𝙰𝙲𝚃 𝙸. 𝚛𝚎𝚋𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚑

Sometimes it seems like no matter what you do, people still see you the way they want to.

[conspiraecies-a]

SHED A TEAR FOR THE BACKSEAT OF YOUR CAR. FOUR WHEELS, CHEAP THRILLS, GETTING LOST IN THE SOUNDTRACK. // ind. priv. sel. multimuse. sideblog to @friendleft. penned by hales. 

[leaderheart]

JESSICA IS NOW LOCATED HERE.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

@leaderheart sent 👅

he loves doing this.

 fingers  tangle  in  justin’s  hair,  hips  rising  to  meet  his  touch.  she  loves  when  he’s  in  control.  she  practically  melts  under  his  touch,  moans  slipping  out  with  each  lick  and  thrust  of  fingers.  ❞  oh,  fuck.  ❞  she  whimpers,  so  turned  on  by  each  and  every  movement  of  his.  she  couldn't  help  but  think  that  they  were  perfect  together.  that  there  wasn't  anything  that  would  ever  feel  better  than  this.  ❞  i  love  you  so  much,  baby.  ❞

[rickybowen]

men may be stronger, but it is women who endure.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

    he shakes his head, not believing it for a second. he wants to laugh, but his face feels frozen. ❝ don’t fuck with me right now. ❞ he turns away from her, despite the fact he can’t even really see her right now. he doesn’t want to be seen like this. ❝ don’t even joke about that shit. ❞ she was on birth control – wasn’t she? she had been at one point. and they always used protection. right? his head is too foggy to remember any of this.

    he spreads his legs to balance his elbows on them. the longer it’s in his system, the more it feels like gravity is just pulling him down.

❝  i’m  not  fucking  with  you,  sunshine.  i’m  pregnant.  ❞  she  says,  and  part  of  her  wants  to  scream.  the  other  part  wants  to  wrap  herself  around  him  and  tell  him  that  they’re  going  to  get  through  this.  that  everything  will  be  fine  and  that  eventually  they’re  just  gonna  have  a  really  fucking  good  life  together.  she  isn’t  sure  when  that’s  going  to  come,  but  she  wanted  to  reassure  him  that  one  day  it  would.  and  yet,  she  couldn’t.  

❝  oh,  it’s  a  joke,  but  it’s  reality.  so  you  better  get  your  shit  together  because  i’m  not  doing  this  alone.  ❞  while  she’d  always  hoped  that  they’d  get  married,  settle  down,  and  eventually  have  a  family,  this  wasn’t  at  all  the  way  she  wanted  to  go  about  it.  she  just  wanted  to  wait  a  good  five  or  ten  years.  now  was  way  too  soon.  now  was  too  fucked  up.  everything  was  so  fucked  up.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

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 ❝  having  your  cock  in  my  mouth  wasn't  bad  enough  for  you?  ❞  she  asks,  lifting  an  eyebrow  as  she  whispers  against  his  ear.  she  grinds  against  him  again  and  then,  despite  not  wanting  to,  crawls  off  of  him  and  reclines  against  the  couch.  ❝  yes,  justin,  i  want  you  to  fuck  me.  i'm  all  yours.  ❞  she  says,  legs  falling  apart  as  she  runs  a  hand  down  her  bare  stomach.

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justfoley​:

    ❝ shut up! ❞ he snaps, hands shaking as he puts them in his lap. under normal circumstances he would NEVER tell her to shut up, would never raise his voice at her. but these are far from normal circumstances. 

    ❝ fucking christ, jess. do we have to do this? right now? the whole ‘do i really love you’ thing? it’s not that easy. every fuckin’ time. every fuckin’ time i do this you show up and i can’t even feel good. ❞ his voice is shaking along with his hands now. it feels wrong, talking to her like this. but with every ruined high he felt like he had to redo it. what was supposed to calm him down was only putting him more on edge. ❝ go. ❞

❝  maybe  you  don’t  then.  not  if  you  can’t  even  feel  good  with  me  around.  ❞  she  snaps,  clenching  her  jaw  so  that  she  doesn’t  start  to  cry.  she  isn’t  sure  how  much  of  this  version  of  justin  she  can  take.  it  hurts  to  watch  him  slowly  self-destruct.  to  watch  the  person  she  loves  the  most  in  the  world  slowly  kill  himself  with  drugs.  haven’t  they  been  through  enough  already?  she  just  wanted  to  get  to  the  part  where  they  were  happy  and  stable  and  content.  

