tonteria

solamente diatribas tontas en este blog

[lamuertepermanece]

i want hydro, i just want an oxy, just something. I want to feel normal. I want to feel that warmth

[nyctosaurid]

i cant talk shit on dr who as if i didnt get my ass handed to me by that vincent van gogh thing 9 years ago

[joyceanfartboner-deactivated202]

imagine how sweet it would be if like fuckin cnn or somethin cut to england and like people were devouring the royal family live on camera

[joyceanfartboner-deactivated202]

even the baby one i dont give a fuck

[twofingerswhiskey]

are you seriously advocating for eating a toddler or am i fuckin illiterate 

[joyceanfartboner-deactivated202]

actually when i made this post it was a baby

[lamuertepermanece]

I think

Im gonna do it

Idk I thought I’d be ok

But I’m fucked up forever

Nothing exists

Im just putting myself through constant pain

Im not real

I don’t exist

Im nothing

Im only a shell and nothing around me is real

So why should I stay alive

Im fucked up, Im fucking weak, i do nothing of value

Im just making sure my body will be destroyed when I kill myself

[catchymemes]

[homofied]

[ike-loves-men]

I fixed it.

[homofied]

[lamuertepermanece]

De veras i am absolutely conked constantly. no puedo ver nada sin estar triggered por ello y i can’t do anything. Im constantly on edge even though I’m safe. I feel disgusting and anxious and I fucking feel them. I feel them trying to touch me. I can fucking feel them. They’re trying to grab me. I don’t know if this is real or them trying to touch me or talk to me or anything. Les veo por todos lados y me da ansiedad como si fueran allá de verdad. I don’t know where I am. I don’t know where I am. I can’t focus on anything because I am nowhere. I am constantly detached and I can’t tell if that’s some stupid mental illness thing or if I’m actually in a fantasy. I think I’m making this up. I’m not here. I’m in a horrible place and this is what I’m making up to survive it. I’m so scared of what’s happening. I’ve never hallucinated before, that’s why I think I’m not here. If this was real woild i be seeing them and feeling them and constantly switching between worlds. I’m gonna wake up and cry. I don’t want to wake up. I’m finally happy and there’s no way I am. This is so fucking fake. I pour boiling water on myself and I don’t feel it. I walk and I don’t get tired. I don’t eat and I don’t get hungry. I go in the cold and I do not feel cold. This is a dream. I don’t want it to be a dream. I’m fucking delirious. I don’t tjem to take me back. I don’t want to see them. I want to stay here and be safe.

Pero no puedo sentirme segura pq nunca estoy segura d q estoy aquí. Nunca estoy segura de estoy segura. Cachai????????????

Pq yo no

[lamuertepermanece]

si no tengo tetas antes de un año de hoy, voy a suicidarme

*set reminder*

[lamuertepermanece]

ya las tengo :)

[rcktpwr]

im gonna go shower and become wet like a crocodile my favorite beast

[rcktpwr]

please for the love of GOD stay safe

[hotvampireadjacent]

did you just tell yourself to stay safe

[longnuts]

Self care

[silence-in-my-life-blog]

“Estaba sencillamente muriéndome, no le interesaba a nadie, ni siquiera a mi.”

—

[arrdeearr]

[blairellisorwhatever-blog]

this never gets old

[therothwoman]

I met the creator of this a month ago and he said he got a lot of hate mail from dudebros who thought that he was a woman complaining about these problems.

[smitethestate]

Gold.

Bolding mine.

[commandtower-solring-go-deactiv]

Watch the real thing. Its perfectly creepy

[margbarcis]

this is also the guy who made “night in the woods” btw

[lamuertepermanece]

fucking relapsed today fuckers

I don’t really see a point in being alive

Im definitely killing myself at some point soon

I don’t think I was meant to be alive for very long

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

I sit at a table

Soon to lose a chair

I am not welcome

That much is clear

I do not know my place

Just that it is not here

I am the freak

I am the sinner

I am the disappointment

Maybe I can make do

Create my own table

Fill it with a chosen few

Ones who are lonely too

But it seems I may be unable

Others have places to go

Their own table to sit at

So perhaps I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silla

I sit at a table

Que de pronto perderá una silla

I am not welcome

Es muy claro

I don’t know my place

Solo que no puedo quedarme aquí

I am the freak

Soy la pecadora

Les defraudaré

Maybe I can make do

Crear mi propia mesa

Fill it with a chosen few

Otros que también son solos

But it seems que no puedo

Others have places to go

Sus propia mesas para sentarse

entonces quizá I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silly

Me siento en una mesa

Que de pronto me botará

Mi familia me odiarán

Parece puta obvia

¿Dónde coño voy?

I am disgusting

I am a fucking freak

Son los que piensan

mi familia que defraudo

¿Tal vez lo pudiera arreglar?

¿Pudiera ser mejor?

¿Ir a iglesia?

