my nostalgia for circa 2010 club music is hysterical to me. i was not at “the club” in two thousand and ten, i was at home on the family computer singing along to “like a G6” as if i wasn’t in the G6th fucking grade
We Built Gwen’s Face is a great song, but I wish it didn't come at the cost of Cody being a creepy rehash of his season 1 self. Yes this goes for all of World Tour.
i think the worst thing about total drama fans is that they think that they’re more self aware and progressive then freshtv when they can be easily just as bad as them. while it’s obvious freshtv went out of their way to sexualize the majority of its cast, theres an insidious emphasis on the characters of color. there is so many fan service shots of their asses and legs as well as numerous gross sexual comments hurled at them by both chris and the contestants (even the ones were supposed to be rooting for). while courtney leshawna and heather get the most of this, the moc get a lot of this too. the basis of alejandro and justin characters is literally just being “sexy and brown.”
while some (mostly other poc) td fans rebuke fresh for this, like the other anon said, they still have no idea how to see poc in a nonsexual lense. courtney antis always call her a “slut” or a “whore” in some way even though she only kissed 3 guys in 3 years. (two of which she was dating at the time) people claim to “love” leshawna and jasmine “so much” and yet there’s barely any content of them outside of lame ship art. ask any td fan what they like about them and they’ll either just say that they’re nice or they’ll say something fetishy like “they’re so hot! thicc queen! i want them to dominate me!” hell, the only positivity i’ve ever seen for stephanie was someone calling her a femdom.
i’ve read your noah ship fics (they’re all terrible btw) and so many times noah is characterized as this sassy manwhore on the prowl for dick despite that being nothing remotely close to his personality; compared to someone like owen who’s always characterized in your homophobic fanfic as this sweet innocent inexperienced angel baby as if he isn’t easily one of the horniest person on the entire show.
i just think that td fans should log off for a while and reflect on how they see poc cause it’s pretty telling they way people can write 10 page essays on codys complexity as a character but they only thing they can say about lightning is “i want him to sha-pound me” as someone who’s been in the fandom for a while, it’s always been something that bothered me.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
Fuck You.
I’m so angry you are so lucky my three weed smorking girlfriends are rubbing my shoulders to calm me down I’m so mad.
I printed out a photo of your avatar and taped it to my punching bag that I punch and I mutter your URL with every strong punch I punch you twerp…. Don’t ever Talk about Blaiz or the wicked Tat(tattoo) I drew on her ever again I Don’t wanna see you standing outside my home at 3 am holding your weird dripping brown bags ever again ok leave us alone this is the FINAL FUCKING WARNING
What, was that? Hmm? Come again. *Blaiz grabs my shoulder* Come on Jory, they aren’t worth it, please. * I jerk my shoulder shaking her hand off* NO! NOOOOO!!! *starts to just pummel you with my big fucking fists. With each blow I let out a furious yell. The blows come quicker and harder and the yells get louder. I’m yelling so loud and now I’m crying. BREAKING POINT. The week was hard and I can’t take anymore. I’m opening sobbing at this point while you blood gurgle. All three of my girlfriends struggle to pull me off and they finally succeed and lead me away from the goo pile that is now your body*
who even is this dude? someone needs some anger management classes.
love how he keeps reminding us that “I HAVE THREE GIRLFRIENDS”, “THEY ALL KISS ME”, and “THEY SMOKE WEED HURRP DURR”.
and let’s not forget the “Blaiz” and her “wicked tat”, or that he doesn’t “wanna see you standing outside [his] home at 3 am holding your weird dripping brown bags ever again”, and that this is “the FINAL FUCKING WARNING”.
“the goo pile that is now your body”
i’m dying over here, jesus
please, Jory, come challenge me to a bout of internet witticsisms; i promise, it’ll be fun.
