gio’s wife

[writinginasnowglobe]

hi i'm back 🫣 i feel like i was on here for like three days and dipped but i realized that i'm not great at being part of fandom in general (i stopped going on twitter and threads bc this fandom especially is a little insane sometimes i'm so sorry) so i had to take a break. not from writing obviously but i'm tentatively back on here at least !!

as for fics, thank you sm for all the love on the recent chapter of "oh my god you should see your faces" i wasn't sure if i'd go back to that one but the hudson peloton ad........yea i Knew i had to write a chapter after that y'all !!! and i got some fics in the works currently but no clue when they'll be done or posted yet because life is a lot right now 😭

anyway i thought i'd share a few of my recent fav fic recs that have been stuck in my head since i read them to make up for disappearing LOL:

if it's my chance i'm gonna take it by @gurlsrool (a fic where everyone wants shane hollander will always ALWAYS be my shit !!)

You've got mail by anonymous (the coding on this fic is INSANE i'm obsessed, and now complete !!)

Pour Decisions by hermacology (i'm not usually a fan of aus where shane isn't a hockey player but this one was HILARIOUS, had me giggling out loud)

hi shane, is this still available? by tunamelt (another fic w/ INCREDIBLE coding, this one is so so funny !)

my jane fucks hollander sometimes, no big deal by ronbin (texting + sm fic, i will always love a shane wags fic !!!)

snapping birch by @polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup (NOTE: this one is a wip, but genuinely one of the best hollanov fics i've read !!!)

[shanerozanov]

hello and welcome to my hollanov fic rec list! not only is it extensive, it’s also overly detailed—like shane, i exhibit various undiagnosed autistic tendencies and therefore have a need to organize things in a way that only i truly understand lmao. in order to keep it all in one place, i’m putting everything under a read more so that i can add to it whenever i want! this is my roman empire.

all fics listed below are complete, though some may be part of a series that the author could potentially add to in the future. i’ve organized this list into three categories: canon-compliant/adjacent, canon-divergent, and alternate universe (fics are ordered from longest to shortest per each section). also, each category comes with a little descriptor, mainly just to loosely define what i consider canon-adjacent vs. canon-divergent, etc. lastly, i’ve included some tags underneath every fic for context, such as pov, timeline, and content warnings—however, these tags are not exhaustive; i’m really only tagging things in order to differentiate between fics in my mind. for example, i’m not going to be tagging homophobia/internalized homophobia, the reality of inherent racism in predominantly white sports, or shane’s autism (diagnosed or otherwise), because that should just be implied lmao. we all watched and/or read the same story.

[notes: this category might better be described as canon-compliant + canon-adjacent. for me, this includes fics that either fit right into canon with little-to-no adjustments, or fics with very minor diversions from canon in terms of timeline/plot beats/etc. that don’t really alter the trajectory of the story. if a fic takes place during hr/s1: as long as the story will still conceivably lead to the cottage and all that entails, it’s part of this category. if a fic takes place after hr/s1 (in the period before tlg): as long as the story will eventually lead into tlg with no major changes, i’ve included it here. lastly, i consider any fic which takes place after tlg to be canon compliant, considering unrivaled is not yet out. until it is, post-tlg canon is our sandbox!]

✧₊⊹ gatorade galas & moscow mules by toraten – explicit / 85.5k # dual pov, brief svetlana pov, post-finale, pre-tlg, long-distance relationship, slice-of-life, depression, panic attacks, jealousy, phone sex, unprotected sex.

“Your team psychologist prescribed these to you?” Shane asks. “No. He sent me to another.” “And you went?” “I went.” “For what?” Shane asks, even more confused about this whole thing than he was before. It’s feigning ignorance, maybe. Maybe because he doesn’t want this to be happening, maybe because he wants Ilya to just tell him himself, without Shane having to guess and infer. “They looked for CTE. Put my head in the machine. They found nothing. They say maybe it’s genetic. So they gave me this.” “They put your head in a fucking machine? When? What?”  “I said there was nothing.” “I just... I don’t understand why you wouldn’t tell me any of this, after all this time. I was right here—” “You don’t want depressed fucking loser, okay? No one does.”

Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything. Ilya Rozanov is mostly just sick of air travel. (Or: Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.)

✧₊⊹ like a bright new dream ‘series by moonsock – explicit / 39.3k # shane pov, post-tlg, slice-of-life, honeymoon, the ottawa centaurs ensemble, depression, jealousy, unprotected sex.

“It’s been a hard year.” A good year, undoubtedly—he got married, honeymooned, joined the same team as his husband. And beating Montreal is… God, it’s the best fucking ‘I told you so’ there is. But also—he’d thought he was going to retire there. He used to picture his jersey in the rafters.

Shane and Ilya’s life after The Long Game, through Shane’s eyes.

✧₊⊹ slash and burn by eleadore – explicit / 29.6k # shane pov, hook-up era, episode: 1x04, unknown drugs, dubious consent, jealousy, infidelity (not between shane/ilya).

He didn’t look right. Rozanov’s tendency to lock on Shane was the worst thing about him, hands down, but his eyes slid right past Shane now, unfocused. Shane found himself cataloguing the rest as if he had Rozanov on a slide: his lax mouth and set of his shoulders, how fast he was breathing. No way to know in this light if he’d paled, but he was shiny with sweat, so much that curls had matted to his forehead and the nape of his neck, and the hollow there of his clavicle gleamed. Was his chest flushed? Shane couldn’t tell. Everything was bright fucking pink. Rozanov was grinding against the guy’s hip with sloppy, urgent rolls of his body. He was still looking at Shane.

Shane had everything he’d ever wanted, plus a girlfriend. Ilya Rozanov was not his problem.

✧₊⊹ tongues a-wagging by anonymous – teen / 29k # dual pov, outsider pov (epilogue), hook-up era, original side character, social media, jealousy, miscommunication.

