HIIII sorry for taking like ten centuries to respond to this but like tbh ;; Im quitting tumblr I think. (ALSO UNI PLS IGNORE THIS LOL ITS MAINLY FOR EVERYONE ELSE CAUSE I ALR TOLD YOU ID POST THIS HAHA๐ญ๐)
Mega explanation under the cut talking abt some of the trashy behaviour I've had to experience on this forsaken app over the years, but mostly how I feel about it so yeah if you don't care that's alr hope everyone has a good life, cause as I said I quit.
I deleted the new blog I ended up making bc this environment has never really been welcoming to me and I can 100% say that tumblr has actively made my experiences with practically everything irl AND online worse than any fruitful goodness it has or could ever bring. From putting my everything into relationships including comfort, support and psychological + therapeutic sessions for people even over ten yrs older than me (at times older) without even getting a single kind thought back, to the genuine rudeness of some people, to the (excuse my language) but half assed and crude responses I receive ... honestly the list is endless.
One thing I'm trying to get better at is to notice when my presence is clearly not wanted and act accordingly. It's just saddening that the one place where it's encouraged to be your true "nerdy" self, as the catchphrase of this site is, I am not allowed to be just that. I really do wonder what part of me is so incredibly intolerable or forgettable, that I am expected to practically grovel for even ten minutes of people's time - and that's with the closest people I know, forget abt ten minutes for regular conversation I can't even get ten minutes from the people I stood with through thick and thin with, even though I myself struggle really hard to be there and yet always am.
From now on I'll just say that no I will definitely not come back, I will also not use this account and if I ever DO come back it would probably just be a call out thread on SOME people who deserve jail time more than silly time on tumblr dot come /hj (but not rlly hj hahejdsj this is so srs and continues to impact my life after almost 2 years ... but ugh what.ever.๐๐). But I'm also a coward ngl so like that would never happen !
I would say "oh btw I have this account you can keep in touch on ! :>" but truthfully, I am so let down by how uninteractive, uncaring and exclusionary everyone is no matter how hard I try to do the best I can to treat others how I'd love to be treated, and how I basically am sweating to keep convos going, bc in truth I don't think anyone rlly likes me enough here or anywhere really to even want to talk to me in general, so I'll spare you all that. The proof is literally in the fact that I've amassed a sizeable following which I am shocked with, yet despite it all I feel so lonely bc nobody even bothers with me at all whilst ppl who just start out get 50 best friends in such a short time frame. I see I am not everyone's cup of tea.
I once thought maybe just maybe I could have a good time online just how everyone suggests that online is better than irl and it is a reprieve for some. Looks like I am eternally unlucky bc how is online on par or perhaps even worse than irl for me ? And make no mistake irl is atrocious to me too.
I do not mean this to be passive aggressive but I just want to communicate my thoughts. If I was being passive aggressive that'd imply that I knew that everyone here was capable of treating me as I wanted, as I have consistently treated my "friends" on here, as a reciprocated effort. But as this thread suggests, that was and can never be a reality for me.
TLDR // not coming back bc :
People genuinely don't care or don't put in any effort at all
Bullies (mean ppl way at the beginning of my account) + I am let down how everyone let TWO whole adults get away with being weird to a then minor (me) right in front of your faces
Very traumatised and uncomfortable being on this app to the point I can barely even socialise at all from the precipitating impacts.
hello anon ! If I may request that you re send this ask off anon pls, if you're comfy ! I swear I don't bite ! I would just rather I keep it a bit more private is all :< even if we're not currently mutuals you can send it off anon because I can't reply privately to the ask when it's on anon sobs ๐
Hello ! I think for the foreseeable future I'm not really gonna update this blog ! I've been absent for so long here that idk if anyone remembers me LOLS but if you do and you want to continue interacting then I have a new blog set up ! Other than that I hope 2024 is treating everyone well <333
Hiiii i know u haven't been online for awhile, but I just wanna ask if ur ok? I hope things are going well in ur life :) also happy Eid hope u get enough Eid money๐
Hiii Rizqa !!! Super sorry for the unannounced absence, and I'm always grateful for your kindness :((( life is pretty difficult I'm ngl rn but I'm attempting to hold up ! To be honest, regarding this blog, I did try to come back but I genuinely don't feel comfortable at all here considering the mess that happened at the end of 2022 ( and tbh that whole year ) on this blog , it pretty much ruined tumblr for me, so I'm not entirely sure I would feel comfortable being on here in general, especially this account.
I do have another account if you or anyone would want it but if I'm being honest I'm not entirely happy on there either so idrk if I'm gonna be very active on there ( dumblr things LOL ) and also it's not tokrev related either so idrk if anyone would be interested but I can still give you or anyone the url if you want ! You can send an ask or dm idm ! Anyways, thank you for the well wishes for eid ! Insha Allah your eid was wonderful and your ramadan was fruitful <3 how was your eid experience ??? I hope you had lots of fun too <3
PE teacher Childe is the most canon thing ever and since he's number 11 of the harbingers, here's 11 reasons why :
Hes ginger
Hes cute
He's nice to kids
He inspires them and doesn't let them get hit in the face with a basket ball *cough cough*
He's good at physical activity because he's a fighter
He's cool, and his sports equipment can double as a real weapon when he's in the duelling mood
Because I say so
Because hoyoverse said so
Because me and hoyo are best friends and I'm their portal to fictional characters โ the fictional character whisperer ! ( perks of being Australian ( a British spy ) )
Because there's a chibi sticker of him with a baseball bat ( refer to the image below ;0 )
Because it'll be the perfect segue into that early 2000s movie trope of some girlie ( ๐ผ anon this is you you're the girlie ) falling for that one teacher that teaches some child she's associated with somehow
Merry Christmas, Tora. Merry Christmas, Hal. Merry Christmas, Rie. Merry Christmas, Ares. Merry Christmas, Kat. Merry Christmas, Nana. Merry Christmas, Mai. Merry Christmas, Kru. Merry Christmas, Nyx. Merry Christmas, Gyuu. Merry Christmas, Rae. Merry Christmas, Buddy. Merry Christmas, @/tardigrade. Merry Christmas, Mekah. And Merry Christmas to all the lovely ppl who follow a loser like me. Ily all. Thank you for making my year so beautiful (t~t) > โก
"A Childโs View from Gaza" was an art exhibition showcasing drawings created by the children of Gaza.
"The captioned illustrations were created by Palestinian children who lived through the Israeli bombardment of Gaza in 2008-09. The pictures were drawn as part of an effort to help children deal with the horrors they had experienced. A Bay Area nonprofit, Middle East Childrenโs Alliance (MECA), arranged to display a collection of these pictures at the Museum of Childrenโs Art in Oakland, California. However, under pressure from the Jewish Federation of the East Bay and other organizations, the museum backed out of the agreement at the last minute."
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