❝    yeah,  we  have  to  do  this  right  now.  i  was  coming  over  to  tell  you  that  i’m  pregnant,  but  if  you  want  to  keep  fucking  getting  high,  then  i’ll  just  leave.  ❞  she  snaps  again,  and  this  time  she  lets  the  tears  begin  to  flow.    she  reaches  a  hand  up  to  wipe  at  the  tears,  a  hard  sniffle  following  suit.  she  didn't  want  to  go  home,  but  she  wasn't  sure  she  wanted  to  be  here  anymore.  ❝    and  before  you  say  something  stupid,  yes,  it's  yours.  ❞

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

@leaderheart​ said:     “ could you, for once, think about everyone you’re gonna leave behind when you finally get yourself killed? ”

    ❝ i’m not gonna get myself killed. ❞ there’s a laugh, a dry one. his head is nodding slowly, he’s using a fist to keep it held up. he wants to go off about how everyone would be better off, but he isn’t in the mood to argue. ❝ i know what i’m doing. ❞ he can’t really SEE jessica – he can’t see much of anything right now, everything is just sort of hazy. he blinks a few times in an attempt to clear it away, but it only makes things worse. how jessica always knew where to find him was beyond him.

    it’s getting annoying, if he’s being honest. he can’t enjoy a high for more than ten minutes before jess barges in. clay found him once or twice, but left when justin told him to. jessica wasn’t that easy. 

 lower  lip  wobbles.  it  hurts  to  see  him  like  this.  ❝  then  do  you  want  to  make  me  hate  you?  is  that  it?  the  drugs,  the  way  you  snap  at  me.  do  you  want  us  all  to  hate  you  so  you  can  just  get  high  and  eventually  get  yourself  killed?  ❞  she  asks,  her  face  hard  as  stone.  she’s  mad.  impossibly  so.  she  isn’t  sure  she’s  ever  been  this  mad  before,  but  she  feels  it  now.  

 ❝  because,  that’s  never  going  to  happen.  i  am  never  going  to  hate  you,  so  i’m  never  going  to  stop  begging  you  to  get  help.  fuck,  justin!  if  you  don’t  wanna  do  it  for  yourself  then  do  it  for  me.  do  it  because  you  love  me...  unless  that  isn’t  true  anymore.  ❞  she’s  trying  everything  she  can  to  get  him  to  respond,  but  deep  down  she  knows  that  she’s  not  going  to  get  the  response  she  wants  from  him.  ❝  do  it  for  us...  for...❞  she  swallows  hard,  shaking  her  head.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

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 she  loves  to  hear  how  good  she’s  making  him  feel.  it’s  a  turn-on  for  her  to  know  that  she  can  make  him  feel  that  way.  she  could  have  spent  all  day  just  pleasing  him,  taking  care  of  him,  but  when  he  pulls  her  up  to  him,  she’s  perfectly  content  to  stop.  to  let  him  take  control.  she  may  like  to  be  rough,  but  she’s  always  willing  to  let  him  slow  down  and  take  her  as  he  wants.    ❝  are  you  going  to  make  love  to  me,  justin  foley?  ❞  she  coos  into  his  ear,  nipping  at  his  earlobe  and  rolling  her  hips  against  his  impressive  length  before  pulling  away.  ❝  or  are  you  going  to  fuck  me  like  i'm  your  bad  girl?  ❞

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

    everything is becoming too much – school, work, college applications, clay’s mental health, his mental health. he’s been coming to her house a lot lately, just to take a break from everything at home. clay and his parents were constantly arguing. he felt like he was walking on eggshells a lot of the time.

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 she  just  wants  to  make  him  feel  good.  that’s  all  she’s  ever  wanted,  whether  it  be  emotionally  or  physically.  knowing  that  she's  making  him  feel  good  now  was  a  powerful  feeling.  head  lowers  again,  bobbing  on  his  length,  humming  delightedly  around  him.  she  loved  having  him  inside  her,  especially  when  she  could  illicit  such  a  response  from  him.  the  buck  of  his  hips,  the  soft  moans.  she  let  out  a  moan  of  her  own  against  his  hard  length,  the  feeling  of  him  in  her  mouth  a  turn-on.  knees  fell  apart  and  a  hand  drifted  down  lower,  under  the  hem  of  her  dress,  until  she  was  touching  herself  while  she  continued  to  pleasure  him.

