My Daily Life And Thoughts

Hey! I'm a 18 years old girl who lives in Finland. Feel free to follow me on this journey, that i call life.

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School is stressing me out!! 

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6.5.2020

Hi! I haven’t been posting for a while! But I figured it was time to write something. 

As everyone knows we are living in a crisis. I am distancing myself because of the corona virus and i am trying my best to stay sane.

Obviously my school is now online. it has been hard to stay focused on on school work. To be honest I've only done the bare minimal to pass my courses and i’m starting to feel anxious about that. I know it is partly my fault but also my teachers give me way to much homework and projects. But then again i haven’t done the homework either. I’m too stressed to function. 

Oh and finally we have some signs of summer here in Finland! 

I’ve come up with things to do to stay sane. for example, yesterday i baked. 

It might not have been the greatest idea, because we don’t move as much as we did before the Covid-19. The cake did taste good tho.

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Roasted broccoli pasta salad w/ hemp pesto / Recipe

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This looks so yummy, i have to try it!

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24.2.2020 - Grandma

I have been really tired recently, both mentally and physically. My grandma died earlier this month. Last wednesday me and my family went to Sweden for her funeral. It was the hardest thing I have ever experienced, but I’m not sad, I just miss her a lot. My grandma was the kindest person I have ever known. She loved painting and she was extremley good at it. She loved playing boardgames especially Uno and Sternhalma. 

She taught me a lot about patience and kindness. She gave me many happy memories. Grandma liked giving gifts, but she herself was a gift that cannot be compered to all the other presents out there.

I love you grandma. To the moon and back.

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16.9.2019 - Gap year?

Hello there, it’s me...again.

To day was a slow day for me but i got some stuff done. With stuff i mean i studyed for my upcoming exam and worked out for about 10 minutes. I also did a facemask and forgot my homework, since i a highschool student who is doing so great at school needs some “me time“.

I really need to know how the straight A students can keep up with everything. I hold a pen for five minutes and then think that i am worthy of a break, while they study and do their assainments. I have ALOT of respect for all of you good and hard working students out there. And also for all of you not so good but still very hard working students. High school really isn’t easy. It takes up alot of time and energy. That’s not good for a person like me, who never really cared about school and now have to try to study and stay motivated.

I am thinking that i might do high school for three and a half years. You see in finland you will usually graduade in three years, but you can also graduade one year or a half year earlier or later. Then after high school i will have a gap year, whitch would only be a half year, if i expand my so called “high school experience“ to three and a half years. I might do a post about finnish high school at some point, even tho i’m the only one reading these. But then again i’m writing for me and my tumblr is for me. So why woudn’t i do it.

Anyway, i took some pictures on my way home from school, so here ya go!

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14.9.2019 - It rained today

The time is 20:50 (08:50 PM) here where i live. I should write an essay about human interactions and what makes it easier or harder. I honestly do not have the energy to do this, but i have to. I guess i will stay up late today. I cant write it tomorrow since i have to study for my physics exam. 

But i will now tell you about my day. I was suppose to wakeup at 8:00 o’clock, but did i...NO! So i woke up at 10:00. This is what you get for going to sleep at two in the morning. After breakfast i tried to study, but i honestly don’t know if i learned anything.

i had lunch with my friend. We went to a falafel restaurant. i orderd a falafel-feta-eggplant-pita bread. He orderd something similar but it also had chicken. Mine was vegetarian but not vegan since it had tzatziki in it. After lunch we went to the asian store. Needles to say they sell the best noodels in town. But weirdly enough i didn’t find any kimchi!!

When i got home i listened to music for about an hour, even though, i should have been writing that essay i mentioned earlier. I have to mention the band i was listening to, Foster the people. Ah i love their music so so much. I’ve been listening to “Imagination“ and “Pick u up“ on repeat. Ahh... So goood!

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Who am i?

Hi!

I’m a finnish high school student. I was born in Sweden tho, but i moved to Finnland when i was seven years old. My parents are divorced. I have an older brother and two half brothers. I am currently struggeling in school and I don’t think I will pass my math test or physics test. It’s wayyy harder than what it was last year. Why is school so hard nowadays and why is it so difficult to stay motivated. I’m still trying my best, because I know it will benefit me in the future.

Now that I mentioned the future, I must write about my future plans. So, I want to study psychology and criminology. For laguages I want to learn korean or french, but I might want to start studying german again. When I graduate from high school (in three years) i’m going to move to either Australia or Canada. I have also thougt about moving to Neatherlands, but I don’t think I would want to go to university there since I can not speak dutch at all.

Here is some random facts about me.

I absolutely love coffee but weirdly it doesn’t affect me that much.

I used to dance, but I don’t anymore because I had to have eye surgery and after that i had a six-month break. When i finally could dance again I didn’t want to anymore. Now i’m trying to find myself a new hobby. I’m thinking about pilates or boxing.

I like cats more than dogs but i love hamster and bunnys too.

I’m a pescatarian. It kind of happend accidentally. I just don’t like meat that much, but when ever i’m in a other country, I do try some of their traditional diches, which might contain meat. I only recently found out that by not eating meat I can help the environment. That is something I want to start doing.

I think I will stop writing now before this turns into a full essay.