Shane’s never been straightforward with his emotions, his preferences. Ilya’s just spent many, many years learning them. Paying attention. So when a stranger sneaks into the peripherals of Shane’s texts, Ilya notices. When the I’s become we’s, Ilya notices. When Ilya gets a text from Jane in the evening on the West coast, asking if it’s true that in Russia, you don’t cross your heart when you tell the truth, you promise to give someone a tooth, Ilya fucking notices.  Dovonchezky is everywhere in Shane’s life, insidious and unshakable, and Ilya would cut off his own hands if it meant he could stop keeping score on his fingers.

Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky. Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.

✧₊⊹ bull in the heather by garagepaperback – explicit / 28.3k # shane pov, hook-up era, post-tlg, gambling (kind of), texting, jealousy, miscommunication, unprotected sex, original child character (epilogue).

Shane tells himself: it’s a few hundred bucks. Shane tells himself later that it’s fine because he only does it the one time, and unlike the other thing he’s told himself that about, over and over and over—unlike that, it is actually just the one time. Mostly. Really, he was fucked the second he opened the text thread. He’s not great at self-preservation when his dick is hard, and he gets a little thicker just from the shape of Rozanov’s not-even-real name on his phone.

Shane never had any vices until he met Ilya Rozanov.

✧₊⊹ careful all the time by anonymous – mature / 24.4k # shane pov, brief svetlana pov, post-finale, pre-tlg, slice-of-life.

“I was thinking about the honeymoon phase thing.” “Yes?” Ilya said. “I think it’s different for us. I don’t want us to be all blissful and then only start fighting when we’re back to barely seeing each other. I think it’s good if we figure things out now, when we have the time. Whatever needs figuring out. So we have a solid foundation going into the season. Sort of like training camp.” “So this means you will keep getting mad at me for things,” Ilya said. Shane smiled, rolled his eyes. “Yeah, exactly,” he said. “Good, I find it very hot,” Ilya said, and kissed him.

An insecure over-thinker and a self-destructive thrill-seeker walk into a relationship.

✧₊⊹ for a split sec, i was a train wreck by anonymous – explicit / 18.9k # ilya pov, hook-up era, injuries, boredom, texting, phone sex.

Never mind the next two weeks, the next eight hours stretched endlessly in front of him. He had no idea how to occupy his time. His house was basically empty, which sounded sad but was really a good thing, evidence he’d built himself the life he wanted—where he always had something to do, outside and with other people. Ilya had been restless for as long as he could remember, had never been able to sit still. He’d gotten in trouble for it as a kid at the dinner table and he got in trouble for it as a full grown man on the team bus. He’d gotten in trouble for it when the doctors had been trying to take the x-ray, his leg jumping without his permission.

Ilya gets injured, stops leaving the house, loses his mind, learns to read tarot, and sends Shane Hollander a lot of photos.

✧₊⊹ free rein by eleadore – explicit / 18.3k # ilya pov, hook-up era, under-negotiated kink, consensual non-consent, feminization.

“Stop asking me if it’s okay. If I want it. You’re always, like—whatever. I’m not one of your fucking girls, okay? If I don’t like it, I’ll stop you. I can make you stop.”

Ilya dutifully navigating the steel-trap of Shane’s mind.

✧₊⊹ another uninnocent, elegant fall by anonymous – explicit / 17k # ilya pov, hook-up era, post-finale, mentions of ilya/others, public sex, getting caught, blackmail.

“We shouldn’t talk about that. About anyone knowing. Please.” “Okay,” Ilya said. He wasn’t sure it scared him the way it scared Shane, the idea of people knowing, and that made him feel guilty and a little ashamed. It should scare him. Logically. He had as much to lose as Shane—probably more, considering the Russia of it all. And he obviously didn’t want it to get out, but he wasn’t scared of it to the degree he couldn’t even entertain it as dirty talk. Ilya wondered what it’d be like moving through life with that much fear in him. He thought maybe it would be nicer. Clarifying.

Seven scandals in the life of Ilya Rozanov.

✧₊⊹ real love makes your lungs black by anonymous – explicit / 16.6k # dual pov, hook-up era, post-finale, addiction, smoking, jealousy.

If Shane had had a good, close friend, a confidante, somebody he could talk to about whatever was happening between him and Ilya Rozanov, and that good close friend got it in their head that maybe Shane liked Ilya, had feelings for him, one of the first things Shane would say to refute it would be: but he smokes.

Shane, Ilya, cigarettes—a love triangle for the ages.

✧₊⊹ buzzer beater ‘series by mcshrug – explicit / 21k # dual pov, hook-up era, under-negotiated kink, orgasm control, orgasm denial, semi-public sex.

“Drink,” says Ilya. His tone is light, but it’s firm. It’s not a suggestion. Shane lifts the glass to his lips and takes a sip. “All of it,” Ilya says. The fingers of his left hand, resting lightly on the edge of the counter, are beginning to drum against the marble. Shane takes one gulp, and then another. He drinks steadily, until the glass is empty. Then he sets it down on the counter, breathing harder now, and stares at Ilya. Ilya’s fingers are still tapping that same steady beat on the counter. He says, “You listen when I tell you what to do.” Shane swallows. His mouth is still wet. It seems entirely pointless to deny it. “Yes.”

Shane finds getting himself off boring. At least, he used to. Before Ilya Rozanov got involved.

✧₊⊹ and i want what i want by thesehands – explicit / 14.2k # ilya pov, hook-up era, under-negotiated kink, pain play, spanking, shower sex.

“Hollander. Relax. So you lost one game,” Ilya said. “Big deal. Win next time.” “It is a big deal,” Shane said. His hands were clenched tightly into fists. “It’s not just the game. You know I can’t afford to fuck up like this, not this close to playoffs. It’s a pretty big deal. Fuck. And it’s my fault. I wasn’t focused. I can play better than that, and I just… didn’t.”  “Okay, your fault, so what?” Ilya shrugged. “You think you should be punished for this?”

Shane plays badly. Ilya thinks he can beat the guilt out of him.

✧₊⊹ this ache of mine by owshampooinmyeyes – mature / 13.5k # ilya pov, hook-up era, post-finale, childhood flashbacks, brief ilya/svetlana, depression, grief, homesickness.