[leaderheart]

closed starter for @justfoley

 it  had  been  a  long,  hard  day.  jess  could  tell  when  justin  walked  in  just  what  they  both  needed.  release.  she  was  on  him  before  the  door  had  even  shut,  hands  sliding  up  under  his  shirt,  guiding  him  to  the  couch.  she  had  his  pants  undone  and  slid  down  in  record  time,  kissing  his  stomach,  down  to  his  hips,  and  then  his  thighs,  leaving  tiny  love  bites  in  her  wake.  she  glances  up  at  him,  smirk  as  she  wraps  her  hand  around  his  length,  giving  him  a  sweet  smile  before  she  wraps  her  lips  around  him  and  begins  to  set  into  motion  a  few  bobs  of  the  head.  ❝  do  you  like  that?  ❞  she  asks,  pulling  away  just  long  enough  to  ask.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

    his heart is beating out of his chest as if it were his first time – it’d been a while, and the way jess had climbed onto him was driving him CRAZY.

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    he smirks at her as a finger is run over his lip. he’s already completely hard, not much needs to be done there. he drops his hands down, then brings them back up under her shirt so he can undo her bra straps. he does it in one smooth motion, something he’d done a few times before. he reaches behind his own back and pulls his shirt off, a cocky smile following. ❝ we can make quick happen. ❞

 she  wasn’t  necessarily  happy  about  having  to  make  things  quick.  when  she  was  with  justin,  she  wanted  to  savor  every  second.  she  didn’t  want  to  have  to  worry  about  whether  they  were  going  to  get  caught  or  not.  ❝  you’re  not  wasting  any  time,  huh?  ❞  she  teases,  but  pulls  her  shirt  off  over  her  head.  they  couldn’t  waste  any  time.  she  places  her  hands  on  the  sides  of  his  face  and  pulls  him  closer,  pressing  her  lips  to  his  and  kissing  him  deeply.  ❝  love  you.  ❞

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

    he’s hesitant for a moment, wondering if her dad is home, but a quick glance out the window is able to disprove that. she’s on his lap for all of two seconds before he starts getting hard, face flushing. the two had been together on and off for over two years and she STILL gave him butterflies. 

    head tilts backwards and eyes close as jess snuzzles his neck. hands wrap around her, traveling up her back to play with her hair. ❝ maybe both. ❞ he lets her drive, at least to start with. justin had always been a top – but when jess started experimenting, he was more than happy to switch things up. 

 jess  was  head  over  heels.  ❝  we  have  a  little  time.  my  parents  aren't  going  to  be  back  for  another  hour.  ❞  she  says,  fingers  brushing  over  the  hair  at  the  nape  of  his  neck.  it  wasn't  much  time,  but  it  was  better  than  nothing.  her  parents  had  been  hovering  lately,  and  she  was  so  sick  of  it.  she  just  wanted  to  spend  time  with  justin,  uninterrupted.  was  that  really  so  much  to  ask?  she  tried  not  to  smirk  when  she  felt  him  harden  beneath  her,  but  she  liked  knowing  she  could  turn  him  on.  

 ❝  which  means  there  won't  be  any  taking  our  time.  ❞  she  pulls  back  enough  to  look  at  him,  thumb  running  over  his  lower  lip  as  she  thought  about  the  best  course  of  action.

[leaderheart]

justfoley​:

    he returns the smile, trying to push away any negative thoughts. thoughts that he’d ruined her. it’s a conversation they’d had time and time again. he hadn’t always treated her right, and they both knew it. but she stuck by his side through almost everything. 

    they attempt to study together a lot, but it isn’t uncommon for them to get DISTRACTED by each other – socially or physically. ❝ someone’s being cheesy today. ❞ he teases, although he has no room to talk. ❝ i’d much rather be studying chemistry than studying chemistry. ❞

 ❝  i  could  probably  take  a  break.  you  know,  to  study  chemistry.  ❞  she  says,  winking  at  him.  this  was  the  trouble  with  studying  with  justin.  when  it  turned  from  real  studying  to  her  studying  every  inch  of  his  body.  she  shuts  her  chemistry  textbook  and  sets  it  aside.  she's  pretty  sure  she  isn't  going  to  need  it  again  tonight.  she  closes  what  little  space  is  between  them,  straddling  his  hips  and  wrapping  her  arms  loosely  around  his  neck.  

 ❝  what  did  you  want  to  study,  again?  physical  chemistry?  reactions?  ❞  she  asks,  head  tilting  down,  lips  pressing  to  his  neck,  soft  kisses  left  on  his  skin.

