Honoring Liam Payne ✨

Celebrating his life and honoring his memory on October 29th.

[liampaynememorial]

Thank you so much to everyone who shared the posts about the memorial. Since it’s already October 29th in some parts of the world, I’ll start reblogging the posts that have already used the tag #RemberingLiamPayne (both written together and separated, as I’m following both tags) over the past few days. Feel free to join us in honoring him when it’s October 29th for you, sharing your love and memories in a way that feels right for you.

Liam, I hope you feel all the love we’re sending from here. We miss you deeply. There’s an empty space you’ve left that’s felt by so many. You’re so loved, and your memory lives on in each of us. Fly high, my angel 💕

[liampaynememorial]

Someone has told me there may be a bug with the tags, so if you’ve used #RememberingLiamPayne and you can’t see your post in the tags or I don’t reblog it, please feel free to mention me in the comments or send it to me directly. Sending love to all of you 💕

[darkvioletthefirst]

A Poem for Liam Payne

Today I put together a playlist

And played it.

Just a playlist of sad songs

That remind me of you

And the others I've lost.

I know you're all in peace,

But down here, I'm hardly standing.

Everything piles up,

Until it breaks through.

Keep seeing things that

Brought you to that point.

Your family, brothers, and friends

Are all grieving,

Way more than me,

But I feel like everything's

Crumbling from underneath me.

One thing leads to more.

Home doesn't feel like home,

Writings are being abandoned,

Spoons aren't being used.

I always admired you

And the rest.

You guys brought me peace

When I was living nightmares.

I wish I could have done the same

For you guys.

I keep trying to move on,

But everything holds me back.

You didn't deserve this.

Nobody does.

Oh Liam,

A bright star for many,

Hope for several.

Oh Liam,

You were a fluffy blanket for many,

A melody for several,

A beacon for those lost.

Oh Liam,

Hugs and listening

Aren't enough to

Show our pain

For losing you.

Oh Liam,

I hope you find up there,

What you were looking for down here.

[liampaynememorial]

Before saying thank you to everyone who participated and reblogged, I want to say some words too. Some words that I haven’t been able to say in my main blog because feelings aren’t my thing, and I hate being vulnerable… so I’m hiding behind this anonymous blog. So sorry, it’s going to be long and there are going to be typos, probably, sorry for that too.

Liam, I don’t even know where to start. I really can’t believe it’s been 2 weeks. Time goes too fast and too slow at the same time, and I feel like I’ve been living these past 2 weeks in a limbo of time going too fast and time going so slow. And I haven’t been able to say a proper goodbye to you yet. Not in the memorial I travelled to, not on my own, so I’ll try now.

I have many “what if?” in my personal life that I try not to get into because spirals, and you have become one now too: What if I could save him? As if I had that power, wish I had. I really wish that my support (your fans support) has been enough to save you, has been the blanket you needed, the hug you needed, whatever you needed. What if One Direction has never existed? What if things were different? And it’s so selfish of me to think that I wouldn’t be here if One Direction never existed. Because you’re not here because One Direction existed. And it’s something that is getting hard to process. I know you loved One Direction, maybe Niall was 1 directioner during the band years, but you were 1 directioner after the hiatus, and 1 supporter for your band mates, for your brothers. I know that besides everything that happened, you loved to be in that band. But what if Simon hasn’t been behind the band management? You know where I’m going… I start spiralling, I find an answer to a question, and I have a new question in mind.

I’m sad and I’m mad. And I’m in denial. I’m sad because you deserved to have a happy ending, you deserved to find your place in the world and in that industry you loved so much. You deserved to heal and to get better. You deserved to see your child growing up. You deserved to see the love. You deserved a much better ending. It’s so tragic. I have been worried about you for years, but never, not even in my worst nightmares I thought this was going to be your ending.

