I was just leaving.

"Like a twister I was born to walk alone." ~Whitesnake + eight-year-old me.

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Dad is still holding pretty strong.

He hasn’t been out of bed for nearly a month.

He’s not eating, so he doesn’t need to get up to use the bathroom.

He’s always been a freak of nature so I think he could live for months on wintergreen live savers and popsicles.

We’ve been working on the most epic playlist ever. Dad has about 4K songs his music library so we’ve been whittling down to his “favorites”. We’re going alphabetically by artist. We’ve been at it for weeks and are in the S’s with about 1200 songs 😆

It’s been bringing both of us a lot of joy (and tears) during this incredibly challenging time and will leave me with something to feel close to him when he’s gone.

I have been out on FMLA and tried to go back this week because like I said, who knows how long he could hang on?!

But I was an emotional wreck and so I’m back on leave. My kids have been crazy all year and now they have spring fever and people don’t hold them accountable for their behavior and I do not have the mental capacity to manage that right now. I have enough PTO to get me mostly to the end of the year. I might need to take a few days without pay but I can handle that. I cannot handle missing this precious time with him.

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My “emergency snack” drawer has never been so full 😂 I’ll take unhealthy coping mechanisms for $500 please

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My Dad wrote this recently. Wise words from someone who knew he was entering his final stage of life 💔

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We started my Dad on hospice care yesterday .

For years he has struggled with emphysema and COPD.

He and my stepmom have barely left the house since Covid. I’m sad that he was robbed of so much during the last years of his life and had to deal with so much anxiety because of it.

I was supposed to return to work today after spring break but I’m going to see if I can get FMLA.

Family is flying in today to say their goodbyes.

My mom died at 46 of lung cancer. I was 25. I was at her bedside for about a month.

Lost my Grammie, who I was very close to, 6 years ago. Honestly I haven’t been the same since. I was at her bedside for about a month.

My Dad is 65. I’m 43. I’m now at his bedside.

I’d say you’re lucky if you’ve never had to be at someone’s bedside as they leave this world, but I know that I’m lucky for having had them in my life.

My world will not be the same without him 💔

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I’ve been meaning to post about many things but for now here’s this awesome pic from such a fun night out in WeHo, LA at the Rupaul’s Drag Race viewing party at Heart WeHo with Loosey LaDuca!!

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Best part of my day

One of my students is in a wheelchair and today he was missing class for physical therapy. Well, he came by to show me the new equipment that he got that was supporting him so that he could walk. Before I knew it my whole class was at the door and they were all encouraging and cheering him on. It was so sweet and wholesome 💗🥹

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Done with my 2nd course, 6 credits in on my masters, gonna celebrate!

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Do other people regularly feel the need to crack their ears or is that just a me thing??

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I wore my best outfit to a date and then before date #2 he said “I’m coming like you: CASUAL”

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Are you a Gold Star lesbian? (Just in case you don't know what it means, a Gold Star lesbian is a lesbian that has never had the sex with a guy and would never have any intentions of ever doing so)

Thanks for mansplaining a lesbo term for me!

I think my naturally born spawn automatically disqualifies me from the ⭐️

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Alison Krauss & Robert Plant

Saw them last night at the Camden Waterfront Pavilion and they were ahhhhmazing!!! Such a dynamic duo. I had lowered my expectations because I don’t love their new album they way I did the first, BUT as often happens those songs I wasn’t a huge fan of sounded great live. So many of their songs and both of their voices just grab you and pull you in. They also did a few Zeppelin songs which was fucking awesome!!!

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tickets to the rock show

I don’t listen to any of the bands but Disturbed is headlining and the tickets were only $25 so I bought a pair and figured I’d bring a friend but the problem is I only have a few and none are into that type of music and neither am I so I can’t really sell it AND there’s a goddamn heat advisory already so I decided to hit the beach instead and maybe I’ll still hit up the show after dark just to bang my head a little

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I just locked myself out of the house and had to McGyver my way back in.

I have an electric lock with a code. I only went on the porch to eat my dinner and the battery was not even fully dead but it wouldn’t let me back in. The stained glass is screwed into the window frame and as you can see doesn’t allow for much room. Some neighbors came by and offered to have their small child try to fit but the poor little guy couldn’t do it. So then I asked another neighbor for a wire hanger and was able to use it to reach through and grab my keys with it!! Couldn’t believe I did it!

Now to change that battery.

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I’m soaking off my gel polish so I was binging this Japanese show called Old Enough where they get toddlers to run errands it’s really cute but also some made me cry and episode seven made me choke on my tears

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This is my screen saver for the week while I’m on spring break (I think snagged it from here) and last night I dreamt of eating pussy. At least I’m manifesting shit in my subconscious.

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The gala ended up being a really great night. The venue was beautiful, the food was delicious, there was an open top shelf bar and we took full advantage. The moment the performances and ceremonies were over, people swarmed the dance floor. We shut it down!

I'm pretty sure we made our Uber driver's night because my girl K was showing us her $125 bra and had her titties out and I was fondling them. They felt amazing.

Then we came back to my place, smoked a joint and the next thing I knew my titties were out too. During the pandemic while we were teaching from home, I got my breast reduction and K had an augmentation and now we're close to the same size but obviously look very different. Hers look and feel amazing. It was nice to feel some titties--it's been a while! Both friends gave rave reviews of mine too. My scarring is pretty bad because I had an allergic reaction, but I'm still really glad I did it and they feel pretty fucking wonderful.

Anyways, I have slept a ridiculous amount this weekend and my body is so unreasonably sore. Being old sucks.

4 days until spring break!

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Will I be ready in time??