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I miss us...

i miss your smile, your laugh, your dorkiness. I miss waking up to you, watching movies together, cuddling. I miss our time together. I miss your kisses, your hugs, I miss you Luis. But why did you hurt me, why did you keep doing drugs, why werent you happy with just me?

I just want this to stop...

I hate crying myself to sleep, the memories. I hate not knowing if you are okay. I will always remember what you told me "The hardest thing to do is walk away from someone you love." And for fuck sakes it is so hard getting over. I wish you the best. I hope you pass your nursing test soon. I love you.

Quien Lo Quiere...

I dreamt of you...it felt so real...we looked each other in the eyes and said I love you to each other...and then I woke up. I cried, and couldn't stop. My heart broke, and I just wanted to go back to sleep to cherish that moment longer. I still cry myself to sleep listening to our playlist or watching A Star is Born. I hope you are okay...I am about to be half a year sober, I hope you are proud of me. I hope you are as well, I look back at our pictures and it puts a smile on my face to see your smile and to see the smile you always brought to my face. Remember when before we were together how I would write cheesy love tweets about how my clothes would smell like you and how every weekend would always be ours. And when we missed a weekend, how upsetting it felt because we didn't get to see each other. I miss the sober us. I miss the us that didn't fight, the us that planned to get married, the us that would hang out with our families and be together. I will always love you Luis...but you hurt me, and I just want to know why? Why couldn't you just get sober? Why did you always have to be high and accuse me of things I didn't do? Why did you have to get drunk and beat me? Why couldn't you just stay sober? We still had the best sex, we still enjoy each other company and made each other laugh when we were sober? We went to family gatherings when we were sober. Why did you have to get high and miss the most important event of my career, my cousin's quinceañera? Because you were high the night before and you needed sleep. And I still forgave you for all this shit and still love you. What is wrong with me? Why, why do I still care for you when you put me through hell...you broke me...if that was your plan from the beginning, congrats, you won. I am broken...I would honestly rather be alone than find someone new because I still love you, and I haven't slept with anyone other than you. I am sure you have moved on. And congratulations on your new partner if you found one. I hope he treats you right, I hope he gives you everything and more. But I can't move on from you until I know that you are okay and happy. My heart still cares about you and the only thing that will make me happy, is knowing you are happy. I will always love you from a distant, because you hurt me when we are close. You are my baby, I love you baby, this is my baby song...💔

womanintheword

“You say I am loved, when I can’t feel a thing You say I am strong, when I think I am weak And You say I am held, when I am falling short And when I don’t belong, You say that I am Yours I believe Oh, I believe What you say of me I believe”

lalol93

Our song came up on the radio today...its hard not to cry when all the great memories come back...

nicholasbritel

“You’re writing love songs?”

lalol93

I truly don't want to love again. You were my true love. You were my Bradley Cooper. And I wish you were heard to celebrate these successes I've been achieving. From have 8 quinceañeras in less than 6 months, starting up the shirt making business, and helping create a mexican candy bar with my step-mom for her business and being her manager. I am becoming my own boss with my family. I've been sober for 5 months now. And I hope you are sober too. It sucks to leave someone you love, but I had to fix myself. You hurt me on multiple occasions and made some big accusations about me that weren't true. But for some reason, I still love and care about you. Our baby song will always be in my heart. And there will always be a part of you there cuz you are truly special. Thank you for the great moments and memories. Cause I will always remember the great memories, like the picnic. I really wish you the best. ♥️ Quien lo quiere. I was remind about you because I saw House of Flowers is back and how you would copy the girl saying "Bruuunnooo"