you are so far from the ideal

tw ed • 23 • he/him • relapse × not pro, just venting × SW: 93 CW: 67 GW1: 90 ✅️ 15/04/25 GW2: 85 ✅️ 14/06/25 GW3: 80 ✅️ 06/08/25 GW4: 75 ✅️ 08/09/25 GW5: 70 ✅️ 15/11/25 GW6: 65 GW7: 60 GW8: 55 UGW: 50

[l-e-m-0-n-a-d-e]

✨️ introduction ✨️

✨️ I'm 23 y/o

✨️ trans guy

✨️ struggling with €D since 10+ years - mostly mi@ (especially in my teen years) & binge eating

✨️ 165 cm/5'5

the sun will rise and we will start again

✨️SW: 93 kg/205 lbs/BMI 34 (it's also my HW)

✨️LW: 47 kg/103 lbs/ BMI 17

✨️GW1: 90 kg/198 lbs ✅️

✨️GW2: 85 kg/187 lbs ✅️

✨️GW3: 80 kg/176 lbs/BMI 29✅️

✨️GW4: 75 kg/165 lbs ✅️

✨️GW5: 70 kg/154 lbs/BMI 26 ✅️

✨️GW6: 65 kg/143 lbs

✨️GW7: 60 kg/132 lbs /BMI 22

✨️GW8: 55 kg/121 lbs

✨️UGW: 50 kg/110 lbs/BMI 18

I don't want to be morbidly thin, I just want to be skinny again. I still have disordered eating habits (like binging & fasting afterwards) and cannot eat normally without feeling guilty.

€D affects mostly our minds, not only bodies

[1juzt5hungry]

Badz dumny/a z tego, że się głodzisz. Zamiast jeść jak obrzydliwa świnia, która tylko przybiera na wadze.

[h0lys1ckv]

Ja, gdy widze, ze waga zamiast pojsc w dol, idzie w gore

[leflys-blogs]

I wait for you

[iwllchangesnn]

when you lose weight and suddenly everyone becomes way nicer to you

[ch3rrybombb]

i‘m such a wannarexic for worrying bout nutrition n muscle mass

[dyingisheavenly]

do i have body dysmorphia

[defnotsephtis]

wanted to recover, gained 1kg, relapsed

[latehourss]

the best preworkout is just self hatred

[defnotsephtis]

i need my control back.

[bloomisheresposts]

Oh to be cool and skinny☹️⭐️🧎‍♀️

[rararahp]

gym bros undereat and call it a cut and nobody bats an eye, i undereat and society.. society says i have an ed

[air1-s3zak1]

How I feel

[strawberrymilkshakeez]

[splashbaq]

all I want is to be nothing at all.

[bnnyriri]

[sadbutglittery]

God, I'm so fat, Snejana would be disappointed in me😭