Right Now - Harry Styles
A.N. Basically I had lost passion to write on here. Iâve found it again. School is my own personal hell right about now so I had some feelings to share and we all need something to distract us. I guess I can write for the tough times. But donât get me wrong, I appreciate you guys for sticking around more than youâll ever know. I love you all and thank each and every one of you. But I still didnât fucking edit it... c: xoxo
Word Count - 2864
âYou look terribly sad. Are you without a doubt sure, there is nothing wrong and that there is nothing I can do for you?â Six years ago I didnât think that I would be where I am today. âEver since you opened that email, your smile has looked like someone bit your ass.â With a terribly honest, infatuating fiance that doesnât let anything slide? No, I guess I didnât think six years ago I would be where I am at this minute.
âI just canât stop thinking, itâs a recurring thing you know.â
âYeah, I understand. You sort of have to think about everything and every little detail before you can even respond.â It doesnât hurt that he knows me from the inside out. Itâs just at times I wish he didnât know how to take the words right out of my mouth.
âThanks for making that clear, Iâm sure it wasnât before.â
Harry shrugged, sort-of half smiling. âDonât go if you donât want to. Itâs not like you owe them anything. If anything from all of those journals youâve poured your heart out to and from all the things - events - youâve told me about...It sounds to me that they owe you a new high school experience.
Trust me Harry might sound like he knows what heâs talking about but his chances right now are thin as a sheet. Harry never finished high school which doesnât bug me one bit unless it interferes later on (which is a totally different topic). Anyways, he might have been told by myself, stories about that wretched school and those throat wrenching people, but he never experienced a bit of it. It was my own personal hell. Sounds pretty terrible eh? Thatâs what everyone says about high school eh? I should be happy I got an education eh? Happy I even knew what being apart of something was like, eh?
Well, fuck no. Those people treated me like pure shit - sometimes I wasnât even there, when I clearly had a beating heart and pumping lungs. I did everything in my power not to cut all those little pricks to pieces. Sweet as can be, doing everything I could for whoever came along. I never made anything about myself but if I did, I was automatically a horrible person. Wow, lie all your issued on moi but non non non, I canât even say my day is going badly. Day after day, class after class, person after person - it was all the same. Freshmen year, sophomore year, senior year - all the same.
Imagine being treated like that no matter how much you helped people, tried to make things easier for them, be there for them even when they didnât know you were there. âDonât take anything for granted {Y/N} youâll feel spoiled and youâll look back on it all and beat yourself up about it.â So I didnât, I thought about how much I had. How grateful I was to be graced with every inch I had and was given. Then people began taking me for granted, using me and not even bothering to say, âThanks.â (Even though I find that people who donât want to say âthank youâ say âthanksâ to be rude, but well, whatever.) I didnât do things to be told âthank you,â it was sort of a given I never heard.
You know this one time I helped someone over the phone, on a Saturday with their homework. For hours until they understood how to do it. They didnât even say thank you, they just responded and hung up with, âhope this is even right.â I hope you fucking failed you fake, basic, bitch. That wasnât even the purgatory of high school. But here I am, one of those dumb fucks that still hung up on high schoolâŚ
â{Y/N}?â Harry was no standing in next to me, his ass nearly against my desk. âPlease let me do something.â
I looked up at him with sad, hollow eyes. âThere isnât anything you can do. I just need to stop thinking about it.â First I allowed myself delete the email, then going into deleted and âforever deletingâ it. I took a deep breath, feeling his presence clouding me peacefully.
I had moved here, to London the first damn chance I had. When I was a sophomore, I made the effort to go ahead and look at colleges in England. Then looking at scholarships I could receive to go to one of those colleges. Then figured out my expenses, where I would live after the dorms. Iâm telling you I figured, everything out till there was nothing left to worry about.
Harry was the kind of man I wanted in high school. Someone who actually wanted to be here. Wasnât going to be different around his friends. You know, not the basic shit women look for in men. My life had been awful no matter how much I thought about how grateful I was - well because I fucking was. Despite that, I felt happy in college and dating someone who wanted to be here. I felt as if I could finally have one or two things actually be about me.
âIt would help if you answered me.â Harry stood up completely straight not hardly looking down at me.
âWhat do you want me to answer with?â I raised an eyebrow but held an apologetic smile.