Come again? *The bar falls silent. No one dares to make a sound, as you have just said a very poor choice of words at a very dangerous time. I remain slumped over the bar, not looking back to you. One hand limply holding an almost empty bottle, the other hand cradling my head. I repeat the question, this time louder.* Come again?! *You can hear me slur the words, the sentence sounds like a real struggle for me to get out. I’m clearly intoxicated. A bead of sweat rolls down your face as you realize you might have just fucked up in a very major way. Everyone else in the bar is pretending to not notice what is going on. The bartender idly washes a mug with a cloth. His eyes are closed and he’s muttering something to himself. A handful of people hurriedly leave. One person looks back at you, a look of sorrow on their face. They almost say something, but shake their head and cast their eyes down to the floor, and leave. But not you. You stand, petrified. A quick look at me reveals I’m still at the bar. You look to the exit, there’s still time. But there’s not, there’s not, there’s not. Your fate was sealed the moment you opened your mouth.* Mother fuck.. what did you say?! *I slowly rise from my stool and being to lumber over to you. I look a mess. My hair is unkempt, I haven’t shaved in what looks like months, there are dark heavy bags under my eyes, my shirt is stained and has holes in it, and I’m missing a shoe. But the main thing you notice is the gun tucked into my jeans, and my massive muscle arms that look like they were made for punching. You know that song about the boots that were made for walking? Yeah, it’s like that only instead of boots it’s my muscles and instead of walking it’s punching. As I drunkenly sway over to you, you think of your family… Will they mourn you, or will they try and forget this blotch of stupidity, that their child insulted the Jory publicly, ever happened to their family? Your thoughts are cut short as I now stand face to face with you. I grab your face and pull you even closer.* Playin?! There was nothing playing… no playing you fuck. No playing… it was real.. the realest thing I’ve ever know.. felt… Love. I loved them… Blaiz…. Chas-Chas… Funk… I loved all three of em… but they…*My face is wet with tears and I’m blinking constantly in vain to hold them back.* They left me… left… *Almost instantly the sadness leaves my face and is replaced with pure anger.* Playin? Playin?! *My hand leaves your face and starts to head to what you think is the gun. You close your eyes and see God looking at you, shrugging. ‘Pft, you brought this upon yourself dude.’ He says as he waves his hands at you dismissively. But instead of the gun, my hands grab yours. Your eyes jolt open and the anger is gone from my face. There is only sadness.* Left me… * I fall to the floor and sob.*
Wow, grow up. *You say before you leave the bar but are hit almost immediately from a car and are killed upon impact.*
Why I believe that heather was LESBIAN coded (and how she and Leshawna were implied to be a thing)
Her lack of attraction to men
There are very very few times when even the possibility of Heather being attracted to men is apparent. Most of the times when Heather is approached she is shown to be very repulsed. The only time when we see her even slightly attracted to men is in this scene:
This I believe was feigned becuz... honestly just look! Gd... She was in front of a bunch of people and obviously needed to maintain her image of being a heterosexual woman in the mid 2000s. As u can see here, Heather is shown to be truly disgusted BY Justin and is more comfortable expressing that. She’s near Owen, someone who’s already established himself as the “fruitiest” character on the show.
She has no fundamental reason to find Justin unattractive at this point. This was back in season 1, and Justin hadn’t done anything outlandish or offensive. He was seen as universally attractive up till the middle of season 2 so for Heather to show disgust towards the bust of Justin is peculiar.
She sees heterosexual relationships as transactional:
She was so insistent on stopping Lindsay and Tyler from dating simply because they were on separate teams
She tends to see male/female relationships as a means of only getting farther in the game
Her relationship with men:
Most of the men on the show she interacts with are met with anger, hostility and disgust by her and while this isn’t inherent to lesbianism itself it is a result of the harmful yet ever present “man hating lesbian trope”. While Heather wasn’t very warm to any of her female counterparts either there is still a clear and stark difference as seen here:
So what ABOUT season 3:
Ok. In season 3 as we all know, Heather develops a crush on Alejandro yadda yah. But as we are just by looking into the show, NOWHERE was that attraction based on looks. It was status. Yeah, not all genuine attraction has to be based on looks but it seemed more as tho Heather felt the need to BE attracted to Alejandro because of how “worthy of an adversary” he was. This is all indicative of comphet and even moreso because of how egged on the attraction was by everyone in the cast.
“Worthy Adversary”:
Honestly this is bullshit. Leshawna was just as “worthy of an adversary” as Alejandro was and honestly way more because she didn’t HAVE to be manipulative to get people on her side. Sierra was actually an even stronger adversary than Alejandro and even managed to get Alejandro out of the game before Sierra was unfairly kicked off.
“They have a lot of sexual tension”:
*sighs*
Ok then let me raise you this:
Despite bickering and fighting in nearly all their scenes Leshawna and Heather are always seen together somehow
Like they weren’t friends (like at all) but if they hated each other that damn much then why were they always around one another. Nobody FORCED them to be together. They’re just always sitting next to each other or interacting in some way. But of course this is totally heterosexual, right?