“Do I dream?” Hollander repeats. When Ilya nods, he says, “Yes? Why?” His eyebrows bunch together. “Wait, you’re not—do you mean in like, a sex way?” “No,” Ilya says, watching that flush spread. “But I like your idea better. What do I do in these dreams?” Choking, Hollander says, “Fuck off.”

He is his mother’s son.

✧₊⊹ excoriation by intertwingular – explicit / 12k # shane pov, hook-up era, post-finale, childhood flashbacks, under-negotiated kink, light feminization, consensual non-consent, pain play, dry sex, marking, scarification.

‘Do you want something,’ Ilya had asked. The answer was, as it always was, yes. But that had not been the question.

Shame and Desire—the Shane Hollander thesis.

✧₊⊹ stickhandling by moonlitgarden – explicit / 11.9k # shane pov, hook-up era, body image issues, phone sex.

Women flock to Rozanov; he’s the gravitational centre in every room. Shane gets it. He’s felt it, the shark pull of his orbit. He’s been swallowed up into the belly of desire. What he doesn’t get is how easy it is for Rozanov. Even with Shane’s teammates pooled around him on the dance floor, his hands get clammy when a girl in a sequined skirt makes a move on him. Shane used to think maybe he was just awkward; maybe he needed a couple of beers in him to loosen up, but he couldn’t do that during the season. Then Ilya Rozanov kissed him and the craving was so clear in Shane’s mind he was able to visualise every sharp edge of it, and he knew he wanted to be on his knees.

2013. It’s been two years since he and Rozanov hooked up in Nashville and exchanged phone numbers. It’s a month till Boston comes to Montreal and Rozanov’s promise of ‘next time’ could go into fulfilment. Shane Hollander wants to play hockey. He wants to play it well. The other thing is a thing he cannot allow himself to want.

✧₊⊹ oh, the lips that tell me lies and i can’t wait to kiss by jewelledfoxes – explicit / 10.6k # ilya pov, post-finale, pre-tlg, under-negotiated kink, mildly dubious consent, unprotected sex, light feminization.

His mouth parts. A hint of his soft, wet tongue as it swipes briefly across his lower lip. A second passes. A hesitation. Then, “You’ll make a mess.”

Ilya has learned that when it comes to Shane, sometimes “no” really just means “convince me.”

✧₊⊹ the night shift by thecouchsofa – explicit / 10.4k # ilya pov, hook-up era, under-negotiated kink, cock-warming, orgasm control.

Hollander is always a bit like that, in increments. He takes every loss personally—every missed shot, every empty netter, every failed pass. He could stand to get out of his head for a while. It would be good, Ilya thinks, for him to calm down. To sit and relax, maybe.

Montreal loses to Boston. Ilya manages to get Shane out of his own head for a while.

✧₊⊹ i was raised out in the cold by lavenderprose – explicit / 10k # shane pov, hook-up era, long-distance booty calls, semi-public sex, car sex, getting caught (kind of), panic attacks.

He crowds Shane into the hood of the car, hands up under his shirt and jacket again. October is getting cold; nights are getting colder. The places where Ilya is touching him are the only parts of Shane’s body that are warm right now. Maybe that’s why he wraps his arms around Ilya’s neck and clings to him, though he doesn’t necessarily surprise himself with it. They don’t even kiss for a moment. Ilya busies himself breathing into the crook of Shane’s neck, trying to regain control. Shane opens his eyes and gazes over Ilya’s shoulder at the dark field and realizes that an utterly foreign feeling has risen up in him. It’s Ilya’s broad shoulders and beautiful hair between Shane and the world and he feels—small. Protected. “Oh my God,” Shane whispers, completely ashamed of the feeling and hungry for it. It curls warm in his stomach. His toes arch inside his shoes. Something about being so close to this man, something about Ilya putting himself between Shane and—the world. Whatever lurks in the deep night. It’s a feeling like a ghost, something that Shane isn’t allowed to look directly at except for moments like these. Quiet and dark.

Shane, Ilya, Vermont. Meeting in the middle.

✧₊⊹ cottaging by gone_girl – explicit / 9.7k # ilya pov, post-finale, pre-tlg, working out together, under-negotiated kink, orgasm control, light feminization, unprotected sex.

Ilya loved to watch Shane do yoga. Ilya loved watching Shane do anything in the gym. He loved to watch him in the gym and on the ice and during sex, because these were the only times that Shane ever appeared genuinely comfortable in his body. It used to practically get him drunk, watching the tension start to melt from Shane with a single word from Ilya. It made his stomach hurt and his dick twitch, after, watching Shane knit back up tight again when they were done.

Ilya was good at noticing things about people, and he was good at understanding them. Shane was not. That was okay. Shane had developed his own way of getting to know Ilya. It involved a lot of inane questions and, more importantly, no longer involved condoms.

✧₊⊹ slow show by hockeyfinches – explicit / 8.7k # shane pov, post-finale, pre-tlg, shane’s ambiguous eating disorder (brief mention), under-negotiated kink, pain play, biting, unprotected sex.

“If you don’t come here, I will come to you.” “Rozanov.” “I will drive,” Ilya tells him without sympathy. “Park illegally in my big muscle car. Everyone will notice. Lots of photos, probably.” Shane rubs his forehead. He gets to his feet and glances at his bag, still packed, on the hotel dresser. “I hate your car,” he says, at last. “Yes, I know,” Ilya says. It sounds like he’s smiling.

The excruciating ordeal of asking for what you want.

✧₊⊹ drop the gloves by mcshrug – explicit / 8.4k # shane pov, hook-up era, on-ice fighting, under-negotiated kink, pain play, unprotected sex.

Jesus, the smell of him. Something about it makes Shane’s thoughts grind to a halt. It makes him feel less like someone who just lost the biggest game of his career and more like an animal, wanting to bite into the meat of Rozanov, wanting to fuck against the warm bulk of him until he comes and comes and comes.

