lachrymose

tell me: who was i before i was sad and what happened to change that?*

[laifless]

oh, I have to remember to remember what I told myself when I was smart and 17. sometimes I forget that I am still who I was and I'm allowed to think the thoughts I thought when I was brave and it's okay to want to go back to then because then is when i possessed the power that most lose after some time of being thrown around the world while everyone chants "one of us" but i am not "one of us" and I'll never be "one of us" because I'm one of me and there's only 1 of me so I need to love her because I'm all she has and all she will ever have. after all, she is me and I am her and I was brave and strong and smart and I have it in me I just need some time to rest. slow down. not please, but thank you.

[laifless]

oh to be anything but human in 2024

[laifless]

"I like to write"

"become a writer"

no not like that

I like to freely put words onto a canvas like they are colour

but I struggle to paint a picture, but man, do I love the vibes

picasso.

[laifless]

media literacy is dead and no one cares

to appreciate the arts is an artform in and of itself

there are no true artists

every brain is one dimensional

greed consumes us all

[laifless]

[laifless]

i just really like rocks

road trips through the mountains

dinosaurs in the badlands

collecting quartz and granite out of gravel

the shiny ones around my neck

but above all,

you

you are my rock.

[laifless]

ਮਰਿਆਂ ਲਏ ਫੁੱਲ ਤਾਂ ਪਾਹ ਸਕਦੀਆਂ ਕਿ ਨਾਈ?

ਇਹਨਾ ਨੇ ਵੀ ਤਾਂ ਮਰਨਾ

ਮੁਲਾਕਾਤ ਹੋ ਜਾਵੇਗੀ

[laifless]

[laifless]

don't do mushrooms unless you want to let go of all your worldly possessions and only feel feelings. nothing of substances means anything to me anymore, I just think and feel and feel and think and it's great but the world wasn't built this way for people to feel, it was built for people to do and I did everything I wanted to. I'm tired of doing, I just want to keep experiencing feelings and emotions without the burden of survival

[laifless]

love is good

the fact it causes you pain and suffering is good

that just means that you care

and caring is good too

it’s a reminder that we are human

and we can feel things

that’s all life is

existing and going through time

the only thing that really keeps us going is

love.

[laifless]

What’s on your high journal today?

i’m not sure

i guess today i’m thinking about how i don’t want to get high everyday anymore. i’m 25. its been 10 years that i’ve been on tumblr (on and off really) but yeah… it’s been a crazy life and these last few years have been a blur because of drugs and i want to get out of that. live a better life. be happy maybe?

[laifless]

Thank you Chettan

you’re very welcome kind stranger

[laifless]

front page

i’m not an open book but that doesn’t make me a diary with a lock

[laifless]

i’m here       and now i’m good

[laifless]

“shut your mom up” is french for “shut-up your mom”

[laifless]

like the moon i live my life in many recognizable phases but as the moon i am only in one place for a moment. momentarily me, momentarily in your life chase me as the sun does the moon

[laifless]

she speaks her truth

you never knew you were hauling lead, gold, and coal until you pulled out the knife life had stabbed in your back and everything came tumbling out