don't think I'd be able to live with myself."

Being only steps away from her, he practically whispers, "couldn't breathe, couldn't sleep. To know that you were somewhere that I go to almost every day and didn't see you. Hyuna, I don't know if you ever wanted to see me again. A part of me doesn't care, a part of me wanted run and find you wherever you were -- sneak into the academy and into your room. But I don't know if I could ever go back. So many memories, so many tears spilt." He took a shaky breath and continued.

"But...now you're here. So close that...that I could touch you.." his fingers reached, just barely missing her long locks of hair. "I could touch you..and be there again..in your arms.."

[kimhyuna-ia]

Baby I'm a Fool || Hyuna & Ukwon

The music stopped and she laughed as she flopped down onto the floor. Class was over and she laid there unmoving and staring up at the ceiling. She looked beside her and smirked as her dance partner flopped down beside her. “Has anyone ever told you that you can move?” she laughed and she shrugged, “I may have heard it once or twice.” she teased and pushed herself up off the floor.

She offered him and hand and helped pull him up before stretching out. “Any plans for tonight?” he asked and she shook her head, “None. Valentines day isn’t really my thing.” She shrugged, “But you…don’t you have a date tonight?” He beamed, his cheeks going softly pink “I do and I think it’s going to be the date” Hyuna offered him a small smile, “Well I hope it turns out to be a wonderfully magical night.”

"Oh, it will be." He grinned, "See you next week then?" She nodded and waved as he made his way out, "Don’t work too hard." He laughed before disappearing out of the room with the rest of the class, leaving her alone. Slipping off her jacket, she stood in the center of the room, looking at herself in the mirror a moment before she went and grabbed a chair. 

She had been working on this for weeks, since she had first seen the video that Jieun had sent her and she thought she had finally got it down. She went and started the song, taking her position as the music started, she closed her eyes a moment and let herself get into the music. The beat rocked her and she moved with it in the way she had practiced, so completely wrapped up in what she was doing that she didn’t hear the footsteps echo through what should have been an empty studio.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

Someone had sent a text to Ukwon which made him run from his room in the apartment a few blocks away from the studio. 

[TXT] Bro, did you say that your girl's name is Hyuna? She's taking a class here now. Get over here.

Dropping his phone momentarily he tried to comprehend what was going on at the moment, especially since the fact that she was involved. Did she take classes as his studio now? How long had she been there? Had she seen him before this and just didn't say anything? Were they just running loops around each other and she was actually mad at him again? By the way they were texting the other day though, that was unlikely. Was the bouquet too much though? His head raced with thoughts but the only thing that he could completely understand was that it was her, and he needed to see her. Now.

Shrugging whatever coat he could find over his shoulders, he bolted out of his room, not even thinking to close his door behind him but then again, his roommate was there so that didn't matter. His heart pounded painfully in his chest as he sprinted up the hill that the dance studio that sat at it's peak. He could hear the beat of a song shaking the windows with it's heavy bass. He got up the stairs as fast as he could, chest heaving. And when he finally busted through the door that lead to the main room, his heart almost burst through his chest. He bit back a very unmanly sob when he saw her face, fierce gaze starring down her pretend audience in the mirror. Wanting nothing more then to run up to her and grab her and kiss her until they both couldn't breathe, he grasped the wall behind him, eyes sliding closed as he attempted to calm himself. Stay calm. Remain collected. She might be shocked, don't scare her. 

As the music still played, he snuck in while the rest of the crew left. He waited until she was completely enthralled in the song, hips almost beckoning him closer as he came in with his hood up. When she had turned away from the mirror, he ran around and slid down against the mirrors, hood still slightly covering his face. And when she turned back around, his fingers curled up, waving back and forth to her. "My goodness, you must tell me your name. You've got quite the moves."

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

[SNS]

[kimhyuna-ia]

She smiled as she read his text, chewing on her lip in thought as she looked down at the little screen. So many things ran through her head and she couldn’t decide on what she wanted to say. The fact that he still had it, the fact that he wore it, it said something to her. He hadn’t forgotten and maybe, just maybe…it all still mattered.