I’m mad at the whole industry. An industry that is full of selfish and greedy people who care more about money, numbers, and money again that they care about the artist. I’m mad at everyone in that hotel who didn’t try and who didn’t do enough. I’m mad at everyone who didn’t defend you, to everyone who bullied you, to everyone who didn’t understand what trauma and addiction can do to a person. I know a lot of people have been saying that the hate you’ve got was because of everything that was being said in early October, but it’s not true. The hate didn’t even start in 2022 after that podcast. The hate started before. The hate started during the band. The hate continued after the hiatus. The hate was always there, for stupid reasons and because of the hypocrisy of this fandom. And because of solo fans who found very funny to put you against each other and loved using the word “flop”. I hope you knew that your music was great. I hope you knew that One Direction wouldn’t have been the same without you. I hope you could know that I have a tattoo related to you, done before the tragedy, but it won’t be the only one. I hope you knew that you had talent, so much talent. I hope you knew you were enough. And loved. I’m mad at the whole world for dampening your light.

And I’m in denial. I’m in denial because you’re here, Liam. I have been a fan of you since I saw you five singing Viva La Vida in the xfactor, and in the fandom some months later. We’ve grown up together, I’m just months older than you. In all these years, 14, you were always in my screen, always in my earphones. And you’re still there, so what do you mean you’re not here? What do you mean you’re not here when I see your gifs, when I can listen to your voice, to your laugh. You know? You were also part of my final project in university, a project about One Direction. You were in so many parts of my life. You are in so many places in my life. It’s so hard to process it when I have you the same way I have always had you—on a screen and earphones. And I’m trying to think that this means that you’ll live forever. I know you’ll do. I know I won’t love anything the way I have loved this band and you all 5. The way I love this band and you all 5. You’re still here. I’ve been seeing white feathers when I was thinking about you during walks, so you’re still here.

I know my comfort place is now tainted by other emotions that aren’t joy, comfort, and love. Tainted by sadness, and anger, and pain, and what ifs. But I’ll know, or I hope, that in the future I can listen to your music— both your solo music and the band music—and feel more positive emotions than bad. I hope I can do the same watching “one direction funny moments” and no think about how it all ended. You know? I always imagined being on my 40s or 50s and going to the reunion, meeting with my mutuals (who most are friends) and dancing all night to the best songs ever.

I imagined dancing to one of One Direction songs during my wedding, wasn’t sure one. I knew I wanted to dance No Control because I wanted to do the dance with my friends who love you as much as I do, but I also was thinking about If I Could Fly piano version, or Home. I imagined so many things in my future and in so many of them, One Direction and you were my soundtrack: getting my first house and the first album played there being Midnight Memories, getting married and having your songs in the wedding, going to your solo concerts and the reunion concert, singing your songs in karaoke, talking to my kids about you and watching videos together, getting more tattoos related to One Direction, doing a tour in London visiting iconic places, doing a pyjama party with my friends that I met here and watching videos and singing together. So many moments that now I don’t know if I’ll do, because now I’m not strong enough to think about it. But I’ll hope I’ll do, because you deserve to be celebrated and honoured in a happy way too. I’ll try Liam, this is my second promise.

I’m not quite sure if I believe in afterlife, in heaven, or in reincarnation. But wherever you are, I hope you are at peace. I hope you’re receiving all this love (that you deserved to see). I hope you’re happy. I hope I’ll get to live another life where you’re part of it again. I love you, Liam. You’ll live forever, in my heart, in my mind, in my screen. I’ll keep talking about you, listening to your songs, and honouring you anyway I can. It might take some time because I need to process and heal, but I’ll do, because you deserve that. My third promise?

Sending kisses, hugs, and love to you. 💕

PS: I’ve made a first promise to you in private that I plan to keep.

[imprintmoonstone]

Dear Liam,

Na bangaaram (transl. 'My Beloved' in Telugu, my native language), where do I begin?

I first became a fan of 1D in 2015, just a few months after Zayn left. My friend (she was a big fangirl!) suggested that I listen to your songs. But frankly, I was disinterested. I was like, "meh! okay.." But a week or so later, the Drag Me Down music video was in my YouTube recommendations, and I was kinda curious, so I finally watched the music video and thought to myself, "Damn! these guys are fantastic and so talented!!" And the rest is history. In no time, I had become a big fan of 1D.

