lgcallie:
₊ ˟ seeing nova for the first time when she’s released from the hospital is refreshing. maybe it’s the fact that he’s like the sun to her, maybe it’s getting to see him out in the bustle of the real world that makes his aura all the more magical. but allie hasn’t really forgotten nova’s sacrifice and how often he came to see her in the hospital. she hadn’t expected him to be the one who came the most, but it seems like at every turning point in time where she felt a little more down, nova was there with his wide infectious smile and eyes that beam like sunlight.
the warmth he makes her feel - she’s been ignoring it all this time, and it’s hard to put a lid on it anymore. she doesn’t think that there’s ever been a person who has cared for her quite so much as im nova.
when he asks her to come out and see him for the first time since release, allie is a little nervous. of course she says yes right away, because as much as her heart aches when she sees him in a way that’s a little different than its usual pains - somehow, allie’s grown addicted to seeing the light in his smile and the carefree look in his eye. she wishes she could be like him. ( and allie knows what this is, but she’s also loathe to admit it. )
although she no longer lives in the dorms, she makes her way out. she wonders if she’ll look too worn, too run down from her hospital stay to even be seen with someone like him - allie wonders if she’ll pale and wither next to him. still, she wants to see him; she tries her best to look a little more lively but the dark circles and the slump in her shoulders is hard to hide even with makeup and a smile.
by the time she arrives, she’s thinking too much but nova’s smile and his wave in greeting washes all of it away. she blinks in surprise at the drink that’s already sitting in the spot that’s saved for her, tilting her head. " you already got something for me?“
his hands are fiddling with the stray seams on his jeans, protruding from the artfully placed rips. his smile doesn’t waver though as she approaches-- if anything, it just grows wider. and it’s a relief, to see her in a normal setting, outside of the sterilized white walls of a hospital. so his smile turns fond as he relaxes a little into his comfy cafe chair. and he notices the weariness-- but he doesn’t mention it, never does unless she does first, and gestures at the chair in front of him.
he’s a little bit sheepish, blinking at her before he laughs a little and grins, “yeah! uhm, i just got one of the drinks you got before-- but if you’re craving something else i can grab that instead.” and he ends up leaning forward, hands clasped together in front of his little ceramic mug, just a little bit uncharacteristically. his gaze is on her intently as she takes a seat, and he has to remind himself to tone it down, averting his gaze to the passerbys on the street.
“how are you doing?” his tone is softer, gentle as he addresses her. “i’m glad to see you,” he admits without hesitation.
“i-- uh,” he begins, deciding to just go ahead before he lost confidence-- before he got sidetracked, before they go home with what ifs. “i actually wanted to talk to you about something. but we could sit a bit, then take a walk?”











