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Okay we know shanon won't talk about the great gulon incident because she accidentally hyped it up too much, but have we considered the much funnier option?? Keefe. Keefe has hyped it up too much. It was NOT a big deal but he's been telling vague stories of it for years now. All of his friends make it seem huge. He is in over his head. He is so scared. His entire reputation is riding on this. They cannot find out.

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I feel like being angsty

This is while Keefe is in the Forbidden Cities

Enjoy ☺️

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So finally doing this analysis on Keefe

I've talked about this in reblogs and stuff but never made an actual post so here we are

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By no means am I an expert on this topic so if I have any incorrect info please correct me

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If you guys haven’t watched Greys Anatomy there’s this specific scene that reminds me so much of Keefe. To give more context: The scene is about a character named Meredith Grey talking to her psychiatrist.

“When are you going to stop suggesting I’m suicidal?”

“When you start acting like somebody that wants to be alive”

“Give me my chart.”

“Why?”

“Because I’m not suicidal and if it says that then it’s wrong.”

“What happened last year when you fell in the water?”

“I almost drowned. You think I did that for kicks?”

“You put your hand in a body cavity that contained explosive substances.”

“I was trying to save a patient.”

“Why is it that every other person in that room, that the sense to hit the deck? You know people run away from this line of life and death. You seem to stand by it and wait for a strong wind to sway you one way or the another. You’re careless with your life. You’re not slitting your wrist but you’re careless. Probably because your mother told you, you were a waste of space. The problem is you believed her. If you don’t watch out one of these days you’re gonna die because of it.”

I actually love this scene so bad because it reveals a perfect example of passive suicidal attempts and behaviors. A lot of people seem to misunderstand Keefe as a character. Yes he’s a teenager boy but he’s more than that. He’s traumatized. He’s a victim of past and current abuse. He is constantly living in fear of being hurt or losing someone. The way he projects his coping is a beautiful example of deflection. The way he gives himself up to shows how worthless he thinks he is. He’s not running into battle with the 100% intention he thinks his efforts are going to work. There’s a part of him that believes that it would be best to do a big gesture and die with that gesture. He would finally be free. He would finally let go. He can finally show people that he’s worth more in death than he was in life. He actively has tried to do things that have put him in indescribable harm close to death. He’s reckless. He’s impatient. He’s stubborn. He’s demanding. All of his character traits show and reflect what being depressed with passive behaviors is like. He’s not actively trying to slit his wrist or hang himself. He’s not throwing himself off cliffs. But he is self isolating. He does destructive impulsive behaviors thinking that even if he dies at least he was useful.

For his entire life Keefe has believed he was worthless. Nothing was ever good enough for both parents. Cassius, being a narcissistic verbally abusive parent, and Gisela, being…she’s a lot to say about her actually and I don’t have time to do the run down. Both of them have put pressure on him to be perfect but he could never reach their expectations. Both of them wanted him to be submissive. He was never worth anything or good enough unless he was listening to them. Unless his parents found some use for him he was worthless. Keefe is always trying to do something for the Black Swan or for Sophie or for himself. He has this urge to prove himself. He has this urge to want to fix everything as if he’s trying to show people that he’s worth more than just trouble. But when everything fails and he self destructive. When his mistakes are too high compared to his successes he becomes impulsive. He starts going things out of instinct and not thinking. He constantly has changed the plans last minute not because he has a GOOD plan. He’s changed plans last minute in his last few attempts to do something right.

The unraveled scene where he’s light leaping is a WONDERFUL example passive behavior. He had already been fading away which he knew. He could see himself get lighter and feel lighter. This wasn’t something he wasn’t aware of. He was very aware. He proceeded to keep light leaping until the point of numbness. He was thinking about all his mistakes. He was thinking about the letter he wrote Sophie. (Which can also be seen a suicide letter IF we really wanna point it out) He’s thinking about all his failures and how he’s alone now. He doesn’t have anyone near him. He doesn’t have anyone to ground him. For the first time ever he’s fully by himself. What did he do with that realization? He realized he was tired. He’s exhausted and overworked and for a moment whole lightleaping he felt himself let go. He wanted to let go. Everything was too much. Everything was too hard. He said it would be so much easier if he just let it all go. But in the last second he changed his mind of “Oh I can’t because people-“. He pushed his attempt away not because he didn’t want to. He pushed his attempt away because he remembered other people. That itself was a passive behavior. Yes he didn’t actually go to kill himself but he thought about it. He allowed himself to have the thought and the momentary acceptance of “but what if I did?”.

Everytime people bring up his self destructive behavior he deflects. “I did it for this!” “I did this for her!” “I did this for him!” “I needed to-“ But he doesn’t. He’s constantly finding a way to make a situation urgently about about saving and helping. He needs to find a way a way to cover up his behaviors, not with excuses, but with situations that reflect his. When he’s in distressing events his actions are distressed. When he’s reckless it’s because the situation is reckless. BUT at his core he doesn’t actually mean what he says. And if he does it’s not his 100% intention.

Keefe is such a genuine interesting character to me. He’s relatable but he’s also REAL. He’s not perfect. He’s messy. He’s toxic. He’s emotional. He’s empathic. But at his core he’s a good person. He’s trying to be the best he can with what he’s been given but he doesn’t know how to. And what’s worse is that he doesn’t know how to prove it to others without needing to feel like he needs to sacrifice himself to do it.

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friendly reminder that in several points of Unlocked, a chapter ends with something along the lines of

"Keefe went to sleep, half-hoping he wouldn't have to wake up tomorrow."

"Keefe closed his eyes, wishing that when he slept, he wouldn't wake up again."

vesnyanko

Fr we all know who Keefe’s biggest stan is

@camelspit yay

theunmappedstar

you’d think sophie was the one with the ability to make people do her bidding at a single word with the way keefe obeys her like a dog

potaroe

Keeper of the Lost Cities: Neverseen Chapter 77 The moment that I embrace these idiots to the fullest.

strawluvr

Top two apps where I see fitz villainised sm on

laquintt

Free my man💔💔🥀😭

theunmappedstar

plot going magnificently

castleofravens

i have seen WAY too many people acting like fitz asking keefe for a painting for sophie was like.. a shitty move even though ?? 1) we have no evidence suggesting that fitz knew keefe liked sophie too, 2) it’s actually very logical like if he’s not as great at art he’s obviously gonna ask his best friend who’s a good artist for help, 3) he and sophie were LITERALLY DATING ??

vesnyanko

Keefe won the vote, so...

They're so cute, I'm dying

luvisour

how sophie feels saying keefe is extremely hot and handsomer than most elves every ten seconds then swearing that it is perfectly platonic behaviour and she only sees him as a friend