There's Gotta Be More To Life

[leighroda]

https://www.younow.com/MagdaKaminski/168409274/14540891/c32833fk/b

[leighroda]

sorry https://www.younow.com/Aynslee/168408768/14540891/ece54474/b

[micdotcom]

[kushandwisdom]

Good Vibes here

[the-vaudevillain-deactivated202]

I guess this is a message for those of you who contemplate permanent solutions to temporary problems. You never know what could be coming in the future. There is so much music you’ve yet to hear.

Hannah Hart, Buffering (via the-vaudevillain)

[thedancemomsfanpage]

The end should’ve been the kid saying hello and those on stage relieved that she called. I got the wrong vibe from the ending. Kalani looked like she was gaining a bit of hope but then the call went dead

[amazingdancers]

Agree! It seemed in rehearsal that they wanted to show how important and helpful the hotline is but then the end of the dance made it seem like it failed. It confused me. The dance was still beautiful and super meaningful but it just didn’t match what they were talking about in rehearsal it seemed. 

[thedancemomsfanpage]

Exactly! I don’t think it matched expectations. But the dance was still amazing.

[leighroda]

I think the point was... when someone is depressed/suicidal, one of the number one signs they have decided to go through with suicide is that they seem to improve. It's hard to explain, but it usually indicates they are relieved, or at peace with their decision and have a final plan. I don't know if that is what they were trying to portray or not, but that's how it is in real life.

[nihilistic-bitch]

that bpd feeling when you get the urge to isolate yourself to see how long it takes for anyone to give a shit about your absence

[retrogradedgrapefruit]

[leighroda]

me being with friends: omg i'm so loved!!! i love my friends,they're always here for me and i'll always be there for them too, we're having so much fun omg so many things we should do!!!

me once i'm alone: ...

me: anyways everyone hates me and i'm Ready to Die

[teenmomtruths]

iv seen jenelle in person on the flight the other day (sorry no pics and she didnt look pregnant with a big round bump and strangely she was very quiet and polite nothing like on the tv i new it was her because mr stare blankly was with her he seems like a right weirdo his empty blank eyes just stare into nothing ) but she doesnt look as thin in person as the picture in the pink and white towel but if it can make you look that different i think im gonna start using Photoshop she has defo used it

Again time will tell, as for me, I’m inclined to believe that the Ashley has it right and she is pregnant unless she retracts it.

[leighroda]

If it were just the picture I would maybe not be convinced she was pregnant, but the Ashley said she has other sources, and she is usually right... Or quickly retracts when she is wrong.

[iheartlittledancers]

I just… I can’t

[leighroda]

Lol that's funny, half of what was posted as "proof" is a matter of opinion, and the things that are comparable are wrong, like saying Kendall is in more of a split, actually I would say Brynn is because she has more of an over split, her right leg is slightly higher than 180 degrees. The direction they are looking in doesn't have much bearing over the height of the jump. The sand comment is true to a degree, but someone in the comments said she wasn't in the sand, and that's photoshopped. The arms I guess could provide a slight difference I guess, but

On top of that, it's hard to say but the position of Kendall's torso looks like she is leaning forward or maybe hunching some.

At the end of the day if the other person prefers Kendall's jump that's fine it's her opinion, but it really annoyed me that she was staying it as fact.

[teenmomtruths]

1) I totally agree it's the photographers fault. Though if Maci knew she was booked and really did beg her to do her wedding, that's still very wrong 2) Amber buying a new car while owing thousands of dollars in taxes, f*** her....

A lot of brides who aren’t famous will try to negotiate with a photographer to book them on the day they want despite other bookings. It’s hard to let a photographer you really like go without a fight. I still don’t think Maci should be persecuted for this. 

And Amber…. I wish I could say i was surprised…

[leighroda]

I agree it's not really Maci's fault, even if she bribed or begged to get the photog to cancel the other wedding, at the end of the day it was the photographers decision.

[leighroda]

Sad

I decided to start using my tumbler more… Mostly because none of my rlf (real life friends) will see this so it allows me to be a little more honest than I would normally be on social media. It’s weird that sharing things with strangers is far less scary than sharing with people I actually know.

So this week has been really really REALLY hard. One of the most disappointing moments is my life ever came up this week. It’s a little hard to even know where to start, being that this is the first blog post actually discussing my real life, I don’t know if I should explain myself or just jump in…

So for years, and years and years I have been working toward my career goals. I wanted to be a nurse. I went to college thinking I wanted to be a teacher, and I got almost all the way through college before I realized I was wrong (like I tend to be about most things in life). The thing is, as an adult it’s really hard to go back to school, things you take for granted when you are younger become priority, like a place to live, food, clothes. You have to work full time to earn money for those things, so going to school part time is incredibly hard to balance, and nursing school doesn’t allow for part time, so it’s even harder.

