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Not sure how i became so restless. My mind feels so chaotic. Like a burst of thoughts are trying to come out.

Bwst way for me is to just take slow deep breaths and start listening to my pocket watch as it ticks away.

Today was just so weird. It seems slightly off but normal at the same time. Trying to figurr it all out. N

Had a dream i was walking through a snow storm trying figure out where i was. I noted my hands were bind with chains while another chain was wrapped pulling me around by a figure i cant see. I spoted a chopping block

There was a crowd surrounding the block. I said some kinda speech i couldnt really remember and kneed down and rest my head on it. I remember i saw a lady with a pretty face looking at me wanting to run towards me buy i shock my head hoping she wouldnt get caught. I just stared at her and then my head started to move on its own and i woke up

I always admire and respected friends relationships. That old school version of what love truly means. I dont play the game that involves the heart. That is something just too cruel and unproper. Im just searching for someone for me and me alone and vice versa. I dislike it when people think im trying to break relationships. The relationship was doomed from the start. I was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. Someday ill find my own and shell fit perfectly between my fingers. Where we both atempt fate and see where it leads.

Im so proud of my friend. He made the right choice and begain the journey all on his own. Not really sure if hes ready or can handle it but i believe in him. To overcome the obsticles and challenes that awaits him. I wish i was there to help out but i know its someghing that he needs to handle. Plus im stick here preparing for my last few finals.

I really hope ill do alright. I study but idont know its enough. And my brain cant take anymore studying on a subject i will bearly use for my job. But whatever... im so close then summer school. Im so glad i have good drone teachers and the willingness to learn and hopefully master the craft.

I dreamed i was standing in a crowded place on the street. Then someone called my name.. as i turned she was there running towards me just itching to hug me. So i walked towards her and gave her a great long hug while humming a random tune. I can feel she was smiling. Then i woke up in my room.

Kinda neat to help a friend process fear. The trick is to not run from it but imbrace. Throuvh long deep breaths. In and out. Then the fear willl flow righf throigh. These steps simple to say bit diffcult to pull off. Alll part of life. To grow from the actio m s we made and face the conciquncese whatever it may be.

I think for fall semester im planing on taking more palates or yoga. Its a great way to handle the mind while enganging the body in both relaxing and stressful movements. Who knows maybe ill do a side hussle and be a palates instructor. Drone op by day and martal art/palates instructor by night lol.

I wonder the samething why my friends wanted me to agree on something i didnt feel right. Im super aware of the tactics used to get people to agree with me. I dont use it as much. But i use it to catch others that play that game. The real question i ask is who is really benifiting from all this and what they have to lose. Theres alway a hidden agenda even if they denie it. As well as how much it involves me. So many puzzle pieces that needs to be arrange for a clear picture.

I was able to spot the goat waffles. Using a drone that has heat signagure with a long range lens. It was so coool. The goat went missing not to long ago and i was surprised i found him. I jusg thought to myself where would waffles go at this time. I just guess where the shads at and food. Then soon affer i found wafflss. It was pretty cool

Had a nice dream while meditating and i accidently fell asleep and dreamed i was running up towards someone and she was running towards me and we just being kissing. Then a ring of fire started forming around us. The longer we were kissing the bigger the flame. Though it wasnt hot but it felt warm and comfortable like it felt just right. Then different versions of us began to form around just watching with positive reinforcement. The blue flame with a hint of gold was quite a sight to see the right of fire grew into a huge pretty fire tornado. It felt calm and relaxing.

Im so proud of myself getting all As and one B i never had this before. Its so wild how it turn out. Yay i hope it keeps on going. I want to celebrate and treat myself with some cake and ice cream. I dont have the money to spend it on nice things atm but hopefully once i get a decent job ill get a nice job and buy even cooler things.

I wonder how itll all play out.

It turned out to be a success. I was able to get over that hump and really dig into it. I just gotta make sure i dont slack off. Must keep continuing.

I wonder what im missing. What seems so off that its keep me up an un ease feeling. Just wanting to make sense of all of it. Feeling anxious which is very unusual. Need to take tbose deep slow breaths.

I like it very much

Its crazy how fast time has moved. Like already summer is almost here. I honestly wanted to try to go to the renfare but money became super tight. I need a job that fits my schedule. But its so freaking hard. I always feel bad letting people down. Ahhhh hopefully i find something soon so i can buy nice things and pay off lots of other things.

Its wild ive gotten so determine to learn as much as i can to improve my drone skills and learning as much as i can so i can be great at the job.

Ive already completed almost half of my courses. Doing both summer and fall and winter. That is when ill hit the fork on the road. To work & travel or get the BS. and spend more time.

I guess im learning more about myself a friend asked about what im lookong for in a relationship and pretty much, spending time together, loyalty, affection, open minded, knows what they want and goes for it, trys their best even if the odds are not in their favor. Hmmm what else... i guess someone that doesnt do the whole chasing thing. Im not intrested in that kind of hunt. More so just two people enjoying each others company.

I really want to get a vespa and travel the city with it. I know i wont go fast but it looks like alot of fun. Plus ill save money on gas because its been getting so expensive i dont go out so often.

Ahhh i think i burned my tounge from drinking soup or hot tea. I cant stop licking my lips. I should of waited for the food to cool down. Hopefully my tounge will heal soon.

Ive been having these odd dreams. I jumped on a falling rock inorder to save something. It seemed important enough to grab it. Maybe its some magical item. Not sure..

