Aug 17, 2016
I kept thinking, “They meant well. They didn’t know how much it hurt. They didn’t mean to hurt me. I shouldn’t blame them” But now when I look at it, it was obvious that I was hurt, no matter how much I was trying to hide it, anyone who cared even slightly would be able to tell that I was hurting. And they knew how much it hurt, it was obvious on me too, they just enjoyed that part. They very much meant to hurt me, they would never admit it of course, but pain was very intentional, and very rewarding for them. Of course I should blame them. How would I not blame someone who was hurting me, enjoying it, and blaming me on top of it?
they meant to do exactly as they did. (via furiousgoldfish)