It took me about 10 years, but I finally did it, I finished nursing school, this was it life was supposed to get good now. I’m a little older than the typical graduate, but I didn’t care… Better late than never. The on thing standing between me and getting to add the letters “RN” to my name was the NCLEX, the board exam you have to take to become a registered nurse. I took the exam 2 days ago on Thursday. I prepped, I answered countless practice questions, the last 6 months of my life have been devoted to studying, I haven’t seen my friends, I barely leave my house, but it was all going to be worth the sacrifices I made when I passed this test.

Well… I didn’t pass. Yes, I can take it again… But that’s not the point. I’m so upset, I did everything I’m supposed to, I sacrificed a lot, I tried, REALLY REALLY hard, and I failed. Failure is not a new concept to me, I’m more familiar with it than I’d like, so I’m not sure why it’s taken me by surprise so much this time… I should be used to it by now.

So, I came home, I don’t want to see anyone, I don’t want to talk to anyone, I don’t want to hear it’s going to be ok, I don’t want to hear it’s a hard test, I don’t care that lots of people don’t pass the first time. I just wanted to not think about it. I know I have to start the whole process over again, I’m not giving up… But it’s daunting to know I’m going to put myself in this position again in the near future. So I just thought I would watch some YouTube videos. I had taken some sleep aids to help me go to sleep so I could just not think, so I figured I’d just watch a few videos before I fell asleep.

Idk if any of you are familiar with younow, it’s a livestream where you basically just talk and interact with people, for me it’s been good… When I’m feeling overwhelmed and depressed I can watch something and interact with real life people. I recently found Jelly and Day, they are so nice, so funny, and so real… So I knew they had a YouTube channel so I decided just to watch a few of their videos. I just wanted to laugh, to get my mind off of the failure, to try to steer my mind away from the thoughts I knew were coming, that I’m stupid, I’m a failure, I’m worthless, nobody likes me, etc.

And then I saw this: https://youtu.be/NRLMVsJ179A

It’s funny that I thought what I needed to do was to be happy, to hide my disappointment, but I think what I needed in that moment to be sad. So I watched it, and I’m just amazed. Amazed that Jelly, even in being so broken is so strong. Humbled, that she was able to be so honest and so raw, and she has a huge fan base. I’ll be honest, even a little jealous that she has so many people that love and care about her, even the hard parts. She was able to articulate so many things I feel on the daily basis, so many thoughts and feelings that I though I was the only one to feel.

Did it make things better? Well no, I’m still extremely disappointed, I’m still depressed that my life is nothing like I thought it would be at this point. But I’m not completely alone, I’m not the only one who has felt so sad they don’t know how to move on in life, how to wake up another day, how to try to appear to be holding things together when everything in me is so broken…and for now that’s all I have. @jellyperez91

[dryyoureyes-startbelieving]

Six things to tell yourself today (and every day)

1. I matter. 2. I will get through this. 3. I am beautiful. 4. I deserve to be loved. 5. I can find peace, happiness and contentment. 6. I have the power and the will to survive.

[taylorswift]

Just so you know...

Hey guys,

I’m writing to you with an update I wish I wasn’t giving you, but it’s important and I’m used to sharing important events in my life with you. Usually when things happen to me, I process them and then write music about how I feel, and you hear it much later. This is something my family and I thought you should know about now.

For Christmas this year, I asked my mom that one of her gifts to me be her going to the doctor to get screened for any health issues, just to ease some worries of mine. She agreed, and went in to get checked. There were no red flags and she felt perfectly fine, but she did it just to get me and my brother off her case about it.

The results came in, and I’m saddened to tell you that my mom has been diagnosed with cancer. I’d like to keep the details of her condition and treatment plans private, but she wanted you to know.

She wanted you to know because your parents may be too busy juggling everything they’ve got going on to go to the doctor, and maybe you reminding them to go get checked for cancer could possibly lead to an early diagnosis and an easier battle… Or peace of mind in knowing that they’re healthy and there’s nothing to worry about. She wanted you to know why she may not be at as many shows this tour. She’s got an important battle to fight.

Thank you for caring about my family so much that she would want me to share this information with you. I hope and pray that you never get news like this.

Love you. Taylor

[leighroda]

I so saddened to hear this, I understand how you feel , unfortunately more than you know. On January 1, my mom was diagnosed with uterine cancer. She had not gone for a check up in years, and by the time she was diagnosed the cancer was already in her lungs and brain, so there was no way to treat it, so she was sent home for hospice care, and passed away 6 weeks later. I hope and pray your mom is able to get treatment, and that she will fight and beat this cancer. The hardest part of my moms diagnosis is that her cancer would have been prevented or even cured had it been found earlier. taylorswift

[leighroda]

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