[leaderheart]

@justfoley said: ❛ i love how i can just look at you and be happy . ❜

 ❝  i  fucking  love  you,  justin  foley.  ❞  she's  grinning  as  she  glances  up  from  her  chemistry  textbook  to  look  at  him.  she  can't  help  it.  every  day  spent  with  him  feels  like  a  dream.  when  he  says  these  sweet  things  to  her,  she  feels  on  top  of  the  world.  what  could  go  wrong?  everything  was  perfectly  aligned.  she  was  happy.  she  was  content  to  just  be,  just  sitting  with  him  on  her  bed,  studying  for  upcoming  tests  and  being  together.  ❝  i'm  glad  i  make  you  happy,  because  you  make  me  the  happiest  i've  ever  been.  ❞

[leaderheart]

@bakedcookies said: ❛  i  love  everything  you  hate  about  yourself  .  ❜

 the  words  were  difficult  for  her  to  believe.  she  couldn't  believe  that  the  parts  of  her  she  hated  would  ever  be  loved  by  anyone.  not  herself,  her  parents,  certainly  not  charlie.  the  ugly,  raw  parts  of  herself  that  had  been  shattered  beyond  recognition.  the  parts  that  made  her  physically  ill.  how  could  anyone  ever  love  that?  eyes  begin  to  well  with  tears  as  she  takes  in  just  what  it  means  to  hear  those  words  from  him.  to  know  that  he  really  does  love  her.  she's  spent  so  much  time  trying  to  love  herself,  she  never  thought  about  anyone  else  loving  her.  but  it  felt  nice  to  be  loved.  safe  and  warm  and  comfortable.  like  she'd  just  been  wrapped  in  the  biggest  hug,  and  she  never  wanted  to  let  go.  ❝  charlie...  god,  i  love  you  so  much.  ❞

[amourmemes]

❥     𝐓𝐎  𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐒𝐄  𝐖𝐄  𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄  ,  𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒  𝐅𝐑𝐎𝐌  𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓  .

longing  /  endearing  one  -  liners  as  taken  from  the  website  pinterest  . customize  as  you  wish  !

❛  the  first  time  i  met  you  ,  i  had  no  damn  idea  i’d  love  you  this  much  .  ❜ ❛  i  wish  i  could  just  protect  you  from  everything  .  ❜ ❛  i  noticed  you  .  how  could  i  not  ?  ❜ ❛  i’ll  hold  your  hand  the  whole  way  through  ,  don’t  worry  .  ❜ ❛  i  want  you  .  so  much  .  you’re  all  i  fucking  think  about  .  ❜ ❛  you  are  made  of  comets  and  stars  .  do  not  let  anyone  treat  you  as  if  you  are  dirt  and  dust  .  ❜ ❛  i  love  how  i  can  just  look  at  you  and  be  happy  .  ❜ ❛  i  woke  up  and  the  first  thing  i  wanted  was  you  .  ❜ ❛  i  love  everything  you  hate  about  yourself  .  ❜ ❛  pinky  -  promise  me  you  won’t  leave  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  always  tired  but  never  of  you  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  it  ,  you’re  my  person  .  ❜ ❛  you  are  the  peace  i  crave  in  this  chaotic  world  .  ❜ ❛  now  i  wish  we  never  met  because  you’re  too  hard  to  forget  .  ❜ ❛  i’d  pick  your  thunder  ,  i’d  pick  your  rain  ;  over  anyone’s  sunshine  any  day  .  ❜ ❛  you  steady  me  and  stir  me  all  at  once  .  ❜ ❛  and  then  i  knew  that  i  could  become  homesick  for  you  too  .  ❜ ❛  i  just  want  to  spend  forever  getting  high  off  what  it  feels  like  to  be  around  you  .  ❜ ❛  you’ve  got  something  they  don’t  .  ❜ ❛  what  a  plot  twist  you  were  .  ❜ ❛  i  told  the  stars  about  you  .  ❜ ❛  stay  .  i  need  you  more  than  you  think  .  ❜ ❛  you  still  feel  like  home  .  ❜ ❛  come  over  here  and  make  my  clothes  smell  like  you  again  .  ❜ ❛  i  want  to  kiss  you  and  it  kills  me  .  ❜

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@bakedcookies said: “  I  was  this  close  to  buying  a  puppy  today.  ”

 she  frowns,  face  contorting  into  a  grimace.  ❝  why  didn't  you,  then?  puppy  snuggles  are  the  best.  i  could  go  for  a  puppy  snuggle  right  now.  ❞  now,  her  mind  is  filled  with  images  of  puppies  with  wagging  tails  and  wet  little  noses,  and  all  she  wants  is  to  cuddle  with  one.  she'd  always  been  told  animals  were  great  for  emotional  support,  but  it  wasn't  until  she  couldn't  snuggle  one  that  she  realized  just  how  true  that  was.  she  picks  up  the  stuffed  teddy  bear  that  always  sits  on  her  pillow  and  wraps  her  arms  around  it,  longing  to  cuddle  something  soft.