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30 year old stage manager. I also like books, pop culture and chocolate.

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I saw a commercial for Tumblr on Hulu. I guess they are trying to make a comeback.

I never fucking left.

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My coworker said act 2 of Wicked is kind of like The Lion King 1 ½ and I cannot stop thinking about it.

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FUCK THIS COUNTRY

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Holy shit, guys

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Man this scene in FNAF 2 movie is gonna be wild-

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Low budget edit on what it was like watching the new episode of Game Changer before bed

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He said

rip Pokerface Lotus Casino gone but not forgotten 🤍✌️

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watching pjo be like

[depression-fork]

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i wonder if actors ever get their scripts and are like

well this is fucking stupid

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[image description: photos of the cast of Game of Thrones at the season 8 table read, in various stages of grief]

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CW: weight loss/gain

I gained back about 15lb this year. Not the end of the world, but since this fall I've been trying to lose back 10 of them.

When I was in Ohio working a gig with nothing to do until rehearsal at 6pm, I worked out 5 days a week and rarely ate out. For 10 weeks the scale would stay within the same five pound range. To the point where it got up to the highest I've scene the scale since 2021.

When I got back from Philly I lost 5lbs in the first week I was back. Also, note I was sick, so I rarely ate at all or left the apartment. But in the 3 weeks after I recovered, I began to eat normally and I didn't gain it back. But last week, I got busy and ate out every day and made poor food choices (I.e I had a lunch of just pretzels. like a big soft pretzel and those really good buffalo seasoned pretzel nuggets and that was it). But strangely enough when I got on the scale the number stayed the same.

It probably has to do with stress or something. Idk bodies are weird. I still need to eat better and go back to the gym for overall health reasons. But I'm just having body dysmorphia since I'm seeing pictures of myself from this time last year and my face looks thinner. It's just a 10lb difference and no one can tell but me. I hate how it's making me feel.

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I'm conflicted

I did a networking event back in September and met with a producer of a touring production company and we hit it off. We mostly talked about how to break into touring and possible vacation sub opportunities. I was really excited to connect with this company after the event, but I didn't get their contact information until 3 weeks later. Regardless, I sent an email anyway, hoping to get my foot in the door.

In October, I got offered to SM a show at a company that I've worked at before. I accepted the offer and it starts in January. I even got to choose my ASM who I enjoy working with.

Last week, I decided to follow up with the producer, since it was over a month since I initially emailed them. They got back the next day and apologized for not responding earlier. They said they were in the process of finding a PSM for their next tour that starts in January and would be interviewing ASMs after. They then asked if I would like to be considered and that they'll keep my resume in the mix for vacation covers as well.

Here is where I messed up.

I responded said I had a show in January.

I should have consulted with more people before I said that because when I told my colleagues, they told me I should have taken the interview.

Since the January show is 6 weeks away and I haven't signed a contract, my colleagues encouraged me to email them back and say "Circumstances have changed with the show in January. And I would love to be considered for an interview."

Idk, it feels a little disingenuous. And I'm worried they backtracking might make me look bad.

Again, this is not a guarantee. I don't even know if it would actually be an interview or them just handing my resume to the PSM they hire. I don't know. But I feel like I jumped the gun.

There are a lot of pros and cons to this, that I can list later. But I just feel so conflicted.

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Update: I got back to them and told them I'd like to be considered and I have an interview next week.

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The interview is tomorrow, but I just got my contract for the other show. Am I in way over my head?

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