hi.

[laaally]

Woke up had a shower Washed my hair I felt really good and fresh I took my time and done my makeup and hair I chose my outfit and it was a lovely day outside I was ready to go shopping I felt super confident and what happens? Mr controlling comes and tells me to wear something else, once again trying to control what I am wearing That’s when I lost my temper once again, constantly telling me to wear the most ridiculous things together I refuse and refuse and refuse but he is just too controlling Now I feel so ugly the most ugliest thing ever

[laaally]

Waking up and he is next to me as he refused to give me back my keys. Lets himself in my OWN house. And he is in the bed with me when I made him leave yesterday.

[mxxnlightsblog]

It's crazy how trauma makes you push people away when all you want is love.

[animentality]

[a-random-fruity-sky]

Huh, well that is a another puzzle piece of my trauma. Got ignored as a child while in clear distress in certain circumstances if I had annoyed my parents beforehand

[laaally]

omg this

[laaally]

23/05/2025

01:23AM

First of all I did not want to go out. Its late, we have contact tomorrow. But he INSISTS and keeps pushing me and pushing me until I give in. I was so fucking pissed off. Forced me to wear a DRESS in the freezing cold to go and fuck in the canals. Like I am some fucking piece of dirty trash. Get to the canal and he immediately brings up what if 6 or 7 men turned up to rape you what would you do?

Is this the kind of man I am dealing with? Who forces you outside your comfort zone, to leave your sanctuary that you are building and creating to feel comfortable in, TO THEN TRY TO SCARE YOU TO WORK OUT YOUR FEARS. Trying to intimidate me, saying there is this woman there and that scary thing there. I am fuming. In the end he said know I know rape scares you. Is he sick? I’ve stormed off now I’m in bed. I can’t believe what I have been through just now. I feel sick to my fucking stomach.

I think this cunt thinks I am a piece of TRASH. I wish we did not meet. I wish I never saw him ever. I want OUT. I do not want any connection with this cretin.

[laetitia-falco-lattea]

I decided to join Mermay this year! Will see :)

Day 1 - selfportrait

[444hour]

[luvzyuz]

[tropadasqueens-deactivated20191]

[guns-n-broses]

[attractionofdesire]

[llovinghome]

[laaally]

Fuck these pregnancy cravings

Craving jam fucking doughnuts

[6ixfeelings]

[infinithy]

[velvetmysoul]

[thcartierrug]