¿Reparar mi mente de pecadora?

¿¡Leer la Biblia!?

POR QUÉ SOY ASÍ?!!?

No puedo crear una mesa porque soy asquerosa

Nadie me querrá

Ojalá me muera

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

They hate me

They fucking hate me

Nací

Querían un niño

Les daba una niña

They hate that

Preferirían que me suicidara

Es lo mismo a ellos

Coño coño coño

No puedo crear una mesa

No quiero crear una mesa

Yo les reunira.

¿Entonces que pasaría?

Les defraudaré también.

Estoy de acuerdo con mi familia

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

La silla no se perderá.

Soy yo quien se perderá.

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

I sit at a table

Soon to lose a chair

I am not welcome

That much is clear

I do not know my place

Just that it is not here

I am the freak

I am the sinner

I am the disappointment

Maybe I can make do

Create my own table

Fill it with a chosen few

Ones who are lonely too

But it seems I may be unable

Others have places to go

Their own table to sit at

So perhaps I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silla

I sit at a table

Que de pronto perderá una silla

I am not welcome

Es muy claro

I don’t know my place

Solo que no puedo quedarme aquí

I am the freak

Soy la pecadora

Les defraudaré

Maybe I can make do

Crear mi propia mesa

Fill it with a chosen few

Otros que también son solos

But it seems que no puedo

Others have places to go

Sus propia mesas para sentarse

entonces quizá I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silly

Me siento en una mesa

Que de pronto me botará

Mi familia me odiarán

Parece puta obvia

¿Dónde coño voy?

I am disgusting

I am a fucking freak

Son los que piensan

mi familia que defraudo

¿Tal vez lo pudiera arreglar?

¿Pudiera ser mejor?

¿Ir a iglesia?

¿Reparar mi mente de pecadora?

¿¡Leer la Biblia!?

POR QUÉ SOY ASÍ?!!?

No puedo crear una mesa porque soy asquerosa

Nadie me querrá

Ojalá me muera

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

They hate me

They fucking hate me

Nací

Querían un niño

Les daba una niña

They hate that

Preferirían que me suicidara

Es lo mismo a ellos

Coño coño coño

No puedo crear una mesa

No quiero crear una mesa

Yo les reunira.

¿Entonces que pasaría?

Les defraudaré también.

Estoy de acuerdo con mi familia

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

I sit at a table

Soon to lose a chair

I am not welcome

That much is clear

I do not know my place

Just that it is not here

I am the freak

I am the sinner

I am the disappointment

Maybe I can make do

Create my own table

Fill it with a chosen few

Ones who are lonely too

But it seems I may be unable

Others have places to go

Their own table to sit at

So perhaps I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silla

I sit at a table

Que de pronto perderá una silla

I am not welcome

Es muy claro

I don’t know my place

Solo que no puedo quedarme aquí

I am the freak

Soy la pecadora

Les defraudaré

Maybe I can make do

Crear mi propia mesa

Fill it with a chosen few

Otros que también son solos

But it seems que no puedo

Others have places to go

Sus propia mesas para sentarse

entonces quizá I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silly

Me siento en una mesa

Que de pronto me botará

Mi familia me odiarán

Parece puta obvia

¿Dónde coño voy?

I am disgusting

I am a fucking freak

Son los que piensan

mi familia que defraudo

¿Tal vez lo pudiera arreglar?

¿Pudiera ser mejor?

¿Ir a iglesia?

¿Reparar mi mente de pecadora?

¿¡Leer la Biblia!?

POR QUÉ SOY ASÍ?!!?

No puedo crear una mesa porque soy asquerosa

Nadie me querrá

Ojalá me muera

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

I sit at a table

Soon to lose a chair

I am not welcome

That much is clear

I do not know my place

Just that it is not here

I am the freak

I am the sinner

I am the disappointment

Maybe I can make do

Create my own table

Fill it with a chosen few

Ones who are lonely too

But it seems I may be unable

Others have places to go

Their own table to sit at

So perhaps I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Silla

I sit at a table

Que de pronto perderá una silla

I am not welcome

Es muy claro

I don’t know my place

Solo que no puedo quedarme aquí

I am the freak

Soy la pecadora

Les defraudaré

Maybe I can make do

Crear mi propia mesa

Fill it with a chosen few

Otros que también son solos

But it seems que no puedo

Others have places to go

Sus propias mesas para sentarse

entonces quizá I should sit alone

[lamuertepermanece]

Chair

I sit at a table

Soon to lose a chair

I am not welcome

That much is clear

I do not know my place

Just that it is not here

I am the freak

I am the sinner

I am the disappointment

Maybe I can make do

Create my own table

Fill it with a chosen few

Ones who are lonely too

But it seems I may be unable

Others have places to go

Their own table to sit at

So perhaps I should sit alone

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I was trying to put my feelings into a comic for emotional relief but my sketch came out like this and I just fucking lost it I’m not even sad anymore