[sms] I wear mine all the time too…

[sms] most people don’t notice it, but its there…

[sms] Tell me something

[sms] Are you okay? Safe? Healthy? Warm? I worry…

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

That was a loaded question for sure. Safe..healthy and warm sometimes did not always come as a full package for him, but he did what he could.

[SNS] There's that worrying woman I fell in love with...

A blush came over his cheeks but he sent the next text before he could stop himself

[SNS] Getting healthy. I'm getting clean, and Hans hasn't really sent me a letter since I hid away at the studio. I don't know what he's planning, and I don't really care at the moment. All that there is left of me is a shell, but I'm trying to build myself back up to be whole again.

[SNS[ Do you still hang out with all the people from before I left?

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

[SNS]

[kimhyuna-ia]

She felt her cheeks go pink at the message she received, leave it to him to say something like that. She laughed a little, shooting off a quick reply.

[sms] Kim Ukwon, you behave. :P

His next message came as she sent hers,  her eyes taking in the words on her screen. He reminded her of so many things with one simple text. Promises made and broken, whispered words and all the feelings that went with it. She felt a sting come to her eyes as she pulled the necklace out of her shirt. She slipped it off and took the ring off the chain, setting it down before snapping a photo and sending it off. 

[mms] 

[sms] I still have it….in case you wondered….

She wasn’t sure what else to say, but she thought that maybe him knowing she still held onto it might mean something to him.

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

He stuck his tongue out at the phone while replying

[SNS]  Make me :P

When the message came in after his, he felt his heart rate jump. He had thought she wouldn't even want to look it let alone have it with her! He looked down at the ring that was firmly fascented within a rope cord around his wrist. Slipping it off, he could feel the metal almost hot like fire against his skin as a reminder. 

[SMS] I wear mine every day...

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

[SNS]

[kimhyuna-ia]

She felt her phone go off and she hesitated before she picked it up, she opened the message and she laughed at the photo. His face was too much for her  to handle and she dropped her phone as her entire body shook with giggles. 

Once she regained her composure, she picked up her phone and sent a reply.

[sms] I’m not sure if you like what you see or if you’re planning to have me for dinner…

[mms]

[sms] NOT LIKE THAT EITHER

She bit her lip, looking down at the little screen in her hands. It felt like forever since the last time she had laughed this way, the last time she didn’t feel this extra heavy weight on her shoulders. She sighed and sent him another message.

[sms] I really have missed you and this…

[sms] I hope you don’t take this the wrong way, but for the first time in a long time…I feel like it’s finally you again…

[sms] Stay this time…

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

[SNS] Oh I will definitely have you for dinner. I'd eat you for breakfast and lunch too...all day...

He cleared his throat audibly as if others could read what he was writing. As the warmth spread across his cheeks again, he looked at her other messages. She did seem to miss him, and that made him feel a little bit better. And it was true, he had changed since they had last seen eachother that long time ago.

[SNS] I am better...I have changed I mean. I'm getting clean all because a pretty girl said she would marry me someday. And if that fact still stands then maybe I can have a chance to be with her. Maybe not get married just yet but maybe if she can see that I'm a little bit different then then I was when she saw me. 

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

[SNS]

[kimhyuna-ia]

She smirked, her eyes taking in the messages he sent. She bit her lip in thought before she replied.

[sms] I think it would take a lot longer than four months to forget you or your face.

[sms] I have nothing to offer in the way of how I move…

[sms] But you can have this instead…

[mms]

[sms] Keep in mind…you’re not the only one who can play at sleazy xo

She blushed and laughed, still lying on the floor of the dance room. She knew what she was doing, but she didn’t feel bad about it in the slightest. She’d give him all the more reason to miss her and keep coming back.

When he opened the media message, the water he had in his mouth found it's way all over his lap. A very unmanly noise came out of his throat as he attempting to read the other messages. He bit his lips back. "Hmmmm..." his lips buzzed in contemplation as he looked through all of the pictures of himself. Laughing at himself he held the phone below his chin and snapped his picture. [SNS] Hey there pretty lady, can a get a little closer?

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

k

He sent another message just incase she would find that weird.

[SNS] Too soon?

[go2bedjungkook]

[kwonniekwonnieukwonnie]

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