Itâs been over 2yrs since my last log-in...
Hi there. Does anyone still get on here? Do I still have followers?Â
Either way. Hereâs some life updates. I realized 2 years ago, things werenât exactly going well and I left on a pretty ominous note. I just wanted to say that things have gotten so much better.
In late-April/early May 2018, I lost two family members to cancer.
In May 2018, I dated a guy for a whopping month. I fell too hard too fast (as I often do) and he ended up showing up on my doorstep after work one day and dumped me. I was completely shattered. After he left, I broke down and can vividly remember holding on to Annie and saying outloud âWeâve been through worse. We can get through this.â Then things shifted-
On June 20, 2018 I had to say goodbye to my sweet Annie- my Heart Dog that I know I will never find again for the rest of my lifetime. And thatâs okay. She was somethinâ special for sure and she helped me through so much and a lot of big life changes. I feel so honored that we got to spend 3 years together and I was so incredibly lucky to be her Dog Mom. She left this world surrounded by the people who loved her most, her last meal consisted of leftover pepperoni pizza in my bed. Her last moments were spent in her favorite spot on my couch with her head in my lap. Itâs been two years but not a day goes by that I donât think of her. Last summer, I actually got a beautiful memorial tattoo of her on my thigh.Â
My Crazy Ex Roommate made a couple appearances before I finally blocked her on anything and everything I could think of. The final nail in the coffin was a horribly nasty text that I canât get out of my brain nearly 2 years later-Â âI canât wait for your ugly, blind, mutt to die so literally no living being will care about your existence.â Great timing since I had euthanized my dog literally a week prior.Â
The rest of the year was spent feeling completely hopeless and simultaneously numb and depressed as shit. I went to a handful of psychiatrists seeking help but none of them seemed to be a good fit. I gave up on that. I kept crying at the drop of the hat. I started to hate my job (I still have quite a few of those days.) I was anti-social and rarely left my apartment.
It was a lot being piled up. Like, a LOT.
It took a really freaking long time, but I think Iâve reached a point here in 2020 that Iâm doing much better.
 A year & a half ago, I moved into a 2/2 with a friend of mine/old-coworker and things have been going great. We each have an orange tabby and they get along pretty well so thatâs freaking adorbs.
I broke my foot on a work floating trip and was stuck in a boot & crutches for about 2 months. That....sucked.But now it makes for a pretty funny story.
I WENT ON MY DREAM TRIP TO LONDON. And fuck yeah: I went 100% alone. I had the absolute time of my life and was planning on going back around Christmas buuuut the ârona kinda put a dent in that plan.
Oh, and I met the most amazing man I didnât think even existed :) Weâve been together almost a year at this point (hi hello im nearing 30 and this is my lonest relationship ever lolololol)
I donât know if Iâll be getting back on here anytime soon (if ever). But, if this is the last time, I just wanted to leave on a good note.
