Get it Together

[52hearts]

I miss you something awful sometimes, but in general I go on living with all the energy I can muster.

Haruki Murakami, (Norwegian Wood)

[w0w---l0vely]

[leavesbeforesheisleft]

I realize I am overreacting but being left alone with my thoughts is never a very healthy situation. Maybe I am clingy? Maybe I've just gotten so used to significant others being clingy and wanting to talk to me constantly that this is weird. Maybe he doesn't actually like me at all. 

I am very confused and I do not know what to do.

[mylastlastchance-deactivated201]

i am not saying that i want to kill myself. because i dont. i could never do that to my family. it’s just sometimes i wish that i never existed in the first place.

my thoughts when i am sad.  (via mylastlastchance)

[leavesbeforesheisleft]

I need to find new ways to distract myself because I am going insane being alone so much. It's become clear that people like me can drop off the face of the planet and no one would give a flying fuck. I try to care for other people and be that person that is always there for them but no one is ever there for me, and anytime it seems like they are I get ignored in a few days.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing or where I'm going

I don't know why people I thought were friends can't stand to be around me

I don't know a god damn thing, it seems, but I wish I did.

[staypozitive]

[ladyofthe-sun]

From 18 to 22 you meet a lot of temporary people.

(via danger)

[purplebuddhaproject]

If flowers can teach themselves how to bloom after winter passes, so can you.

Noor Shirazie (via blueklectic)

[5000letters]

I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I can detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice, and suddenly I’m spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong.

Humans of New York; Amman, Jordan (via c-isnenegro)

[shark-attaks]

[inner]

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

[wordsnquotes]

And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter— they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath (via wordsnquotes)

[naked--thoughts]

My pride is stronger than my feelings. Don’t try to play me. I could think of you 24/7 and you still wouldn’t hear from me.

(via thisdorkjessica)

[orupting]

Hey pal, people who treat you like shit and leave you don’t deserve to come back into your life. They don’t deserve you and you don’t deserve to be used like that. Please keep that in mind.

[leavesbeforesheisleft]

Stop putting all of your hope into one thing or person! Do NOT become fixated on them because you are building yourself up to be let down every single time.

This could be a complete overreaction but it's a good lesson. You do this to yourself every time, you get your hopes up and they are always crushed because the world is not made for overly trusting and hopeful people like you. It is made for the cold and the emotionless who know what they want and aren't afraid to take it. 

Get yourself together you are a fucking mess.

You will get through this and when you do, focus on yourself. No one else will take care of you, no one wants to deal with it. Being cynical is a good thing, don't let anyone tell you different. it is realistic and you need to be realistic right about now. Fuck emotions and drop them right away because you don't need them. You need to get back to your many goals and you need to be in a better mental place before you start focusing on boys that want nothing to do with you.