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connection

many scientists find human remains bracing children and loved ones that were not their own, especially after tragedies like volcanoes and bombs wiping populations out.

humans are so drawn to each other that even in our last moments, we will brace each other because connection is all we know.

there is beauty is knowing it's never taught to feel and express this way; humans need to match the same way they are being touched inward and out, wholesome really.

its the first thing your mother did when you were born, its what your dad will do on your wedding day, its what you will do with your soulmate when one of you dies first.

connection is how we show without telling, our atoms are so drawn to each other that despite any exterior affect, we are always connected, never alone.

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so who's going to tell 6 year old me love isn't love story by taylor swift in modern aged, it's head pushing and "are you done yet?"

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the wound is where the light gets in; tomorrow is a new day and he does prevail

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it's funny i've dragged your name through the fucking mud; everybody in my life HATES you because of how much i can't shut the fuck up about what you did to me, yet if you came back, i'd spend all that time and thrice more begging them to understand that you changed and it's different and that you won't hurt me again

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fuck pre workout i just remember that he never cared about me. at all. LMFAO

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"not fragile like a flower, fragile like a bomb"

you'd pluck me from my field and rip apart the petals the same way you would play catch with a bomb, utter disregard and never around for the repercussion

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love works in funny ways because i hate you and wish funny deaths on you but in all actuality, as much disrespect and animosity you have shown towards me, a part of me will always be rooting for you, i always want you to succeed and i am sorry you don't want to live life with me

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to or to not text that person happy birthday even though you guys don't talk but you have amazing memory and can't forget anyone's birthday ever.

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nothing makes me question what i'm here for more than when i remember somebody's birthday or anniversary but due to the evil bitch time, i don't talk to every single person still. i have to decide whether or not to change my dynamic with a person i don't associate with, solely because i cant forget peoples birthdays and id be hurt if somebody remembered and didn't say anything to me.

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I see older women with plastic surgery, sharp noses and lifted, tight eyes, and pulling them up any higher won't make them look less tired.

Nothing seems to help as age seeps through however much plastic and work has been done to cover it, much to a vain woman's demise.

I realize she was once a little girl with a normal face, a much less untouched kind of beauty is what you would see. I want to shake that little girl by the shoulders and tell her to never change her face.

I dread the day i create a girl and she hates my grandmas nose and tells me she doesn't want to look like me when she grows up. The same way i dread the day someone else tells what she shouldn't like about herself before she even thinks it.

I am going to shake her by the shoulders and beg her not to fucking change.

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to love somebody will be the best thing i ever do

they may write and bring people to tears

you can paint whatever the eye could see

but love is the one thing her body does that she couldn't control if she wanted to. there's an admiration to find in somebody who's heart is so big they want to make every single person feel loved, even ones who don't deserve it.

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"maybe in another life" no actually it's either this one or none! i loved you in this life with this body and these eyes and this heart, not the next and not the one before. but if that is what you have to tell yourself at night when realize im not next to you in the bed, and you worry about me and wonder what i'm up to, then so be it. maybe in another life, man.

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"memories come in waves" and tonight i'm drowning. head fully under, my last hand above the surface, containing the only common sense i still have

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y'all can also miss me with that "i still want the best for you" shit! well that makes one of us. i hope youre showing your quick release steering wheel to another girl while driving and can't get it back on. wish the fucking best my ass i hope yo ass gets the nastiest std and you have to explain it to your mom. speaking of yo mama i hope that wonderful woman brings up my name and it makes your stomach hurt when you think about what you did.

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y'all can miss me with the im sorry texts . bitches will plot and plot on yo fucking downfall and be the first to hop on and say they're sorry for whatever . fuck that

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crying over the sink and saying "this is all meant to be" but holy SHIT this is way too painful. i wasn't meant for this.

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the way someone can let u take up so much of their time then become nothing... no talking no laughing no nothing we're just fucking strangers now because you "don't know what you want" i don't know what that "what" is but is sure as fuck isn't me. you have never made anything clearer to me more than how much you don't want me in your life. i wish you the absolute best but i'm too good to wait for you forever.