LilacLyn

He/they/she This is a messy blog

[lilaclynbo]

I hate how inconsistent I am with my posts, but there's a lot going on in my mind now. I'm mostly upset about specific stuff. I mean, I'm rarely NOT upset about things, but there are certain times where I CAN just pass through it without much struggle; that's not what's happening right now and it's annoying me.

Humans are dumb as fuck, man.

Fuck transphobes and terfs, fuck racists; fuck any kind of fascist or Nazi dickheads, and fuck fake progressive people.

I just needed to get this out.

[shoogachi]

[jayvikted]

I wanted to speak a bit on the VA situation with TADC, and I guess about Glitch too. I have a lot of feelings and thoughts about this, so bear with me while I try to organize them. I was in the industry for a huge chunk of my adult life and like 5 years of my childhood--20 years total--at first as an online voice actor, and then mostly as a voice director and sometimes in casting, with a few personal or commercial projects in between as a writer or director. I have bounced around a number of creative roles. The traditional entertainment industry is structurally, incurably racist and misogynistic. I have first-hand experience with the personal compromises and sacrifices good people have had to make in the past to make a show within the traditional television system. I have been actively made fun of for refusing to tolerate the n word. I have been bullied out of groups. I have genuinely lost count of the amount of times someone has sat me down and said something to the effect of "I'm sorry, but you're making the people in [group full of creators] feel really uncomfortable with this. I pride myself on cultivating a comfortable space for creators and I don't agree with restricting the creativity of anyone here" because I objected to people saying whole ass slurs and making racist or misogynistic jokes. I fought this. I pushed for inclusive casting, advocated for the work-life balance of others (but never myself, lol), etc. You learn to put up with it in order to make the thing you want to make, and hope that the putting the thing out in the world does more good than compromising yourself felt bad. After a while, you do become a bit dead to it. In a way, I think the entertainment industry is incompatible with genuine growth. Not even (just) because the environment is toxic and you're rewarded for being an asshole, but because growth requires your brain to cycle out of being miserable and stressed, and you can't until you're between projects, but that's when you're not making money, so you're stressed about that instead. This is all a bit of a tangent, but what I mean to say is that this is a big part of why it seems like none of these people ever change at all. Personal growth is both discouraged and impossible. It's especially bad if you have deeply-embedded shame, because you feel bad about bad things and bad about good things and both of them are 10 times too strong and don't really feel different. It feels really reassuring and safe when your boss and coworkers are not limiting you, and are in fact encouraging you to stop feeling that shame. This is a trap that many fall into, and it can take many wasted years to realize that it won't actually solve your problems.

I'm out of entertainment now, and I don't really feel like I was able to make a difference, but I hoped someone would. I left when the online creator market was fairly young. When YouTube became a way that people could actually make money, I was really excited. The whole promise of all this was supposed to be that people could make things without having to make those kinds of compromises. That's why this kind of stuff disappoints me so much. Hearing how Glitch treats animators and other team members and what the internal culture is like is very much deja vu, and I find that a miserable waste. You created an entirely new system just to what, copy the old one exactly but with yourself at the top? That's pathetic.

While I'm here, I want to make something else very clear while I'm here as a natural consequence of what I said above: every non black voice actor says the n word for fun. it would be easier to list exceptions. It is critical that you do not interpret "non-black" as "white" in this context because it would be a mistake to think that brown voice actors do it even fractionally less. This is an issue embedded deep in the cultural foundations of voice over as an industry and creative field. I have met voice actors, plural, who say the n word at the beginning of every session as a way to break the initial tension in a booth and remove mental restrictions on the performance, so they say, because it's taboo. It's essential that they feel absolutely NO restriction on their performance, you see, and the n word taboo is the GREATEST restriction on casual speech in our society. Ridiculous. If you have to say slurs to get out of your own head, that's a flaw in your acting process and you need to get better at your job. But genuinely, that's how casual it is. So whenever I hear that SoAndSoVA said a slur somewhere, I'm not particularly surprised, and I'm not really sure what to do either. This is something that I've watched Black actors put up with. Reasons vary. It can be as simple as not wanting to negatively impact their career, or often genuinely not wanting to risk cutting off income for other marginalized actors "just" over this (because let's be honest, Black queers show up for White queers in a way that never really happens in reverse). Or sometimes they just seem to really think it's funny. I don't know how to show up for them, but I try to do the best that I can. I ask.

It just... persists. It all persists. No matter how many times things change hands, how many companies "revolutionize" indie, it's always the same. I'm so disappointed.

[r41nyd4yscritiques]

Damn, this is some real shit to come out and say, especially when so many people want to blatantly disregard the racism that persists in indie. We see it time and time again, and yet we’re supposed to act like we don’t see nothing.

Well you saw it from within, and I can see it clearly from the outside.

I’m under the impression that the standard of indie can and WILL change. It just has to, cus I got shit to do and I don’t have the time nor the will to pander to white bullshit. It’ll be a challenge for sure, but with new technology and new faces arriving on the scene every day, there’s an infinite possibility for growth and change.