Even though I liked all the boys, I always had a soft spot for you and Zayn. You were both my favorites. In 2017, I remember another friend spamming my phone with texts when the 'Strip That Down' music video was released. He and I went bonkers that day, haha (He was a big fan of you and Zayn, too! He loved 'Get Low' and 'Bedroom Floor' a lot.) I also remember waking up early to listen to LP1 while staying in bed, watching your LP shows until 3 AM during 2020, all your cute Insta lives, etc. I have so many fun memories like these that I'm eternally grateful for 💝

Liam, I have always admired your kindness, passion, strength, patience, and bravery. Even with all the noise outside from many people, you stood firm. You loved everyone loudly and were always there for them. Your music made me so happy, and your voice always had a soothing effect on me. Your musical talent (especially your live performances and acoustic versions) and artistic skills always amazed me! Your interviews and weekly round-up videos during quarantine time helped me stay sane (I still watch all these videos and instantly feel relaxed.)

You've become my comfort person, honestly. There was a time when I wanted to give up, but you gave me the strength to move forward. You inspired me to be kind and gentle with myself. I can't thank you enough for being the warmth I needed during my coldest nights. I'll love you forever, my hero ❤️

I'm sorry that the world was never nice to you. It was so painful to see all the unwarranted hate towards you. You deserved all the love and kindness you always spread. It's devastating that you didn't get to do the things you were so passionate about. I'll miss your kind eyes, voice, your warm smiles and sweet giggles, your goofiness. I'll miss you so much, Liam, and I'll forever cherish all these memories.

Rest gently, angel. I hope that wherever you are now, you find peace 🕊️❤️‍🩹

Love,

Ri

[zaynmaliksmiddlefinger]

Loving Liam literally changed my life in countless ways. Many of them are more personal than I care to share right now, but his positive impact on my life is immeasurable.

A standout moment I’ll detail a tiny bit right now is that I made the journey to Machu Picchu because of him.

It’s unfortunate that he had to cancel that show in Lima, Peru. But my flight was booked and plans were made and I went anyway.

Because of that, I visited one of the most beautiful places on Earth. It’s a cherished memory that I would not have if not for him.

Liam will always be in my heart. He taught me to be patient with myself, to forgive myself and to be kind to myself.

I originally planned a much longer, more detailed post. It’s just too hard right now. Maybe I’ll expand on this one day.

But for now, I’ll say thank you and sleep well.

[sugarcult]

Liam, I wrote up this big, long letter for you, and it seemed like nothing came out right or like it just didn't sound how I wanted it to. So I guess I'll just do my best.

Years ago, I remember other fans being obsessed with Diana when it came out, and how many fans said that One Direction had saved them. I didn't think I could relate because I wasn't actively suicidal or self-harming at that time, and I guess I thought all that was a little overdramatic. But in the last two weeks, I've been thinking it over, and I really think 1D not only changed my life but saved it too.

When I first started being a fan of the band, it was 2012, and I had no idea how hard my life was about to become. I guess you probably felt like that too, in retrospect - when you auditioned for X Factor, and you were put in a band by surprise, and you strapped in for this wild ride you couldn't have anticipated, with the highs and the lows that came with it. I remember feeling so much joy listening to 1D, watching silly videos, meeting new people, writing and reading fanfiction. I invested so much of my time into 1D during the active years of the band, at first because I wanted to and it was fun, but now that I'm older and I have some perspective, it wasn't really that simple.

I had a really hard home life in those years. I was in high school, and I didn't have supportive parents. I remember at many points feeling like nobody understood me - not my friends, not my family, or anyone at school - except, in some weird way, One Direction and their fans did. You guys created an atmosphere that was so uplifting and supportive, that prioritized things like mental health and social justice, having a laugh and still being kind. These are all things I really needed in my life.

I didn't make a friend in the fandom until about 2016, so for the entire duration of 1D being active, I was doing my solo thing. I had other people I kind of interacted with during that time, but not any real friends I stayed in touch with. My entire high school career was me being a 1D fan basically alone, and I think I forget that sometimes because I have a lot of 1D friends now. But at my most vulnerable, and in my most formative years, the only thing I really had was One Direction. And I have been thinking a lot about how much of that fun, welcoming, supportive environment was exactly those things because of you. I felt so much support just being in the proximity of the fanbase and the band. I had something to live for, even when my home life was terrible, when my friends abandoned me, when my grades started slipping. I didn't have much sense of identity or self-awareness at all at the time, so it didn't occur to me until recently how much harder and more emotionally volatile those years would have been for me without One Direction. And when I finally did start processing all the hard stuff I had gone through a couple years later, my friends in the fandom were there for me in a way most people couldn't be. I'll be forever grateful to them, and to all of you.

