H. J. L

just trying to understand words

[yellow-luftballon-blog]

Balloon

I want to be amongst;

the air,

that I breathe.

the sky,

that I see.

The breeze,

that moves the trees.

And the stars,

that guide me.

— Yellow

[les-avis]

Forget me not

Remind me what love is Because we're falling apart { I'm making a comeback }

[les-avis]

my cheeks cascades of emotion fears talons grope me as silence deafens me darkness blinds me as the loneliness seeps in

— already too long have you been gone, the monsters are in my head. I just want you to come back to me. Because where you are, is home. ;H. J. L {don’t panic, just adding my initials to the end of my posts now, since everything I write is original. ♡}

[les-avis]

Part 1

— this is why…

I say I’m not worth it you ask me why I never have an answer until I realised that I put me down because I cause you pain I never mean it but it happens anyway I say I’m sorry I truly mean it when I say but the doubt that you feed me feeds my self-doubt anyway I want to be perfect for you and for me I want us to be together forever… but this is why I say I’m not worth it not worth your time or your love.. I’m just a big mistake who’s not worthy of you..

[les-avis]

— a day away from you

I’ll always have you with me even if I’m gone not sure how far away not sure how long but I will always come back follow my way home because home is wherever you are and home sickness is my foe.

[les-avis]

— love I plan to spend the rest of my life with you and only you you lay at rest your head upon my chest those arms entwined like forest vines My heart quivers the strings taught like bow and arrow you struck me down falling falling I’m not alice but I’ll follow that white rabbit if his tail coat leads me to you eyes of grey eyes of blue my eyes only for you sleep in warm bed sleepless moments you in my head filling my dreams with sweet whispers cotton candy soft they stick remember I love you and one day I’ll be wearing white waiting for you to call me “all mine” for the rest of my life — Thinking of him all the time. I love my tired Boy. Though I may be sitting down the other end of the house, while he rests in our bed. It still feels like he is next to me. Always.

[vomitingwords]

And maybe the most terrible— yet the bravest thing I’ve ever done, was to continue walking no matter how slow my feet move, no matter how many times I took a rest and sat on the ground— to stand up and travel this tough road of mine, when all I ever wanted was to come back to that wonderful moment when things never seem to be wrong, when things never hurt so much— and when everything seems perfectly fine.

ma.c.a // Long Way Home (via vomitingwords)

[les-avis]

— unknown please keep hurting me the way that you do because baby it's the addiction that's stuck in my head feeding it over and over again when you're mad it makes my heart race fear in my head fear on my face once again I'm back where I began with angered eyes and broken hands shaking shaking why can't I stop the shaking? because you keep feeding the addiction in my head

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

via @extramadness

[thepowerwithin]

Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.

J.K. Rowling (via thepowerwithin)

[les-avis]

— insecure

I’m always one to hold things in but should I break no one wins

over and over seems to go ‘round never up never down

pointing at the… negative things Fills me with anxiety insecurities pain within

stop pointing at my flaws stop making me feel down so many years I’ve been on the ground

this concrete it’s cold I just want to get up but every time I try someone presses stop

[les-avis]

— remember

i saw you there in the open fields smile on your face so soft and fair no longer broken no need for repair

the song of your voice silk to my ear I wish so dearly I could hold you near

when I see you standing at those gates please don’t forget to tell me you love me you’re proud of me you never gave up on me you were always there for me

please don’t forget I’m proud of you I never gave up on you I was always there for you

I love you…

[les-avis]

— beautiful like the stars

skin like snow freckled cheeks that look in your eyes

wait

your eyes freckles are there too specks of gold amongst those pretty little spots

much like the stars those constellations they spread over your skin skin as white as snow

you say “aren’t they just spots?” with that confused look but honey you don’t see the beauty behind every little spot

because… they’re yours and only yours those constellations

— just remember, everything about you is beautiful

[les-avis]

— mornings

soft light a mocking bird she sings awake at dawn peaking over the horizon the sun it smiles welcoming the sky with warmth and love like waking up beside you — thinking of the one I love

[les-avis]

— waves

the warmth lulling head eyes filled with sleep the steady rocking rolling dreams even for just a moment everything at peace the silence broken by uttered words your voice so soft so calming like riding the waves

[les-avis]

— when you’re down, I’ll be around

hope is always there to take your hand broken dreams of promised lands when times of down come glass at your lips caress the ideal of happiness a poisonous kiss lost in tunneled vision find your way home there will be light there will be hope

[les-avis]

— fool in the dark a fool for believing she has anything he needs pleading for forgiveness though blind to what he sees