Also this:
Like how could she know that? Leshawna left to bathe before Heather and Duncan even finished their challenge, so.......
Heather making it a point to not remember or call anyone on the show by their actual name except for Leshawna somehow even going as far as to correct Lindsay after she called her “Lefonda” this happened in the second episode btw
Always needing to start a fight just for the sake of starting a fight. This is apparent in their altercation in “Brunch of Disgustingness” when they were literally fighting over nothing. It got to the point where even Heather said in the confessional: “Ok, I could’ve probably played that better but Leshawna seriously creases me.”
It only goes to show how that altercation was never about having Bridgette in their alliances but just another excuse for Leshawna and Heather to fight
Also despite Heather always being angered by Leshawna she never ever made an effort to get her eliminated or even get revenge on her. Like it went so far as in season two, after everyone had turned against Leshawna, Heather went out of her way to defend her.
Heather and Leshawna were also originally written to BE friends for camp tv
“They had good buildup/writing”:
Again, Heather and Leshawna had twice as much buildup as Heather and Alejandro so....
Heather and Alejandro’s relationship was the most generically written enemies to lovers hetero relationship ever. Argue wit ur grandma
“There’s no WAY they could’ve written a lesbian relationship in a children’s show in 2007”:
I didn’t think that I even needed to argue how stupid of a point this is but let’s get into it.
Lesbians were not “unheard of” in the mid 2000s. It wasn’t like as if there was this magical force field preventing writers from putting lesbians in kids shows. It was the fear of backlash from parents and the network that prevented it.
Fresh tv has HAD lesbian characters in their shows before
Lesbian coding is a thing specifically because of the reasons I listed above
Many times characters in shows have been written as lesbian and then put with male characters because of this. A very famous example is Velma from scooby do
Ok but what does this prove about Lesheather?
Leshawna:
Leshawna herself is lesbian coded too, it is not as apparent as Heather’s lesbian coding but it’s still there.
Her relationships with men:
Being a fat darkskin black woman she is left in a position where she is either completely derided or fetishized. Either way, she seems to enjoy male attention quite a lot. This can happen regardless of sexuality as we live in a white supremacist patriarchy that brainwashes into believing that the validation of men, especially white men MEANS something.
As a result Leshawna probably felt as though she needed to cling onto as many straws as she got which left her with Harold. Harold as we know, fetishizes Leshawna a LOT, but also makes Leshawna feel good. Something she does not normally feel due to the misogynoir and fatphobia she is often met with by the rest of the cast.
This very much leans towards the reason why Leshawna felt it necessary to link up with Harold before he left the island. This is further supported in the season 1 1hr special when she admitted to feeling emotional about the elimination and thus making hasty discussions
The attraction that Leshawna may have thought she once had completely diminishes once Harold shows strong interest in her (another sign of lesbianism, purr)
She continues to lead Harold on throughout seasons 2 and 3, as a means of finding some kind of security. Harold is her source of validation, but never once do we see them kiss or do anything outside of hugging. There’s a deleted scene in season 3 where they’re cuddling on the beach but Harold seems way more into it than Leshawna, who only seems to care about the validation.
On top of that, Leshawna didn’t even know that Harold was a man until the scene at the dock. Many lesbians tend to go for more feminine looking guys when going thru comphet and this only solidifies that. Especially when Leshawna felt the need to be the more “masculine” figure in the relationship
What about Justin?
Her attraction to Justin seems to be on the same level as Heather’s. Very performative, we only ever see Leshawna display attraction towards Justin when she’s around others like, look at this and tell me that it doesn’t remind you of when YOU forced yourself to scream when u saw a male celebrity to be like your male attracted counterparts:
Alejandro:
Again, Leshawna’s attraction to Alejandro existed on the basis of having someone gas her and make her feel desired. As y’all notice that when Ale’s true colors are shown, all of Leshawna’s attraction towards him disappears and she rebounds to guess who? Harold.
How Heather saw Leshawna:
Before we begin, we need to uncover who Heather is as a character. Heather has a MASSIVE inferiority complex and this stems from her growing up fat and pimply and also having really awful parents. Heather always strives to be the best at EVERYTHING, and is in all her schools clubs, was implied to be taking calculus as a junior in high school and even pushed her younger siblings to a high standard in episode 8 of season 2, when she gives up nothing to them in her will, tells them to earn it themselves and proceeds to call them lazy.