I always felt like you saw me, and like you got me, and like we had the same priorities and values about how people should be treated. I guess that's because you had been bullied yourself and knew what it felt like to be treated unkindly. It really hurts me to know just how much unkindness you continued to receive all the way to the end. I think people saw your joy at the success of your loved ones and your continued pride in the band as somehow disingenuous, but I know it wasn't, because I see so much of myself in you.

I hope you know how many people truly loved and admired you, and how much good you put out into the world, and that the bad that each of us has done does not negate that. Without you, I wouldn't have lived this long. It sounds dramatic, but now that I'm on the other side of the hardest years of my life, I know I couldn't have made it through without you and your influence. You have been and still are a light to people on every continent, people you've never met, who have never been in the same stadium as you. Actually, in ways you don't know and in ways that can't be quantified, you have changed the lives of so many people indirectly. You changed my brother's life, for one, by helping me become someone who could be resilient and strong for him when he needed it. You changed my dad's life by making me someone who can teach others compassion. You've made my son's life possible, by helping me be strong enough to be here so he could even be born. And for every fan you've had like me, you've touched the lives of countless other people indirectly in the same way. The good you have done may be hard to see sometimes through all the noise, but that doesn't mean it isn't there. I hope you knew that in those final days, and I hope you know it now, wherever you are.

I've found it really striking, how many of the people who knew you feel the need to say they hope you're finally at peace now. I wish that didn't say so much about how hard things were for you the last several years. I wish I could have been more vocal and let you know how much change you had made in my life and how much I love you. I wish I could have been more supportive than just a person you might see through pixels on a screen, although I know you had many loved ones who supported you in life too. The grief we are all feeling for you feels some days like it has stopped the world.

It's been a while since I've truly lost someone, and I think the last few years have made the impact of loss hit a lot harder than it used to. I understand now why people turn to religion in times like these. It's for hope.

A lot of other people have said it, but I hope in my heart that it's true:

You will find me

In places that we've never been

For reasons we don't understand

Walking in the wind

You shined so bright, and you still do. But I would have loved you even if you hadn't.

[alarrylarrie]

Oh Liam. You should be here still. Tomorrow is two weeks without you and I still find it all so devastatingly unfair.

You should see the way people love you. You should see the way the whole world feels your absence.

You were always good enough. You were always important. You were always loved. And I’m so sorry if you didn’t think so when you were here.

I won’t let you go. You’ll live forever in what you created.

“The fact that we can sit right here

And say goodbye - mean we already won

The necessities for apologies

Between you and me?

Baby, there is none.

We had some good times,

Didn’t we?

We had some good tricks up our sleeve

Goodbyes are bittersweet

But it’s not the end!

I’ll see your face again.”

[allwaswell16]

I'd like to share a little story about my son that's just a small part of what it's all meant to me.

I joined the fandom in 2014, a year after my youngest son was born. He didn't speak at the time he was "supposed" to be speaking, wasn't hitting all his developmental milestones, and was then diagnosed at a very young age as being on the autism spectrum.

Being a One Direction fan brought music back into my home in a major way. I'd been so busy with my career and becoming a mom that my love for music had been phased out in my life. But One Direction brought it roaring back in.

When my son was two, he was watching the Best Song Ever video...one of his favorites. It's fun and brightly colored and silly, and it made sense why he loved it. He started pointing to each one of the boys and said some of his first ever words, their names.

Youie. Ni-yaw. Hay-ee. Yum-Yum. Zack. (Sorry Zayn, blame the video)

Music opened up a way for my son to communicate. It has always been a major force in his life. He is eleven now, and he plays the drums and the violin and according to his older brother talks way too much.

I could never truly explain what this band has meant to my life and to my son. But I'll always be so grateful they burst into our life right when we needed them.

Thank you, Yum-Yum. I wish I could have told you what you meant to us, but I hope you somehow knew anyway.

[timetohealit]

Liam’s twitlongers were probably my second fav things after his funny tweets. The one I’ve always held dear to my heart the most is the one he wrote after Zayn left the band. I’ll never forget how he was always the first to step up and comfort us.

I’ve tried reading it all these days but either the link is not longer working or my phone is stupid. If anyone has a post with the full version or something like that, please let me know

[darkmeetslight]

☆ Liam Payne Glitter Texts ☆ 1993-2024 🪽

[yes-i-ship-larry]

Dear Liam,

I am heartbroken at your passing.