Shane has been trying to figure out how to ask Ilya to stop using condoms. He finally works up the courage the night Boston eliminates Montreal from the playoffs.

✧₊⊹ magnetic fields by thecouchsofa – explicit / 8.3k # shane pov, hook-up era, under-negotiated kink, multiple orgasms, overstimulation.

‘How many times can you come in an hour?’ Shane doesn’t know. But he’s happy to test it.

Shane and Ilya conducting very serious experiments.

✧₊⊹ tape to tape by mcshrug – explicit / 8.2k # ilya pov, hook-up era, original side character, jealousy, injuries, marking, hickeys.

He manages to make himself relax enough to loosen his jaw, but not enough to stop himself from saying, “Are you happy?” Shane hesitates. Ilya hates the way Shane so visibly thinks through what he’s going to say before he says it to Ilya, sometimes, like he’s trying to figure out how best to tiptoe around a subject without hurting Ilya’s feelings. Ilya knows it’s his own fault, for not being able to handle heavier steps.

Shane Hollander has chemistry with his new American linemate. Montreal fans are thrilled. Ilya Rozanov is not.

✧₊⊹ afterglow by christinegrrl – explicit / 7.9k # shane pov, hook-up era, episode: 1x02, brief shane/ofc, masturbation.

The Raiders beat the Sharks 6-1 and Rozanov gets three points and the first star of the game and there’s no text waiting for Shane about how Shane should be planning the way he’s gonna reward Rozanov the next time they see each other. It’s fine. It’s only been a week—nine days—and it’s not like they were frequent texters before. Rozanov was always the one to initiate their exchanges, so Shane is doing well to follow his lead and not be like that girl who hooked up with J.J. and couldn’t catch a hint afterwards, increasingly desperate texts being passed around the Metros locker room until finally someone suggested he block the crazy bitch.

Shane processes his first time with Rozanov.

✧₊⊹ heaven can wait by garagepaperback – explicit / 7.7k # shane pov, hook-up era, jealousy, tattoos, injuries, unprotected sex.

The tattoo is so big. Shane doesn’t know if he likes it or not, is only just beginning to understand that this means forever.

Yearning with your eyes fully squeezed shut.

✧₊⊹ running down the hills by hockeyfinches – explicit / 7.1k # ilya pov, hook-up era, injuries, wound care, erectile dysfunction (due to alcohol).

“You are…” Ilya licked his bloodied teeth and tried to remember the word. “Squeamish?” “No,” Hollander said. His eyes were still so wide, tracing over Ilya’s bruised face like searchlights. “Fuck. Just—” He stepped back, stumbling a little on socked feet, and jerked his head at the doorway. Get in.

Lovesickness is real and Ilya has it. (Or: the Tuna Melt Prologue.)

✧₊⊹ coach, i’m threading needles by anonymous – explicit / 6.3k # shane pov, hook-up era, jealousy.

Ilya definitely went through more trouble to fuck Shane than he did most other hook-ups, and going back to the same person over and over wasn’t his usual approach, information Shane had deduced and latched onto from some fucked out pillow talk six months prior. It was an impossibly low bar, but among Ilya’s sexual partners maybe Shane was special. And Shane didn’t want to try to put a number on how many people had slept with Ilya, but there had to be hundreds if not thousands more who had wanted to, who had imagined it but would never get to have it, would never know what it was like, and by this impossibly low bar Shane was special too.

Ilya fucks a girl in a Hollander jersey. Word gets back to Shane.

✧₊⊹ yes, i come back ‘series by naokime – explicit / 6.2k # dual pov, hook-up era, body image issues, under-negotiated kink, pain play, face-slapping.

His body is good for two things: hockey and sex—even then, the latter comes with an asterisk. He’s good at being available for sex, he supposes, and that is a thought he cannot afford to entertain.

Shane versus his body.

✧₊⊹ like one of your girls by creamsicle_melt – explicit / 5.7k # shane pov, hook-up era, post-finale, jealousy, under-negotiated kink, feminization.

Rozanov posts on Instagram a lot. Not on his feed, but his stories. Every time he lands in a city, he posts a story. Usually it’s just back of his seat, or sometimes the view out the window—on the tarmac, never anything exciting, one of just many cities their lives are broken up into—and a location tag. Low effort. It’s pretty obvious what it is. Guys laugh about it, call it Rozanov’s Fuck Signal. The easiest way to get the hot girls who follow him to slide into his DMs. Easy pussy.

Shane wants to be special. He hates himself for it.

✧₊⊹ car wash redhead, tube top r.e.m. concert, juror #6 by rockbound – explicit / 2.8k # ilya pov, hook-up era, post-finale, financial management, rabies as love language.

When Ilya sees someone he knows what they have and how to ask for it in a way where it will be given. Ilya did this to Shane himself, intuitively. The only trick is to have no fear, and even less fear than that the more trouble one is in. He cannot teach that to a man who has directed his energies into becoming, not like a saint, but like a painting of a saint, all dripping in symbolism: the way the robe drapes here, yes, that is on purpose, and the angle of the light, the patron’s face in the crowd, the instrument of the martyrdom in his hand and the fruit in the bowl on the table, all arranged except when—

What is a real person? Can it learn to be loved?

✧₊⊹ six-seven-eight, triple nine, eight-two-one-two by insatiablegaydesire – teen / 2.7k # shane pov, the era between hook-ups, episode: 1x02, texting, flirting.

It starts, like any good small talk does, about the weather. ‘Jane. I am dying.’ Shane is still in bed, spending his last hour before practice clicking endlessly through YouTube when he gets the notification. With no one there to see, he lets the smile settle comfortably as it spreads, and switches apps. He’s about to shoot down Ilya’s latest attempt at desperate seduction when another text arrives. ‘I will play next game with no feet because cold took them.’ This... was new.

Shane expects texts from Ilya to bring him to his knees. They do, but in another way instead.

[notes: this category is for fics that, you guessed it, diverge from canon in a significant way. basically, stories that take a sharp turn away from canon at one point or another, thus changing the trajectory of the original plot. that change could happen very early on (like, literally before the 2009 draft even happens), or could occur much later in the timeline—the fic simply has to be set in canon to begin with in order to be included in this section.]

