i like this bridge

preserving this silly little blog for future me

[legilimns]

huge if true

Fostering a cat for my sister feels like a big step in healing the catastrophic “fail” that was trying to adopt a cat years ago. I thought i was ready at the time but was smacked in the face by all the things i still didn’t know about myself and how not-over some of the things i was going through i was. My views on myself, the world, and my circumstances have change immeasurably and i am so thankful for it!!! Maybe things would have turned out differently if i had ended up with an adult cat vs a kitten, but maybe that never could’ve happened since i clearly wasn’t ready to stay true to myself when i was at the shelter. A necessary lesson initiated then, then wrapped up with the end of dating someone for 6th months that i clearly wasn’t compatible with.

there are horrible things going on in the world and it’s difficult to predict how the future may look for myself and my loved ones. how can i make sure im actually living life. what im doing right now is life, right? Am i just waiting for catastrophe? What level of security would be enough for me to just enjoy? A comment in a reddit post of someone worrying about not having enough savings after a few emergencies said “your savings is working as intended” and that def gave me a new perspective on some money stress i’ve been having. be responsible and plan for future goals but make sure i am still enjoying the present. Still working on it, but maybe that means fuck it, get the cat if you know you can care for it. We’ll see how this foster pans out, hopefully it brings me so much joy i feel confidant enough to adopt my own cat!

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While washing the dishes from the cinnamon coffee syrup i made today I thought, maybe this is what hobbies and interests looks like. i didnt pick up making coffee and trying different recipes because a list of “10 hobbies to pick up in your 20s” recommended it to me. I started drinking coffee and that naturally led to an increased interests in more parts of the process. So much time hung up on not doing any of my hobbies for fun these days not even realizing i’m literally actively exploring and trying new things.

++ my bf is still the best, im excited for our life together :)

[legilimns]

teenage me would be so upset to know anyone irl read these posts

but i am soooo glad to have bits of my younger self preserved online somewhere I can look back on as i grow older. i've tried writing in physical books, ipad journals, and recording videos but this is really the only outlet i've ever really looked back on.

the first time i finally uncovered this place I was mostly saddened by how much i was struggling as a kid. now i'm thankful to be able to look back at all these breadcrumbs and connect them to all the things i've learned about myself. every year it swear i know everything there is to know about who i am and what i've experienced but what a treat to continue learning, growing, and discovering. ALSO especially thankful to see I was literally just a teenager too!!!!!! it wasn't all terrible times, I also really enjoyed being a cringy (endearingly) teen obsessed with music, tv, pop culture, whatever !!!!!! i was not a white teeth teen fr!!! lmao. I guess i never went on family trips, played a sport, learned an instrument or gone to a party, whatever but i do love the unique experience of growing up on tumblr when i did and in the space i was in.

right now it feels like my life almost in equilibrium. things are kinda changing in a slow and balanced pace both positively and negatively. i'm in a relationship with someone i think is literally my soulmate but the world around us seems to be in a tailspin straight to hell (the rise of anti-intellectualism and falling empathy is kinda my personal hell anyway tbf). the possibility of my family unit healing and having a safe happy home we own is a very real possibility, but worrying about parents health and their livelihoods being at risk especially under this administration and living situation they're in keeps me on edge. i really hope we're able to fulfill a happily ever after, after all the bs we've gone through. I'm living in my own apartment that is a total reflection of myself and my success (bc yes graduating and having a career that pays for this IS a success!!), buuuutttt ADHD is kicking my ass. OR maybe it's just the corporate world slowly chipping away at me (i fear its both). i do believe i have more to be grateful for, it's just a work in progress trying to get my nervous system to feel it too :,)

[legilimns]

uvb benefits am i right

[swottydoodler]

More reversed! AU

Summary: Draco Malfoy is a nepo-baby muggle-born who was raised to believe that magic was unnatural and that the people of the wizarding world were nothing but dangerous and vile creatures. He eventually gets sent to Hogwarts to learn how to control his powers and gets sorted into Gryffindor. There, he befriends Harry Potter, Ron Weasley, and Pansy Parkinson.

Outside of his affiliation, he meets Pureblood-swot Hermione of the noble house of Granger, who, more or less has taken a liking to him in a way he had not expected.

[selinas-deactivated20251210]

RHAENYRA & DAEMON TARGARYEN King of the Narrow Sea S01E04 | The Lord of the Tides S01E08 HOUSE OF THE DRAGON (2022-)

[legilimns]

wtf i logged in to talk about my silly little life and my acc had posted a bunch of spam???? how does that even happen with no notif 😩

[folkoftheairfanart]

If you haven’t seen it yet, here it is! The first piece of fanart for Holly Black’s upcoming Elfhame book, The Stolen Heir! It’s a commission by the incredible Magdalena Pągowska. Our baby Oak is all grown up!!

Also here’s the link to the announcement on instagram for anyone out of the loop

[tehtariks]

“Did I know - in my heart of hearts - what Gellert Grindelwald was? I think I did, but I closed my eyes.” | FANTASTIC BEASTS: THE SECRETS OF DUMBLEDORE

[4straeusx]

HOWL’S MOVING CASTLE (2004) 

dir. Hayao Miyazaki

The smile that trembles deep behind your tears, is the promise of the world since the beginning of time.

[notyorqia]

Study date 🌙🌿

[legilimns]

i’ve spent so long trying to find this blog then even longer trying to remember the login info 🥲

id say i’m talking to the void rn but i’ve come back to read my personal text posts from when i was younger a lot so hello future me :) i’ll try to properly blog about my life and reblog things that i’m into so i can look back at it all in the future. for now, here’s a mind dump:

I worried so much about my future and career in my old posts. there was even one where I was so excited my mom agreed to let me go to community college and go straight to working at whatever place would hire me and I'm endlessly thankful I didn't do that lol. I’m turning 25 this year and have a career that I enjoy that I think I’m doing pretty alright at :) 

there were also lots of posts of me being in the thick of it with my parents, particularly my dad. so much has happened since I was here writing texts posts in high school and my relationship with them is complicated but at least there's no anger, at least not as much I guess. reading those posts always made me so sad for my younger self. I’m sorry you had to go through all you did growing up but you’ve taken care of yourself well till now.

on a lighter note, being done with school and having started my career means I’ve gotten more time to sink back into my old interests! reading, anime, video games, actually being able to ‘stan’ the kpop artists I like, but most importantly i’m back to being entirely in love with harry potter and dramione 😩 I even started writing a fic hahahaha I hope I finish it bc it kinda made me really happy to write 

okokok I keep getting distracted and I have so much shit to do (you’re going to vegas tomorrow and moving out this month but haven't packed your shit u dumb bitch) so even though I have a million more things I could write about I’ll just stop there

[moantaeil]

Ten @ Mnet ‘Hit The Stage’ 

[yonges]

Cute, nervous baby 

[chittaphon]

Taeyong’s beautiful skin

[varietyblr]

[arigransde]

not yet got over the fact that the lyric video is better than the music video

[blondehunlay]

[babyi]

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