âAre you alright, baby?â Harryâs hand was on my hip, his rings rubbing against the jeans I wore. âI canât help but worry about you my love.â âThereâs nothing to worry about. Itâs all behind me.â I bit my lip thinking of how much I worried that high school would follow me forever. That dumb, fucking reunion invitation was the last thing I ever wanted to see - apart from any one person from then.
I removed my silk-esk robe, looking at my own self in the mirror. Harry came into the bedroom, still with that look of worry in his expression. âYou know, Iâve sort of figured out how to tell if youâre alright or notâŚâ
âIâve noticed.â I turned to him, watching him undress as I was. I removed my bra with two quick movements. His shirt hit the hamper without a single noise. I tried to stop thinking about my old life troubles and focused on Harry.
When he took a deep breath, his chest rose and fell beautifully. I must have said something I donât recall because he answered. âI know.â His lips were this dark pink color that any woman would die for their lips to be pigmented. I saw the tattoos every single day but I only sometimes paid attention to them. Tonight I especially looked at them, seeing the different values of his muscles and creases. âYou might as well be talking dirty to me.â As I like to call it - Harryâs, seducing voice rung in my ears for hours beyond.
I shimmied out of my underwear and placed them with my bra. Resting my hand on my hip I kept watching him. He tugged his jeans off after his boots and threw those into the hamper, the sound of the buttons clanking against the hamper heard. Then he just smirk-smiled at me. We stayed put for a minute or two until he came over to me.
âItâs funny how little things that you share with your fiance make you the happiest.â
âWhat might that be youâre referring to?â He cupped my face, kissing me and pressing his body as close as possible to mine.
âWe both sleep naked.â He shrugged, âit sounds dumb but it makes me happy.â he kissed me again, so I kissed him. I put my thumbs on the inner rim of his boxers, my hands resting on the small area of his back. âAre you happy?â He was referring to what I got all worked up over earlier.
I sucked in a deep breath and rested my head on his chest, just below his jawline. âI canât complain.â I said muffled by his satin-textured skin. I kissed his jaw and leaned my head back so I could look into his eyes. Harry only smiled more, the corners of his lips letting me know he was happy himself. We stayed like this for a good ten minutes, kissing each other as the final remnants of the sunset faded into a blue-black color.Â
âCâmere you should just sleep since your mind isnât so clear.â Harryâs mood fluctuates as the day go one yet he still manages to worry about me before anyone else. Even if it is about a silly little thing from six years ago.
Harry climbed into bed as I turned all of the lights off. He took off his boxers and threw them into the hamper, nearly missing the hamper from the bed. I slid under the covers after all of the lights were turned off and there was silence. I sighed, hearing the air conditioning. The peace and quiet was nice, done thinking at the least for one day.
âAre you still awake?â Harry pressed the front half of his heated body to the back of mine. I didnât respond the first time, only letting myself indulge in lying her, with him pressed against me. âLove?â He moved my hair so his wet, sweet-tasting lips could chafe against my neck.
âNearly asleep.â I whispered, as if a rock were in my throat. His hand smoothed itâs way over my hips, his palm resting on the bed between my bent knees and breasts. I felt his lips begin sucking on my jawline and the ends of his hair just lightly touching my skin. Harry pulled my hips into his and a soft, sublime groan left his mouth.
I whimpered, the only sound to my ears were coming from his mouth, his throat. I felt the kneading of his hand on my skin, I didnât have any words to accompany the feeling. He lifted one of my knees and I rested it behind his legs. His hand rubbing my skin back and forth sweetly - slowly but it felt like it was happening all, too, fast. Then I managed to turn over onto my back, looking up at the ceiling to only see what I expected, darkness.
âAh.â I whispered again, âHarry.â Harry moved closer to me but finally touched our lips together deeply. I couldnât see him but I kept feeling his lips against mine, kiss after kiss. I placed my hand on the side of his head, massaging my hand in his hair. His hand was still brushing over my skin near my cunt. I rubbed my foot against his leg, hearing so many noises from his throat and mouth.
Breath after breath I took I couldnât speak, not a word. I turned even more so that I could cup his face myself and lean on my elbow, my other elbow leaning against his arm. I sloppily smashed my lips against his and his nose pressing against my cheek. His cold rings touched my cilt and the slightest shiver came over me. Harry slid his tongue into my mouth and sucked on my lips. I brought my leg up around to his torso and climbed atop of him.
âDid I happen to mention, I too love that we both, sleep naked?â I whispered, having to allow myself to take a breath. A throaty moan leaving the man below meâs lips.