✧₊⊹ something you can fix ‘series by some1_around – mature / 134.7k # shane pov, ilya pov (missing scenes), episode: 1x05 divergent, public outing, panic attacks, dissociation, contract trades, shane leaves montreal.

Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okay-ish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

✧₊⊹ winners ‘series by pressuretoparty – explicit / 80.9k # dual pov, post-finale, not tlg-compliant, jealousy, depression, suicidal thoughts, erectile dysfunction (due to medication), gambling, injuries, medical negligence, under-negotiated kink, pain play, unprotected sex, car sex, public coming out.

Their rivalry, as history has written it, has finally come to an end. “I won,” Shane breathes, and the smile, the smile that’s been plastered on his face since he scored, grows wider. He doesn’t care how close he is to Ilya on the ice right now. He doesn’t care that people might see and think he looks gay. He lifts one hand, still shaky with adrenaline, and claps it onto Ilya’s helmet, dragging their faces together. Ilya starts, and in his surprise, lets himself get pulled forward. He wants Ilya to hear him say these next words. “I beat you,” he whispers, awed. Since he was seventeen, all Shane Hollander has done is chase after Ilya Rozanov. He’s chased after him on the ice. He’s chased him in the rankings, in cup victories. He’s chased after Ilya into hotel rooms, into stolen moments on gala balconies and gym staircases. It’s true. Ilya ruined him. Shane’s grip on Ilya’s helmet tightens. And now, Shane’s finally beaten him. Ilya stills, only for a moment, before his smile returns. “Do not worry, Hollander,” Ilya leans in close, too close, arguably, for plausible deniability. But Shane can’t even stop him, even if he tries. Shane is completely helpless, to the intensity of his gaze, to the possessive lilt to his lips. Ilya hisses this next part, just for Shane to hear. “I am not that easy.” 

Shane and Ilya try this dating thing for real.

✧₊⊹ and i spit out the seeds by linearity – explicit / 24.2k # ilya pov, episode: 1x05 divergent, leaked sex tape, public outing, impromptu road trip, unprotected sex.

The video takes a few seconds to get going. It’s fuzzy, hard to make out, warm-lit and dim. Sheets rustle. Ilya lifts his eyes, shooting Cliff a look that means, ‘What am I supposed to be watching?’ And then the footage becomes clear. Ilya drops the phone. But the video keeps playing. Now, Ilya understands the noises he’d been hearing before. White noise. A ringing in his ears. Tinnitus. Ilya feels bile rise up his throat. “What the fuck?”

A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.

✧₊⊹ play destroy by kneeinjury – explicit / 11.7k # shane pov, episode: 1x01 divergent, infidelity (not between shane/ilya), jealousy, unprotected sex, feminization.

Shane is silent for so long that Rozanov leans, slouching against the doorframe, and raises his eyebrows at him expectantly. “Yes? You are selling bibles?” “You fucked my girlfriend.” It tears out of him. “Ah,” Rozanov drawls, as if the thought is just now occurring to him, “yes. I did.”

No one knocks and no one opens. Not until years later.

[notes: basically what it says on the tin. i don’t read nearly as many au fics for hollanov because i’m a canon-universe whore, but there are definitely some amazing ones out there that i’ve enjoyed and had to include. also! just because it’s au, doesn’t mean there’s no hockey lol. sometimes it’s just hockey in a slightly different font, if you will. what can i say? hockey is so fucking baked into the narrative of these boys and their relationship—it’s rare for me to branch out lmao.]

✧₊⊹ apogee by opalapparition – explicit / 50.4k # shane pov, astronaut au, international space station, forced proximity, near-death experience, panic attacks, jealousy, unprotected sex, zero-gravity sex.

Shane Hollander is the youngest Commander in ISS history; straight-backed, closeted, and so tightly on his own leash that seven months in orbit with Ilya Rozanov have not produced a single crack in his composure. Ilya Rozanov is the Russian cosmonaut who should have had his job, won’t stop bouncing a tennis ball off the walls, and is still looking for a fissure. Thankfully, a solar storm finds it for him.

Near-death, zero gravity, and the wrong man’s hands in exactly the right places.

✧₊⊹ a world brought together as one ‘series by tofuflower – explicit / 14.2k # shane pov, a/b/o au, alpha ilya rozanov, beta shane hollander, jealousy, miscommunication, scent marking, sex toys, masturbation, knotting.

Being a beta has always meant safety for Shane Hollander. No expectations, no instincts, no distractions from hockey. Unfortunately, he meets Ilya Rozanov.

Heated Rivalry, but make it omegaverse. Even still, their relationship is unconventional—for multiple reasons.

[yooboobies-deactivated20240123]

i believe that you need this video on your dash

[atruththatyoudeny]

Monthly Reads | August 2020

Happy 28th, lovelies! I say it every month but I can’t say it enough: the authors of this fandom are true stars. So much love for you all, no matter if you write drabbles or 100+k. You are dearly appreciated! ♥

✿  Let Me Be Your Everlasting Light | Layne Faire (HisDarlin) | fluff - humor - 12k Harry Styles and his partner Louis Tomlinson have been dating for four years. Over those years, he has always known that Louis’ biggest dream has been to see the Northern Lights in person. Harry arranges a trip to Norway as a gift for Louis, but little does Louis know Harry is also hoping to make his own dream come true, too.

✿  contingencies | honey_beeing | accidental marriage - older Larry - 10k Where Louis and Harry are actors who long ago were married on set and find out too late. Like twenty five years too late.

✿  Nice To Meet You | 28sunflowers | co-workers - no smut - 2k Louis has the biggest, most embarrassing, seventh grade like, crush on his journalist partner from the morning news. It’s a fact that he will make an idiot of himself and his infatuation will show immediately when they meet in person. Which is why Louis can’t be blamed for his terrible social skills when he walks into Harry in the conference room to discuss this morning’s show.

