SUSIE

Seek more of God's sovereignty in all things. Philippians 4:6 ˘◡˘✿

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taehyung’s reaction when he is fixing his zipper and the host said they were live at youtube 😆

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I love long car rides.

And fun company makes it better. :’)

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Repentance is the path, it’s the GPS. It’s the road to His grace, His love, and His power because your sin has fallen on Christ. When we confess our sins, Christ takes it away and we are restored to the throne of grace. Confessing is the most positive thing that you can do because then you can be in the presence of the father who comforts you. Why is it important? Because there’s a process. Just like there’s a train of thoughts that leads to sin, there’s a train of thoughts that leads to grace. On the track of the cross and heaven, the throne of the love of our God the father, there’s a path. There’s the stop of seeing your old self, and the stop of confessing your sins which leads to the track of forgiveness and restoration.

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First season of doing BIFF (Bowling Is Freaking Fun!) Thanks for a short season of bowling, ma tall teammates! 

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What A Beautiful Name - Hillsong Worship

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this gets me every. single. time.

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Recent reminders of community! We had a Post-Undergrad Retreat at church the first weekend of spring break, and honestly- my heart was just SO hardened, that I actually didn’t want to go. I was looking forward to it, but I was doubtful if God would be able to do anything within me. But it was so. freaking. good for my heart. 

I think I’ve actually been suppressing so much of how discouraged I’ve been recently - how much I was struggling to find my place in community, how lost I felt, how purposeless I felt, and how I felt like God had forgotten about me.

Here are just some of my takeaways~

The deeper the Gospel goes in, the wider it will spread out.

We often “high think” of ourselves by comparing and building our own establishment through other people’s opinions- this is unsustainable! The way we sober think shows the standard of what we believe God sees us as - confidently humble and humbly confident.

There is a difference between the fruits of the Spirit and gifts of the Spirit.

Gospel character > Gospel gifts.

It’s easier to work FOR Jesus than to simply WALK besides Him.

Grace based freedom shows itself in love.

Freedom is not just the absence of restriction, but the presence of the right restrictions that fits its own nature.

The Gospel empowers us to free ourselves from the desire of other desires.

Other than the fire messages, PUR was also just a good time for me to pray and worship on my knees. Literally.. I’m starting to truly believe that prayer is a game changer in every way possible!! And that’s something I’m so thankful CFC has been showing me. I realized that there are actually SO many people fighting for me in prayer.. cries.

So don’t lose heart, Susie! Keep abiding in the One that promised you the greatest treasure when you chose to follow Him in this hard, hard season. Keep choosing to see the work He’s doing in you right now rather than the circumstantial things you keep focusing on because He is slowly, but surely forming you.

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i think that it is God’s sovereignty that..

I have two friends here at my church (CFC) in Champaign that will be going to Hong Kong and Singapore for a study abroad program this summer, and they have open & willing hearts to check out the HMCC church sites in both countries!! Praying that they would be able to find God’s provision and love through these communities and unfamiliar places that are both so culturally differently from CFC and Champaign.

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A song of repentance for the tyranny of the urgent.

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two things: a sovereign reminder & reasons to be thankful even when i’m stressed AF : )

1:  The Gospel is never “Jesus and _____.”

It’s only Jesus.

When it comes to my faith, may I let go of everything that is not You.

2: Grad school is getting real stressful -  but here are just random snippets that have made me happy and reminded me of His grace and love over me.

had panch for the first time not in AA with some 5th year goons~

when we thought this had 4 shots of espresso but it’s actually just one

lost some dignity taking this photo. but worth

ok i promise i have more than one friend... but she’s awesome!!

NK fam :’)

JJ delivery is only 75 cents.. welp.

learned on this day that this girl has a really sensitive stomach. LOOOOL :’)

cotton candy skies on the way to MP. :’)

i was too shy to ask my pastor for a selfie on our first meetup, so here is a picture of where we sat during a very encouraging and intuitive 3 hour meetup. EL OH EL 

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only me..

A kind member in my small group offered to print something I needed for class because he had a printer at his apartment. (U of I does not give printing money to students aka another reason to say go blue)

I didn’t check how long the document was until later that day, and realized IT WAS 166 PAGES!!! And this member didn’t even say anything and told me he was “kinda shook but didn’t want to be rude” 😭😭

This reminded me of God’s grace and love PAHA.

And now I need to go buy some paper and ink for dis poor soul... and maybe even Kung Fu Tea for life.

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“No tree becomes rooted and sturdy unless many a wind assails it. For by its very tossing it tightens its grip and plants its roots more securely; the fragile trees are those that have grown in a sunny valley.”

All of us want a perfect growing environment for ourselves. We strive to avoid the times of tension when life’s daily challenges push against us. We blame these temporary trials for the decline or fixed state of our spiritual growth.

Trees sway gracefully when wind blows against it. It doesn’t push back- rather, it accepts the strong wind as a blessing that helps them to grow. 

These events develop our character and deepens our spiritual roots. When we grow deep, we too stand tall.

When we struggle with the mundaneness of life, apathy, lack of motivation, God is using this season to make us grow stronger!!

Remember this, Susie, during the strong winds to come this year - God is for you. God will use you.

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The Lord is truly in this place.

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Feed our hearts with grace. Wash it with gratitude.

P. Min 

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[11.3 & 11.4]

- Weddings are the best excuse to get dressed up and take pictures in the most beautiful city & venue. Side note- if me & my mom already cry at other people’s weddings, what are we gonna do at mine?! (problem for later..) - Reunion with Jiyeon, one of my favorite unni’s in the world! I love your vulnerability, your strong heart, your killer fashion sense, and how we can pick up our conversations right where we left off 8 months ago in NYC! (👏🏻 to technology)

Heart is full~

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The Beauty of FaceTime.

I wish there wasn’t a photo limit on Tumblr.. but here’s to some of the people who have kept me amused over the course of my transition here!

~ But real MPV be Moochen (who I forgot to take a screenshot of TT) who willingly accepted to see the bloody inside of my cheek after I bit it while eating spicy rice cakes once. :’)

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And again, “I will put my trust in him.” And again, “Behold, I and the children God has given me.”

Hebrews 2:13 

How much better is it to trust in the Builder than in the building?

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There is a time for everything, a season for every activity under the heavens.