Le vilain oiseau

29yo. Human that have an ed and depression. I am pro recovery even if I am not there yet.

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me core

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I am so fat I can't even put my goal clothes anymore.

Welcome to the month of soup and veggies only. (I can't just not eat since I work and I live with people)

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I gain so much weight and I can't even stop smoking properly

My boyfriend doesn't eat so much

But I do

Every time I take too much ... I need to focus, I hate being fat before going to high school again (I am the teacher .....)

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I did 3:30 hours of skating today

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I won't be skinny this summer, but I want to be a real-life skeleton by Halloween ☠️

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I need to

I am almost 30 wtf

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My biggest fear is someone telling me I’ve gained weight

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Recently a lot of people told me that I gained weight and that's cool

I am so disappointed

I know I gained weight

I need the control back

I'm so tired of being so fat

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It seems like my friends organized a birthday party for me with 50 people. I don't even like this much people. Anxiety coming right away. I am not supposed to know anything.

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I gained so much weight I cannot stand it. I need to get back on track and have control. I need to visit here more often for inspiration.

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I gained so much weight

I cannot stand myself

I don't even fit in my clothes anymore

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Lunch

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I didn't take a picture of my morning that was black coffee and my lunch but it was chickpeas, leek, carrots and cabbage

Next is my afternoon snack

Cold seaweed and cucumber and hot noodles, carrots and leek :

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I feel alone in this. I really need to achieve something.

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One of my "friend" wanted me to become fatter since I am in a relationship. Time to get my shit together and loose weight. Fuck her. She's not a real friend.

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I really need to take back control and stop eating all the fucking time

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ED rule that help me lose weight

Don't eat when you don't need energy.

Eat only before important things like exams, driving car etc or eat when you feel really bad but I mean REALLY bad.

Eat to live not live to eat.