Thank you so much for your smile, your voice, your presence, for helping us with your kindness and your music, for the happiness you have brought to us, and the list goes on.

You have lit up our world like nobody else.

Thank you for the wonderful memories you gave us.

We love you dearly and we will miss you 🤍🤍🤍

I hope that from above you can see how loved you are.

All my thoughts to your family, your friends, your loved ones.

Rest in Peace Dear Liam 🕊️

[daisiesonafield-blog]

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[himynameiszayn]

I can't attend any memorials in person so I bought flowers for Liam to keep for myself. Liam, I hope you know how much I love you you brought me my best friend Jinny @haztobegood and you brought me my close friends Anitra @allwaswell16 and Sus @lululawrence

When I got in the car Don't you forget about me came on the radio and I cried I'll never forget about you.

Thank you for everything and I hope you know how much you are loved.

[28-sunflowers]

There's something about being in the car alone for hours, listening to music with just your own thoughts for company.

Driving back from Tennessee, I was listening to my 1D playlist and Made in the AM came on and.....suddenly I've got tears running down my cheeks.

I've listened to the song so many times since we lost Liam, but hearing these lyrics again with nothing else to distract me made my heart ache for Liam and all the boys on a whole other level.

You and me were raised in the same part of town. Got these scars on the same ground

Remember how we used to kick around just wasting time? Won't you stay 'til the a.m.?

[princessconsuelapark]

19th October 2024, 02.19 am

Oh, Liam. Dearest, sweetest Liam. It's been more than 48 hours now and I think I'm still in shock. I couldn't find the words in the moment and I am still struggling. My grief for you is so complicated and layered. You were so close, right there, in my phone, on my laptop, always there for me when I needed you. I've always associated you with joy, and so now losing you - and losing you like this! - feels so wrong, so horrible.

The person I am today, the way I think and live and love is so heavily affected and influenced by One Direction, it would be hard to even begin to point out all the parts that this band and this community have changed over the years in one way or another. I am so angry you have suffered, so furious you weren't taken care of and treasured like you should have been. I hate how you were never able to redeem yourself and heal, I hate how Maya will never get closure now. I hate how unfair life has been to you. I wish in a way that you'd never auditioned, so you could still be alive.

Thank you for all the joy, the laughs and the good times. You were and still continue to be a bright part of my life. I still have so much unexpressed love for you and I'm unsure what to do with it now. I mourn for who you were, for the person you could have been, and for that 16 year old who didn't deserve any of this. I am so angry these people were so cruel to you.

Thank you for all the music, which I will cherish until the end of days, thank you for sharing your beautiful voice with the world.

Thank you for making me laugh when I was in the darkest places, thank you for bringing me into a community that taught me so much and brought me endless love and joy. I will never forget what it feels like to belong here.

It's hard to accept that you're gone. It's hard to even believe it. It will take some time for me to start remembering the happy things rather than the emptiness I feel right now, and I know with unequivocal certainty that a part of me will always grieve you from now on. With every song, every photo, every memory, there'll be a sadness there, a feeling of being lost. I didn't ever think about having to say goodbye to you and I don't want to. Like a petulant child I am still clinging onto the idea that you're just far away, but not gone.

I hope you finally find peace wherever you are. Rest well, Liam. All my love.

[timetohealit]

A very small collection of my fav Liam tweets from my likes on twitter. We’ll share the same brain cell and I’ll love you forever Lima bean

[timetohealit]

And of course an honorary mention to these

[hearteyesandboners]

I read something about Liam that really stuck with me . This isn’t a direct quote but just the jist of what I remember. People said Liam was clinging to One Direction and couldn’t let go . Couldn’t move on from the group while the others had . Well the same could be said for us fans . I can’t let them go either . I’m clinging to them even though they aren’t together anymore. I have so many memories wrapped up in them , the way my heart feels when I hear a certain song or the happiness I feel watching their videos . I still have merch that my kids will have to throw away when I’m gone . So no , I don’t think Liam was ‘ cringe ‘ for still loving and clinging to One Direction because all of us true fans are still devoted as well . Liam I hope wherever you are , you’re at peace and you know how much you are loved ♥️♥️♥️