Im tired but my mind is still active and wondering around. I usually disappear when i cant find the words to properly conva on how i feel. Those moments are just overwellming. Becuase it means the world to me. Even if its silly. In these situations i never saw them as some game. On the brighter side as i fade from one place... i appear in another.. it feels like a fresh start. With new oppertunities to get closer with my goal and what im hoping go find. Something that helps give my life a better meaning and helping me accept the peace that comes with it.

I feel like it was someones birthday. Its wild how fast time flies. I kinda wish i knew whose bday it is so i can properly congradulate them in make the world better.

I guess im a free spirit. They told me why its wrong, but it kept bring me back to the same place. Once i embrased who i am and what i want. It all made sense and i became happier with my choice.

Thats my secert. It like she said. When it rains... enjoy and dance in it. It doesnt need to look good just as long it resonate with the soul

Its pretty neat seeing the progress im making with flying. My fpv drone. Out of the two drones its the hardest one. To handle becuase theres no automatic functions to land. I still crash pretty hard, bit im getting a begter understanding of my controls. I havent quite master the landing... i just try to slowdown as much as possible. And hope it doesnt slam on the pavement. Eventually, ill have to get good at learning to orbit around. Kinda nervous but ill try my best.

I had this odd dream i was laying in bed and this beautiful lady crawed up on my bed and sat down on my lap while our hands were around each other. She whispered something in my ears than looked deep intk my eyes with such a seductive gaze. I had no idea what she said. I kinda wish i knew what she was saying. Instead of thinking of

I never thought i had to do a presentation about fungus. So far i got most of it down now im clearing it up a bit to make it sound presentable. Been watching a few documentaries on it to get into the groove on the direction i want to take it. Good thing its a short one so i dont need to practice too bad for it.

There is a certain way in throwing it. Though, it takes alot of practice to get ot down just rist right. Still working on that. But during that moment when time felt like it was standing still i rushed over till there was enough distance to throw it property. It made everything after that eas

Im so glad it was a false alarm i was alittle worried when i started bleeding from my nose it was soming serious. Maybe ot was the change in alttatude. But yea i dont usually get nose bleeds unless something hits me in the face. I also watch a scify horror film about a virus a few days earlier as well. But the docter checked out and there wasnt anything unusual. So im safe.

Its weird i got in an argument with someone about her relationships. She noticed things seem like theyre falling apart and she thought that if they had kids together they will stay together. I shut that idea down so fast and felt bad i almost made her cry. I dislike the used of using childern as some kind of leverage or hostage. Ive seen stuff like that happen before to friemds and family and it never ends well ruining so many lives in the process. The way she told me just got under my skin. Ahhh.... screaming red flags. I guess i have that trust worthy face or something. Idk why people keep asking me for advice. I wasnt able to finish my lunch in time.

Im really craving bbq. Its been awhile since i made some. But ive been so busy with school and what nots i dont have alot of free time. Im so focus on the craft. I just want to do well once i complete that i got my moneies worth. I rather have school be diffcult then at work.

I did find it. Well... the enterence at least. It was at the place like how they discribed it but with slang. With the help of

I realized alot of my outfits looks intimadating so i think ill dress up as a pesent clapping two cocanuts together. If i wasnt sick i would of 3d printed a whole knight armor set and roll in that. Hmmm i am bettet so maybe i can give it a shot. My writing seems to be off. I guess the side effects are still lingering. I guess while i was under my subconcuious ripped all the mental strings out so ive been pitting them back in. Its nothing bad or good just how the nature of life is. Except mine was a bit intense and at some parts a little scary. I was in a state 9f dreaming and awake. So it felt pretty real. Lucky its so much easier to reconnect with someone like family on a dalily bases so it didnt. Effect the family life. So people im close with it helps alot. I guess the strings are the emotions and that deep connection i have with certain people. Its a little tricky to reconnect but its doable just needs to take more effort. Im so glad my folks were able to take of me while i was recovering from an odd flu. Came at me like no other and slept alot. I have this odd craving for mushroom soup and cheese. Also cocanut water. Drank and at alot of soup.

Although i still feel like crap i must gather all my energy and go to school. I need to attend my lectures so im playing catch up. I dont want to lose my new chatacter for school becuase once i lose it. Ill lose everything. So i can ether grow with the chaos or abandon everything and start my new life throwing seeds and regrowing the forest from desasters.

Trying to tire out my mind. Been practicing my archery skills trying to shoot well without seeing. I can sense the air around me for disrubtions i just have a hard time not hitting them on the face even though im aimming at the chest. Im going to have to mentally aim for croach and hopfullly the arrow will hit chest. When i do hit them. I still miss alot with rapid fire. I cant really aim with it but i can hit around it.

I wish someone rub my chest and sing me to sleep. It doesnt have to sound good. Ill say its tge trying that counts.

Its always hard to rewire the brain especially if it effects me to my core. With consistancy, willpower and determination its possible. Trying to break a cycle ive been in for the longest time. Its years in the making. So trying to escape from it was hard. I know of i cross that path ill know that its time. To keep on movong. Till eventually something grabs my hand and hold me in my place. Forcing me to see into the lenses of their soul. Just taking a long pause and stare deeply into it.

I should take that leap. And see where it leads me. Into unknown places or better yet... unknown worlds.

That is very interesting how much things can really shift. In just a moment.

I learned that the armor i crafted for fun really did held together under the extreme preassure. I didnt feel a thing. Im so proud of myself

I dont know why im making blueprints for a wrist storage device. I wanna make it so when i do a certain gesture itll just pop out the container into my hands. So far ive created several mock ups. One has an option of being manual with rubber bands and springs and the other is more electeical. Dont know how durable they are so im also thinking of a material thats both light but durable and wont break the bank or posion me. I also need it to be compacted enough

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