La Estrella Errante

A personal collection of my self expressions.

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Nothing compares to the happiness that new growth brings ✨ 🌱 💞

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Repurposed the twins’ baby headbands. They are doing a great job keeping my journal closed and protecting the cover corners.

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Working on some teacher appreciation notes 🍎 📝 💕 Gotta paint the background, add a cute message and a few other finishing touches. I might want to keep them for myself 🙃

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Some older entries and some very special new ones! I had my mom take my journal with her to Mexico a few weeks ago. I asked her if she could get both of my grandmothers to fill out a page. I told her to tell them it can be anything, just their name, a favorite prayer, anything. My mom got back in town tonight and handed my journal back. She told me that she was able to get my grandmas to write in it and that three of her sisters joined in too. I will cherish these pages forever 🥹💕

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Started with an empty journal many years ago and just recently picked it back up to add to it. Maybe this year I’ll do some more pages.

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I lay there dreaming

You’re flying with me

Towards a sky so blue.

But then I wake up,

The sky’s blood red

And I’m missing you.

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How could I forget you

from one day to the next

When it's taken me a lifetime

To memorize the ink across your chest,

The scars on all your knuckles,

And the skyline on your wrist.

How could I forget you

when you're so hard to resist.

How could I get over

the way you made me feel,

The way you made me smile,

The way it felt so real,

The way you kissed my shoulder,

And made me shake down to the bone.

How could I get over

The first boy who felt like home?

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I’m tired of being your lifeboat,

I’m done being cast into the sea.

You kept me around just to stay afloat,

But you never gave a fuck about me.

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one thousand moons have risen

one thousand suns have set

one million smiles upon my face

since the day we first met

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Look at me,

Tell me what you see.

I’m not the same person you once knew me to be.

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She loves hard, but will sting you harder

If you dare to cross her heart.

Daring lips spill poison words

No remedy could thwart.

Exotic eyes cut you so deep,

You can’t help but fall apart.

-for Sidney

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I want to be your sun

I want to be your sea

I want to be your everything

Just like you are to me

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Blood Moon

No one will ever understand

The pain the full moon brings me.

Not when my bones bend and break,

But with the look of fright he gives me.

Not when my nails to claws they turn,

But when this urge rises from beneath:

To taste the way my love’s blood will burn

My tongue behind my gnashing teeth.

No body will ever know my pain

And how it fills me to the brim.

Not when this cursed moon changes me,

But when I tear him, limb from limb.

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I knew from the start

That you’d just break my heart.

Why did I dive right in?

I already knew

That you’d break it in two,

Yet I’m the one who let this begin.

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As the rain hits my window

I can't help but smile,

I throw on my jacket

And go outside for a while.

I've been walking for blocks,

My clothes soaked through and through,

And I can't help but think

Of my first kiss with you:

Standing in my front yard

You played with your keys,

You kissed me so sweet

It made me weak in the knees.

At that exact moment,

It started to pour.

And I pulled you in closer,

I had to have more.

Dripping wet and smiling,

With a sparkle in your eyes

You squeezed me real tight

And we said our goodbyes.

That's the moment I think of

Whenever there's rain,

It's a trip I love taking

Down memory lane.

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How my heart would sink

To the pit of my gut

When I’d see your waves

As tall as mountains.

Was it the fear of you overtaking me

Or maybe it was just excitement