âIt was a given.â He growled, pulling at both of my thighs. âYouâre so irresistible.â He mouthed in the darkness I could see. My eyes had grown accustomed to the darkness, being able to see most features of Harry. See his chest rise as he laughed, grabbing my ass cheeks and squeezing.
âIâm irresistible for you baby - only you.â I smirked, letting out a small, short laugh. I straightened my back hearing my back crack a little. I began kissing his neck, behind his ear and combing my fingers through his silky hair. I felt him grab something beside him after one of his hands from my ass.
I heard a few cars go by on the road and the pitter-patter of rain against the windows. I lifted my hips from his body and made my way down to his thighs and tapped my nails down his thigh. â{Y/N}. He whispered, that sound of unsurety in his tone.
âYes?â I nearly scoffed.
âNot tonight.â
âWhy not? You suddenly shy or something-â
Harry leaned up abruptly and whispered in my ear. âI havenât stopped thinking about you in the dirtiest of ways since you took off that robe. I donât want you to suck me off no matter how bloody good it may feel⌠I need to be inside you, on top of you rather right this second.â I hummed nearly through it all.
I complied, rolling back over onto my back and feeling his soft hand drag up my body. He took one of my legs and swung it around my back and as he sat up - all of his hair fell down on his shoulders. I was propped up on my elbows watching him gain his dominance and confidence in the darkness. I only heard our breathing for a minute or two⌠Harry pulling my legs towards him so that I would be lying flat on my back. It sort of made me giggle, feeling him climb on top of me without a single trouble.
His cock was at my entrance but he nipped at my bottom lip in one motion, just looking into my eyes. He wasnât asking for permission or anything. Harry needed something out of this besides a sweaty fiance and a blood boiling orgasm. He wanted to feel close and heâs told me once or twice that a blowjob doesnât seem that close, ironic isnât it.
âWell.â I hissed, sounded a tad fed up and eager. I laid on my back wondering what this gorgeous man was thinking of doing. I held my eyes wide open, watching his minimal movements. He pressed his body down against me, once more leaving no room between us. My leg was wrapped around his lower back and my other one straight and tangled in the sheets.
âI thought you knew of a thing called patience? Am I mistaking you with someone else?â Harryâs smirk was wide and bright - eating away at me. He rested one hand beside my head and then the other pulling my leg up and it now hanging over the bend in his bent arm.
Harry slipped into me without an ounce of effort. I opened my mouth but no noise left my lips. He didnât move, waiting to see a look of reassurance to move. I ran my hand through his hair and tugged, taking a fist full. The rain stopped and I barely noticed, hearing small moans and whimpers. He moved with a hard thrust, a rough rock of his hips into mine.
Harry pushed his whole body towards me, my thigh leaning back into my chest painlessly. He shoved his cock all the way in and then pulled all the way out to the rim - over and over and - over. Six years ago I never would have thought that Iâd be so in love with someone enough to orgasm just from their voice.
I rested my head against my pillow, right up against the headboard. Each thrust he made came with a deep moan that made my eyes roll back in my head. His free hand grabbed my ass, kneading and sucking on my lips fervently. I let go of his hair feeling thrust after thrust, I could barely speak. I grasped at his back, my nails lightly scraping against his tanish toned skin.
âAh, fuck, fuck.â Harryâs freshly wet lips ran over my ear and then left wet traces over my jaw. âFuck, love.â He kissed me but the pressure of his lips was more intense than the other kisses.
âOh.â I began really letting myself go and giving into Harryâs touch and - âoh bay-by.â I moaned, looking up towards the ceiling. It felt as if his hand was leaving a print where he was holding my leg up. I felt a pulsing all through my body and I wasnât sure if I was going to come or sneeze⌠Harry dug his cock into me deeply for minutes. I could feel him pulsing and the come rushing into me. I gasped, having no words. I laid there still with him on top of me, slowly and softly running my fingers through his hair. The feel of his hair was sort of putting me into this mood where I kept telling myself how tired I was.
âI love you.â I told him, louder than a whisper.
âI know.â Harry chuckled, pulling out and pulling me into his grasp again - my back to his front. âI love you too.â He squeezed me.Â
âI really fucking love sleeping naked.â He whispered after a short while. I didnât respond, I only let him hum a bit as my lifeless response. âItâs bloody fantastic.âÂ

















