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Pro-lifer: Would you have wanted to be aborted

Me: Yes

Maps//The Front Bottoms

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Since I’ve made a whole new blog, I thought I might share my story real fast.

The first two pictures up there are of me at 18 or 19 years old. Clearly I was struggling at that time in my life. I grew up feeling as though I was nothing special, always average. I had siblings who always seemed to be smarter than me and who (unlike me) had parents that stayed together. I always felt like I wasn’t good enough to keep my parents together but clearly my two younger sisters were. I never really felt like I was a horrible person, just average, just not special in any way.

But there was a way that I found to be special. I was always the small one, the one people called tiny and petite. I was frail and weak. I was the one who others joked about “oh you just can eat whatever you want” or “how I wish I had a metabolism like yours!” Until I went away to college and realized my body was making changes. I wasn’t staying naturally thin any longer, I was gaining curves and I didn’t know how to deal with this. I was no longer special in any way at all.

I decided to start counting calories. I fell for the 1200 calories a day bullshit (excuse my language but that’s what it is). I stared running and doing workout videos behind closed doors. Soon enough, 1200 calories wasn’t working for me. The numbers went lower and lower until I was tracking pieces of gum into my diet. I lost all of my friends, I ruined relationships, I started struggling in school, I hurt myself in ways I never believed I could. Eventually, my dad stepped up and forced me into therapy. I was diagnosed with anorexia. It was embarrassing and terrifying but I was determined to turn my life around. I knew I had a problem and I knew that I couldn’t live that way anymore. I was so unhappy and so sad and so lonely.

Once I had gained enough weight to be cleared as “healthy” I began dabbling in the fitness world. I lifted weights in a gym by myself (after countless hours of watching videos and researching) and I eventually joined crossfit (which I absolutely LOVE and am just taking a break from currently due to an injury that limits the movement I can perform aka all oly lifts). I love the challenge that fitness gives you, the way it pushes you to be better than you ever believed you could be.

Just recently I gave in and got CRUSH60. (Which holy crap is amazing and so challenging and JUST what I needed). ANYWAYS- Today I did back at the gym and multiple guys came up to me to tell me how impressed they were that I could deadlift 185 for reps so easily. (Mind you, I used to be TERRIFIED to deadlift in a regular gym). They told me that it was wonderful how I wanted to be strong. It really hit me then how much I have changed over the years. I used to THRIVE off of being the weak and frail girl that needed help. Today, I want to be strong, I want to be the girl that people are impressed by. I want people to know that I have worked HARD to become who I am. And I am going to do everything in my power to be the strongest version of me that I can be.

So I hope anyone who has ever felt like maybe they weren’t special or they weren’t good enough can use me as an example. Because guess what? I AM good enough. I am special and beautiful and important. And SO ARE YOU! Embrace who you are and be the best possible version of yourself :)

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You are so awesome!!

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I thought the coyote stretching its paws was cute so I made a GIF of it.

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Why is there a coyote on a bus.

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because they can’t drive

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My back has been shitty again and I can't really deadlift... But I can overhead squat with no hip or back pain still. Maybe I'll just become on Olympic lifter instead

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Don’t let the look fool you, he loves it to the point that showering alone can at times be a challenge. http://cute-overload.tumblr.com source: http://imgur.com/r/aww/3KIZ4kO