✿  Lit a Fire Inside | QuickedWeen | Girl Direction - strippers & strip clubs - TikTok - 3k Bored at home, Harry turns to TikTok and quickly gets addicted to all of the amazing lesbian content. She especially likes the videos of a beautiful pole dancer named @loubabyxo.

✿  Hate to Smoke (Without Me) | louhazpride | enemies to lovers - college/university - neighbours - 12k “For fuck’s sake,” he huffs, grabbing the pillow and pulling it on top of his head in an attempt to block out the banging coming from the other side of the wall. It’s the third time this week that his neighbour has woken him up in the middle of the night with his little ‘rendezvous.’ Honestly, he’s quite sick of it. There’s only so much sex he can bear to hear in one week and he has already hit his limit. If he wanted to listen to someone having sex, he’d turn to porn. As if the noises weren’t enough, Harry immediately becomes aware of the faint aroma of weed filling his flat. “I’m going to murder him.” Sleep. Harry just wants one good night of sleep. However, his neighbour has a thing for headboard-banging-against-the-wall-sex every night. After a secret set-up and a bet, Harry may finally get the sleep he so much desires.

✿  Someone to Fly Home To | kingsofeverything | post-divorce - older Larry - implied/referenced cheating - exes to lovers - 34k Louis. 55 year old pilot who wants someone to fly home to. Harry swipes right.

✿  Members Only | kikikryslee | gyms - fluff - awkward flirting - mutual pining - 15k “Well, I’m gonna go work out now, so…” Harry said, his voice trailing off. Louis nodded. “Yeah, yeah, go ahead. Go get, uh, you know, strong and buff.” What? Louis wanted to die. “Um, thanks?” Harry said. “Um…” Without another word, Harry walked away from the desk. Louis pinched his thigh – hard – hoping that was some terrible, awkward nightmare that he might soon wake up from. — Or, the one where Louis works at Harry’s new gym and neither one of them knows how to hold a coherent conversation with the other.

✿  tell it like an old song | outropeace | a/b/o - non-traditional a/b/o - amnesia - memory loss - mpreg - 27k “The thrumming of my blood is always calling your name.” or where Harry is a bit lost (just like his memories), his best friend is hiding something, the love of his life is gone and love… love is like flowers.

✿  Waiting | allwaswell16 | a/b/o - hurt/comfort - injury - friends to lovers - childhood friends - roommates/housemates - soulmates - humor - 8k Louis Tomlinson was Harry’s omega, of this Harry had always been sure. Unfortunately for Harry, Louis seemed to think they were just best friends. The six weeks that Harry has to live with Louis were going to be rough.

✿  I can’t do this alone (sometimes I just need a light) | Only_angel_28 | strangers to lovers - emotional hurt/comfort - meet-cute - grief/mourning - 8k “Harry,” he says after another contemplative moment, “can I hug you?” It’s been…well, Harry doesn’t actually know how long it’s been. Less than an hour, probably, but already Louis says his name like it’s safe in his mouth, and now he’s opening his arms like Harry could be safe there too. “Please,” Harry nearly sobs, and sinks into him the way butter melts on toast. It’s an apt metaphor, really, because what Louis is giving him is as essential and sustaining as a loaf of bread to a starving man. His basic need for physical affection is as vital as his need for sustenance, for sleep, and he can’t believe he’s allowed himself to ignore it for so long. Or: Harry is having a rough time. Louis is the kind stranger who makes him smile again.

✿  at your fingertips | falsegoodnight | PWP - dubious consent - ex relationship trauma/drama - 27k He finds himself wrapped up in sheets in bed on Thursday night, staring at the familiar name on a new story that was posted the night before. His fingers twitch, ready to hit play and surrender to his impulses, saving the regret and turmoil for later. And still he hesitates, internally praying that he’ll somehow gain the strength to exit out within the next few moments before he inevitably loses his patience and hits the button. Three… Two… One. Play. - Or, Louis really should have seen it coming.

✿  A Sweeter Place | Halos_Boat | older Larry - hurt/comfort - emotional hurt/comfort - grief/mourning - friends to lovers - fluff - 50k Harry doesn’t think he has it in him to find love again, at least, not until he meets a man at his support group that just might change his mind.

✿  Everything Has Changed | Jesapeak | The Backup Plan AU - mpreg - 8k Harry Styles meets the love of his life, just after being artificially inseminated.

✿  we can take the long road home | pinkcords | roadtrip - strangers to lovers - pining - angst - 46k Late afternoon seeps into the cab, just shy of too warm, and the breeze that crosses window to window tosses their hair in their eyes, around their faces. They ride in pleasant silence, the radio humming softly in the background as they speed down the coast, and when Louis looks over, Harry’s smiling to himself, a private happiness born from whatever’s going on in his head. Louis likes to think it has something to do with him, or at the very least, this adventure they’ve embarked on together, chosen to see through to San Diego. Or, Harry and Louis fall in love down the coast of California.

[potterdirection]

Day five!

Good for You by Marchessa

( @dork-in-charge​) 

“Mr Styles has broken more hearts than anyone ever is his age. The young and handsome baker apparently has a knack for ruining weddings and engagement parties. And we still love him! His baked goods always have a high quality, - those pastries I had the luck to taste were savoury, and I would sell my pointy hat collection to have one more bite of them.”-Weekly Witch Magazine “Mr Heartbreaker […] is the successful owner of Harry’s Hearty Pastries, a sweet little bakery on the Diagon Alley. Although the good looking confectioner is best known for inventing the Treacle Treasure Torte. You might ask, what is that? In case you were living in a dragon’s den all this time, it’s a ‘delicious’(?!) cake which shocked the Wizarding World! Many had shed tears, and it always depends on the ‘happy’ couple if those tears are of joy or sadness. Those who are brave enough can challenge their love and fate, and hope they won’t embarrass themselves while doing so.”-Daily Prophet Or the one where Harry is a baker, he has a crush on a famous Quidditch player since his years in Hogwarts, Liam is afraid he would ruin his relationship with Zayn over some pastries, and Niall is a Radio broadcaster.