Despite the fact that Heather’s parents truly resent her, Heather still considers her mother her best friend. All this could imply that she works so hard to impress her parents (at least her mother) but to no avail. There is no reason ever for a parent to celebrate their child being gone. After all, THEYRE the ones who raised it. Because of this we can’t blame Heather for why her parents despise her so much. The treatment went so far that they were even written to have given her electroshock therapy as a child.
There is also a contrast in the relationship between her and her parents. Heather is mixed race, her mom is implied to be Japanese and her father is Caucasian. She talked about her mother having voluminous hair and considers her her best friend even wanting to spend a spa day with her during the season. However, all she has to say about her dad is that he’s cheap. So.....
All of this explains her seemingly peculiar fear of sumo wrestlers. They are very fat and very Japanese and of course dealing with internalized racism and fatphobia all that can manifest into this kind of fear.
Ok back to her views of Leshawna...
So, Leshawna is everything that Heather hates about herself. She is a fat woman of color but isn’t ashamed about it. She doesn’t try to be something she’s not like Beth, and doesn’t try to assimilate like Heather. In spite of the obstacles that she deals with she still has a head on her shoulders, doesn’t take bullshit from anybody and still has the love and support of everyone around her.
Heather relies on fear, manipulation and bullying to get what she wants out of life which has lead her into a path of loneliness. She couldn’t find anyone to the school dance as implied in the season 2 special.
She even began to panic when thinking about her old life before she was on T.V. describing it as “cold”.
In the season 1 special, Heather even starts sobbing after she is left alone with Harold reflecting on how everyone hates her and admitting that she is only mean to people due to fear of rejection by those very people.
She also admits to even being threatened by Beth in an aftermath special in season 2
Heather’s insults towards Leshawna and the deeper meaning behind them:
Whenever Heather insults Leshawna they’re always racialized. She picks on her specifically for being a fat black woman but we already know that
She always makes it a point to comment on her butt and while in the 2000s having a big butt was seen as undesirable, total drama sexualized them a lot making it a goal to have as many gratuitous butt shots as possible
With this in mind is it possible to assume that her seeming disgust could possibly be fixation? If this is the case then it would directly parallel with s3 Heather’s need to constantly comment on Alejandro’s appearance and how that was automatically assumed to be some kind of sexual frustration
It being the mid 2000s the comments about her butt left for more plausible deniability and I have no doubt that this was intentional
Heather also needed to always talk about how ghetto and gross her weave was while also making fun of her natural 4c hair. However, in an extended clip from season 2 heather talks about wanting to get a weave
She also appears in the next aftermath alongside Leshawna in a 4c wig so while she hated on Leshawna for looking the way she did naturally, she also tried to emulate her.
It’s clear as day that Heather saw herself as inferior to Leshawna and felt the need to project her insecurities onto her in order to bring her down to her level. After all, Leshawna was the only person in the show that she had any respect for.
Scenes that implied lesheather:
Heather feeling the need to stick up for Leshawna once she is on the chopping block
Heather leaving Leshawna her wig “to remember her by”
Heather and Leshawna appearing on aftermath together which is something that had never happened before ever and never happened again
No cuz they were introduced as “Heather and Leshawna” and not just introduced separately like come on
Also Leshawna since then always referred to them as “we” and not just her separately
In the Celebrity Manhunt special, Leshawna chases Heather after she calls dibs on the front row seat
This:
Them always looking to each other for reassurance you know, thinking as a “unit”
“Just Friends”:
Ok we had many friendships on total drama but what friendship was as close as this?? Like genuine question. Like not even Gwen and Courtney were this close and we all recognize them as queercoded so.... what the fuck is this then???
FINAL POINT: for the longest time lesbians in media and lesbianism has been villanized and painted as a direct threat to patriarchy. As a result many of the villains and antagonists of many TV shows and movies are in fact lesbian coded. This can be seen with Heather and how she was seen as a villain for the longest only until she started to “fall in love” with one of her male counterparts. Once she too ends up experiencing “male attraction” she is “tamed” and made more sympathetic. They also do this with Jo in seasons 4-5 as she is also lesbian coded and is portrayed as the villain. And even worse, she is seen as inseparable from a man as shown by her masculine name, her need to emasculate actual men (just like Heather) and how one of the characters literally perceived her as a man for the entirety of season 4. This type of media portrayal is very intentional and causes many young lesbians to grow up with serious internalized lesbophobia and fear of seeming to mean or predatory. Just something to keep in mind.
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