Summary: Hinami tries to deal with her sorrows through seeking Ayato out. Ayato can never turn away the girl he loves far more than he should. Two people with unrequited feelings, dealing with them in very different ways. Human AU. (7.9k words)
Warning: This fic contains unhealthy copic mechanisms, heavy sexual content, and plenty of problematic/ dubious things which I absolutely do not condone at all. This is a work of fiction that takes on a more mature, physical take on Ayahina’s relationship as opposed to the typical conventional one. Please feel free not to read this fic if it’s not your cup of tea!
A/N: Yeah, there’s like 3 smut scenes in here. I decided to try and take on a very different approach to writing Ayahina. I know they’re mostly all vanilla and all, but I wanted to try a more physical-kind of relationship with the two of them. I’m writing a really unconventional way of presenting Hinami, so I should put it out here first in case anyone finds her OOC, but I think that when you’re so troubled and upset, it’s normal to seek out ways to try and make yourself feel better and in the process, hurt someone unintentionally, even if you’re the nicest, sweetest person in the world. I’m personally very insecure about how I presented her in here, because I don’t know if I took her too far. I’m worried that it might look like I ruined her to make Ayato look better, though really Ayato is far from doing the right things here as well. :/
This fic is also lowkey inspired by these three songs, which I had on repeat when I was writing this. I really love Highlight lmao.
I have more to say about this fic, but I’ll leave it to the end. Please do reblog this and feel free to leave some comments!
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“That’s fast,” he murmurs. He’s glaring at her from the corner of his eyes. Hinami feels the nausea worsen.
“You… you were so cruel… leaving me in there… I… I couldn’t help myself…” She forces out an excuse, a useless attempt at a lie.
Ayato watches her for a moment, dropping his bud into a tray he had on the cashier counter. He takes his time to saunter over to her, face blank and stoic, before he stops right before her, way too close for comfort. Hinami drops her head, turning aside to turn her attention to something else, but Ayato lifts his hand to take her by the chin and force her gaze back to him, locking eyes with her.
“I’m cruel?” he scoffs. “Is that really the case now? Me?”
“You won’t even let me kiss you,” he cuts in.
“We’re not… like that…” she says weakly.
“That’s nice. We’re not like that, so you’re gonna let me fuck your brains out, but I can’t kiss you or hug you any other time… God forbids I want to sleep beside you rather than with you.”
“I know. And I also know that every time you have my dick up your pussy, you pretend it’s him instead.”
“I don’t do that!” That isn’t a lie, though she’s aware it might not be the complete truth as well.
“Oh really?” Ayato snorts, reaching out to pull her closer to him by her hips. Her eyes widen as he slowly lowers himself to his knees, pushing her skirt up by its hem. His fingers wander to her crotch and he tuts, looking up at her with a raised eyebrow. “You got this wet from thinking about him, huh?”
“Does he look good when he does it? Does he feel good?” Ayato asks, pausing for a moment before continuing in a weaker, softer voice. “Better than me?”
“I… try my best, you know… I try to be good enough for you…”
Her eyes burn. Ayato’s gaze soften, his brows furrowing a little more. He reaches for her hands and holds them gently in both of his, clasping them tightly. He looks like he’s begging, or praying even, and Hinami’s stomach lurches at the thought of him on his knees before someone like her.
“I don’t want to be second fiddle to anyone…”
“Ayato?” Her throat burns.
“Can… you do something for me?”
Ayato’s eyes widen for a moment, before he narrows them again. “Yes. Sure. Of course.”
Anything for you, she recalls him saying once.
“Let’s end this… for real this time. Don’t… look for me or anything.”
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