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[potterdirection]

Day 4!

your eyes are blocking my starlight by leighbot 

( @iamleighbot​ )

There’s a Muggle on the Tube that Harry sees every day. While he wouldn’t say he’s obsessed with this man, thank you very much Nick, he would maybe admit that he’s very observant of him to the point where Harry knows this is the second day in a row that the stranger has worn the same dove grey button-up shirt.

Or, Harry’s doesn’t know how Muggle-Wizard relationships ever make it past the Big Confession.

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[potterdirection]

Day 2!

Do I Wanna Know? by alongwayfromtheplayground 

( @alongwayfromtheplayground​ ) 

He looks way too young to be one of the scouts, who, in Louis’ experience, tend to be old ugly men. Louis has never wanted to run his hands all over a scout before, and it would be tragic if this boy ruins that. Either way, he’s not supposed to be on the pitch unsupervised.

Louis starts walking over in his direction, his broom hanging loosely in his hand, and yells, “Oi! This is a closed practice mate! The visitor center is located in that big castle over there. You need special permission to be here.”

He turns his head to face Louis, and Louis is floored by how absolutely pretty this boy is. He smiles and dimples appear on his cheeks. His green eyes are bright and pure, and Louis is fucked. “And who says I don’t have special permission?” the boy drawls in a deep voice.

Louis Tomlinson attends an elite Quidditch academy, and is looking forward to the day he is signed to a professional team. However, the arrival of Harry Styles, the son of a famous Chaser, puts a wrench in his plans. Suddenly, Louis’ path to success doesn’t seem that straightforward, and Louis isn’t about to let some privileged boy stand in the way of his dreams.

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[burntbromances]

Girl Like You by louisfreckles (me) 5k - girl direction - college/university au

Harry is a first-year student at Leeds University, with somewhat of a crush on a girl who seems to pay her no mind. Soon enough, however, a little bit of school-related stuff and a little bit of partying, make her realize Louis might notice her a little more than she thinks.

read on ao3

Written for the @girldirectionfest2020

[girldirectionfest2020]

The fifth fic is up!! Go check it out if you haven’t read it yet! Last week the schedule was a little different, but that means you’ll either get three this week, or two this week and then one the week after that!! So get excited either way!

Wednesday 19-08

(the devil’s in the details) but you’ve got a friend in me by andidmarrylarry / @and-id-marry-larry​​ - 16k - high school and 1980′s au

“The carpeted area surrounding the snack bar was packed with kids from Zayn and Louis’ school and she could mostly discern the different groups by the way they gathered. Of course, the roller rink wasn’t much of a destination for nerds or burnouts or anyone Louis had ever really talked to, so she’s mostly categorizing different levels of semi to full high school royalty by the labels on their sweaters and the letters on their jackets. Louis looked over to Zayn and could tell instantly that he had spotted Liam. His eyes grew round and shone like a cartoon character’s. Louis shook her head, dismayed at her friend’s lack of will. At least until she turned to follow his gaze and saw the figure next to her.”

Or, in the late 80’s, Louis was just trying to make it through high school relatively unscathed by sticking with Zayn and not opening up too much to anyone else. When Zayn’s hapless crush on the student body president brings Harry - bubbly and magnetic and sweet - into Louis’ life, she realizes just what she was missing out on.

[coldties-deactivated20230429]

[pocketsunshineharry]

hey! do you know any fics where l/h are really close to each others family and anne and jay are incorporated a lot? and love their sons significant other? thank you

Hi! I hope those fit what you’re looking for!

so keep my candle bright by whisperdlullaby (78k) 

louis returns to his hometown after four years to find that the reverend’s son has done some growing up of his own.

one more for the stars by imsosorry (16k)

It's different, and Louis knows that, because Harry's got so much riding on this - a career and a future and his whole life. There's talk of him going first overall in the draft, of entering the NFL after only two years in college, of going to New York or Seattle or Green Bay, and Louis wants to be there for him, wants to support him and help him make decisions, but he also kind of wants to pin him to the bed and cry and scream, What about me what about me what about me?

(au. Harry's the star quarterback and Louis is about to graduate. It's a heartbreak waiting to happen.)

wings to break your fall by karamelised (102k)

“I’m glad you like my clothes,” Harry whispers, sliding his arms further along the couch until he’s speaking directly into Louis’ ear. “Would you like me to take them off?”

or

strip club AU. Harry’s work and family are keeping him busy. He really isn’t looking for a relationship, doesn’t want one. He just wants Louis. Problem is, Louis has other plans.

Featuring: spilled drinks, meddling mums, accidental insults, a pivotal plot point masquerading as a private dance, Harry with wings, slow morning sex, a secret relationship, and tea that fixes everything.

Falling into your gravity by larriebane (28k)

The Doncaster tribe has suffered from the increasing attacks of the rogue werewolves for months now and finally their pleas have been answered. The Government has sent them enforcements in the form of a family of high standing, the Styles, whose babelicious son turns a certain omega’s world upside down. Poor Louis is just trying to get people believe he’s a beta as his family’s life depends on it.

‘I’m not gonna let some hot, spoiled rich brat ruin my life. No matter how cute his dimples are.’

Mark my word (we gon' be alright) by harioandlouigi (35k)

"He’s always known that there would come a time when Harry would bond with some beautiful, quiet omega, and they would have lots of curly-haired pups and live happily ever after.

Knowing it and living it are two very different things, though. Watching the object of your affection desperately search for a mate and completely disregard you as an option is all sorts of painful, but it is what it is, and Louis is just going to have to learn to live with that."

Or, an A/B/O AU featuring an oblivious Harry as the pack leader, a pining Louis as his second-in-command, and an entourage of friends and family who are a little too good at keeping their mouths shut.

He's been my Queen since we were 16 by larriebane (30k)

Louis Tomlinson had been best friends with his neighbor’s son, Harry, as long as he could remember. The 16-year-old was small for his age and got bullied for being a weak alpha but Louis was there to help him. However, when the omega graduated from college and left for a university in London, he lost all contact with the Curly One. Five years later Louis finds himself back home, stalking a leggy hottie who looks like something from his wet dreams.

