Lawn51Outsider's Space

100% personal and venting 95% My posts

[swedishfishrule]

[lawn51outsider]

It would be great to have sex tonight, or anytime soon for that matter, but if not, I'll relearn how to survive.

[wilde4words]

No single event can awaken within us a stranger whose existence we had never suspected. To live is to be slowly born.

Antoine de Saint-Exupéry (via apoetreflects)

[lawn51outsider]

Work and you will eventually be rewarded. Be self-confident when you don't feel like it, it'll help you out a lot more.

[1-800-111-4444]

I want to be someone’s favorite person to talk to.

[lawn51outsider]

Just focus on that work

and the rest will take care of itself

[lawn51outsider]

What is it going to take me to be awesome?

Or am I awesome already but not realizing it?

Thoughts still run through my head all day

but not I have filters that work

20% better than they did before

something is better than nothing

.

[s-hirow]

My point is: in this whole wide world the only person you can depend on is you.

Haruki Murakami (via entflohen)

[begratefultogod]

With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself, or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose.

(via moeyhashy)

So choose wisely.

[lawn51outsider]

Feelings of low self esteem are back. Going to try to fight them off today.

[lawn51outsider]

Feeling of anger followed by feelings of inadequacy… Getting really mad over something simple then feeling like every friend I disconnect with (because I feel they’re having a negative impact on my life) feels like I am just loosing friends and becoming more lonely, rather than creating a better environment for myself.

[lawn51outsider]

Under-confidence is killing me... seriously, it's a plague that is keeping me from so much

[onlyavenatrixnoctisnaturally-de]

[lawn51outsider]

Use Your Voice

Project that voice

Loudly

Confidently

Let everyone here what you have to say

Say it loud

Proud

and comfortably.

Say it loud when you want to the least

You can be wrong, but don't be faint.

If you don't stand for anything, you fall for everything. 

Talk to them.

Talk to her.

Talk til you can't talk anymore.

But only reveal to those who prove themselves worth it.

Remember those who matter.

[quotethat]

My sister told me a soul mate is not the person who makes you the happiest but the one who makes you feel the most, who conducts your heart to bang the loudest, who can drag you giggling with forgiveness from the cellar they locked you in. It has always been you.

Sierra Demulder, ”Love, Forgive Me” (via catsmeooow)

[fleurishes]

I keep writing about sex. I think, I mean— all I want is the after of it, after you took my skirt off with your teeth, after I was so clumsy with the buttons on your shirt that I ripped them open because I was so fucking frustrated and they bounced around my feet like pearls, rolled under the bed. You thought it was sexy and fucked me against the wall with my bra still on. I felt like a queen. Saw, in the unforgiving morning light, where your mouth had been. And your nails. Your sweat. Now all I want is tenderness. I hold eggs in my hand at the grocery store, check them for cracks and leaks. I try to do the same to myself. When I go to restaurants I stay for hours, ordering nothing except wine and tracing my finger around the glass rim until it sings. When you said, Your skin is holding you in nicely, I cried. So now you know. Don’t leave.

Kristina Haynes, “When I Opened My Hips” (via fleurishes)

[lawn51outsider]

Inspirational Piece to Myself

Less thinking more doing.

Less internet talk more real life work.

Less planning more plan-carry-out-ing.

Expect out what you put in. Fight for what you want. Be weak to none. Stress none.

Clear the clutter out of your scheduale. Your new life just started five minutes ago.