fly away

call me petals. been doing this for too long, wouldn't know how to quit even if i wanted to. active 12/25 31 | ♀ | ♏︎

[lightasapetals]

⭐️hello⭐️

name is petals. not trying to influence anyone, strictly using this as a place to vent and hold myself accountable. currently only following interacting with people 25+, will block minors.

stats:

30f / 5'6" / cw: 172.1 / bmi: 28.0

(as of September 11, 2025)

hw: 220 / bmi: 35.5 (29 years old)

lw: 115 / bmi: 18.6 (18 years old)

sw: 218 / bmi: 35.2

gw1: 200 / bmi: 32.3 (reached may 11)

gw2: 180 / bmi: 29.1 (reached july 15)

gw3: 160 / bmi: 25.8

gw4: 140 / bmi: 22.6

gw5: 130 / bmi: 21

gw6: 120 / bmi: 19.4

gw7: 110 / bmi: 17.8

ugw: 100 / bmi: 16.1

[hellish-daddi]

[nofuckingideawho]

being mentally ill AND self aware? zero stars, would not recommend

[sprngcat]

having an ed is literally hell

I can't eat

but I can't stop thinking about food

I feel guilty if I eat

but I also feel guilty if I don't eat

I want people to tell me my body is beautiful and to praise me

but if someone tells me im pretty i can't believe them

I feel sad and angry all the time because I didn't eat

but if I eat i also feel sad and angry

hell.

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

self sabotage is weird because what do you mean i make myself miserable and i'm aware of it but don't know how to stop.

[justafuckingdisaster]

"I am okay, don't worry" *proceeds to cry all weekend, barely eating or getting up from bed, has an episode*

[winter-0]

I can't erase the need to apologize for my existence.

[mentallyunstablebaddie]

Please dont ask me to describe myself. I barely know who I am.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

here’s to all the things you survived quietly and privately this year

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

here’s to all the things you survived loudly, to the dead horses you beat to death, to the shit that makes you scream

[thahalfrican]

Congrats if you survived this year because what the fuck was that

[ruhaniya]

being obsessed with your partner is so necessary for a healthy relationship. i can’t believe ya’ll made that corny. ego is insane.

[agxos-kai-stress]

ego kills romance

[thoughtkick]

“You’re always haunted by the idea you’re wasting your life.”

— Chuck Palahniuk, Diary

[bobdylanyaoi]

2025 stats:

0 dubai chocolate ingested

0 labubus bought

0 episodes of stranger things watched

[mournfulroses]

Franz Kafka, from a letter to Felice Bauer written in 1912, featured in Letters To Felice

[shitbl0gger]

[feralratbitesu]

[lightasapetals]

ending the year at 171.2

not as low as i'd like, but you know what?

i started the year at 204 so i'll fucking take it lmao