‘When did Curly get so hot?’

everything comes back to you by amory (27k)

Louis lets out a shuddering breath. “I love you,” he says.

“Fuck you,” Harry replies.

“You know that I’ve always loved you,” Louis continues, not stopping to acknowledge what Harry’s said.

Harry shakes his head. “I know, but sometimes I wonder if that ever went past us just growing up together. We were never apart Louis, never for so many years, and the minute we were you just left me. So sometimes, when I let myself think about it, I think maybe that’s why we don’t work. You were just so used to loving me because you didn’t know anything else.”

Louis and Harry, best friends since before either of them can remember, broke up four years ago. Louis has achieved his dreams of becoming the next big thing while Harry has stayed back, dedicating himself to his studies. Both are content to forget what they had together, until a tragedy brings them right back into each other's lives.

(you're gonna see me in a) new light by thepolourryexpress (13k)

a fake relationship au where everyone knows it's real but louis

Here In This Light (Hold Me And Don't You Ever Let This Die) by skyyfreitas  (15k)

For the prompt: Louis and Harry's family have had a time share together since he two boys were young. Every Spring, both families stay at the house for a couple of weeks during Spring Hols. They always have a great time together, sharing the same room and making memories. But things have changed over this last year. You see, Harry grew up, Louis isn't straight, and the beach is for lovers, not lonely losers.

[medievalthymes]

hades is the smell of the cold winter mornings, the smell of the pavement after it has rained, and the lingering scent left on your clothes after a camp fire. he holds your hand as you cross the street, watches the moon with you, and is sitting beside you on long car rides. he is both the coldness of your room at night and the warmth of your bed after a long day.

aphrodite is the smell of rose petals and your newest fragrance. she is the smell of the fog after a nights rain and the odour given off while romantic sex is taking place. she is the taste of your lovers lips and the feeling of your own skin after a shower. she is the butterflies in your stomach, and always has your name on the tip of her tongue. she is the one who sends you your next relationship and ends the bad ones. 

poseidon is the smell of the moist air as the water rolls over the rocks near a lake. he is the smell of the mud in a play ground and the scent of your newest body wash. he’s the one who stares back at you as you stare beyond the horizon of the sea. he is the feeling you get when you jump into a pool after being in a hot tub or sauna. 

apollo is the smell of breakfast cooking in the morning and wet wood. he is the split second of pain in your eyes from the light after being in the dark for long periods. he is the summers day spent at a park, and the excitement of remembering lyrics of your new favourite song.

artemis is the natural smell of your hair. she is both the smell of bark on a tree and your fingers after picking up a wet rock. she gives you grass stains on your pants, and blows your hair in the wind. she finds your favourite places to go and guards your place to sit. 

ares is the smell of your sweat. he smells like sand and is the scent of your father. he feels like slate and the pain of a bruise. he is the one who pushes you that one extra step, and forces you to lose your cool.

zeus smells like fire. he smells like the cold wind and your freshly washed sheets. he is the one who makes your heart pound and is the one who triggers your anxieties. he is the booming of loud music and the cracking of the floor boards at night. he watches you as you walk home in the rain.

- @antikristt

[shadeandadidas]

If anyone is looking to get Fucked Up by a horror book that’s a cross between Rebecca and Guillermo Del Torro’s Crimson Peak, I HIGHLY Encourage ya’ll to read Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno- Garcia. 

My Thoughts On It and I so so so encourage my horror loving lil friends to hit me up.

[greenfeelings]

Light, Spark and Fire by @greenfeelings

Pairings: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson, Zayn Malik/Liam Payne 

Summary: Life’s pretty ordinary for Harry. He lives with his best friend, got into university just like he’s planned, and manages to support himself just fine for an unbonded omega. If he sustains that lifestyle by getting paid to help alphas through their rut every now and then, that’s nothing to be hung up on. Until he’s hired by an alpha that turns everything upside down.

Or, Louis and Zayn run a music label, Liam is Britain’s up-and-coming pop star, Harry’s working on taking Louis’ walls down until he builds his own up, and Niall holds them all together without realising he does.

Word count: 96.000 (estimated 150k) 

Rating: Explicit

the beautiful fic cover was made by the amazingly talented @wesninskey

Part 1 - A Distant Hazy Light: Prologue /// Day One /// Day Two /// Day Three /// Day Four /// Day Five /// Day Six /// Day Seven 

Part 2 - A Dim and Airy Spark: Prologue /// First Memory /// Second Memory /// Third Memory /// Fourth Memory /// Fifth Memory  

Part 3 - coming soon 

[justalittlelouislove]

The Game Plan by Me!

Written for @disneydirectionfest

Artwork for this post by @suddenclarityharry

Pairing: Harry/Louis

Louis's life is exactly how he likes it: all about him. When it suddenly gets turned on its head and one little lady makes a huge impact, will he learn to handle it or run for the hills?

[ponymom-stuff]

More Beautiful Than the Puzzle by ponymom-stuff

Harry needs to find a mate in order to inherit his father’s title and estate. But there are lots of interested suitors, with many only interested in the potential wealth and status that the Earl of Darlington comes with. Is there a worthy mate out there?

This story will be a challenge within a challenge, a story about a challenge inside of this Wordplay challenge.

This is part of a Wordplay prompt challenge for the prompt “extract”. To read the amazing fics that were written by the others on this prompt, click here, and to see all fics written as part of the challenge (including years 1-3), click here. You can also find the masterpost for this year’s challenge here.

@wordplayfics​

[becomeawendybird]

In a Little Bit of Trouble by QuickedWeen (4.8k, T)

Agent Louis Tomlinson is in hot water and finds help in the most unlikely of places: the sweet waitress at her local automat.

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - 1940s, 1940s, Post-War, Spies & Secret Agents, Girl Direction, Action/Adventure, Spy Louis Tomlinson, Waitress Harry

Written for @wordplayfics​ Prompt 1: Extract