But the fact is is that the industry itself needs to be overhauled, it just does. The foundation is rotten, and that’s why it continues to pander to so many bigoted individuals, because the space was built for them first. If we’re going to set a new standard, then we need a new space.

This sentiment can often times be intimidating and even discouraging to some, but it can still be performed. Prove your own brains wrong. To all the projects that you want to see be put out into the world, don’t wait for them to be picked up by larger studios that can swallow up their ideas and restrict their freedoms. Pour your energy into these creators DIRECTLY and watch them flourish.

[poyopotato-arts]

Birthday gift for my lovely friend @kalpeavaris! ♥♥ I always wanted to draw Jax and Pomni from their TADC au (A Soul's Worth); even if it's discontinued! Freaking love their designs UGHHH-

(LOVE YA BABYGIRL BARK BARK) _____

Do not repost my art to any other sites or doing AI stuff with it. Thank you, have a nice day! ♥

[absolutedream-art]

This is Part 2 of "Truth or Dare"

Part 1 (You're Here)

Part 2

Part 3

After the events of "Truth or Dare", Pomni and the crew respond to Jax's recent close call with abstraction. Though they show their support, will it be enough to convince Jax to change his ways and begin following a new path?

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If you’d like early access to comics I work on, consider joining my Patreon.

[kalpeavaris]

some thoughts abt the tadc finale, now that it's in cinemas and people around the world have watched it as well.

spoilers below. that's all i gotta say and that's the reason why I stopped tadc content.

the tadc finale severely disappointed and to some degree disgusted me.

I've never seen quite the literal character assassination than what happened to Jax. As someone who heavily related to him and the possibility that he might be so defensive and aggressive due to traumatic experiences. He was 22. That's so young when you think about it. Seeing his story end with suicide while the rest of the episode tries to hammer in what a jerk he is. So much build up for him to have a beginning of a redemption arc and yet, no payoff whatsoever. He just dies, or at the very least, "just" abstracts. His story leads nowhere and as someone who rooted for him to grow and become a better person why owning up to his wrongdoings, realizing the mistakes he's done, how badly he had treated the others... nah, he's just gone. We gave so much energy to this character for him to be killed off by the writers when initially we're given so many hints that the others, despite Jax's wrongdoings, are willing to accept him and don't want him to die or be hurt. Also, I feel like none of the characters got a proper conclusion to their arcs, issues and almost none of them grow. The people with room to grow don't use it, and one of them just dies. Idk man, I'm disappointed and shocked at the choice to show a character with so much attention drawn to his arc essentially committing suicide.

[lilaclynbo]

kitty sketches ( open for better quality Tumblr hates me lol )

[judahdnspoonful]

More info on TADC controversies here:

• All Controversies Explained

• The Issue With Gooseworx

• Black Fans Aren’t Safe

QUESTION: Why are Black folks and survivors of SA/CSA always the ones who have to “just get over” everything?

When it’s Enslavement or Jim Crow: “oh, just get over it!”

When it’s cases of grooming and s*x abuse: “oh, just get over it!”

When it’s a celebrity or politician making a racist/SA joke or stereotype: “oh, just get over it!”

When it’s a Black person experiencing racial violence or wrongful m*rder: “oh, just get over it!”

When it’s a woman/child experiencing s*xual violence or wrongful m*rder: “oh, just get over it!”

The n-slur and similar slurs have over FOUR HUNDRED YEARS of generational trauma and bleak history attached to it. The effects of systemic racism *STILL* impact people to this day in every single aspect of life. Likewise, women and minors (both of whom are oppressed classes) are always in the direct line of fire of any promiscuous joke or act of s*xual violence. Society is built on the exploitation and objectification of our bodies. Unless you are Black, a woman, a child, or a survivor of grooming/SA, you will never understand and therefore should never accept apologies on our behalf.

No, we will never get over it, not until society as a whole makes a collective effort to dismantle this current system that is foundationally built on racism, s*xual exploitation, and g-¢¡de, and replace it with something more humane and equitable.

Listen to the voices of Black people and grooming/SA survivors, especially when we’ve been hurt.

[lilaclynbo]

Some quick backgrounds I did while looking at random pics on the internet

[allhailthequeenuwu]

Fanart for @dandi.noel from TikTok♥️

[reindeerp1g]

Believe it or not

Non-racist people can do racist things

Racist jokes "being common at the time" doesn't excuse them from being racist nor make them acceptable like at all

How long ago something was isn't relevant when the impact/consequences of those actions is happening right now to everyone around them

Non affected parties have no say in whether an apology about racism is acceptable or not

"it's not that deep" is a dumb shit way to say you don't care at all which in that case, why tf are you inserting yourself anyway mf

[allthingswhumpyandangsty]

nobody “writes like ai” as long as they write, then they write. period. there’s no “writing like ai”. because by saying someone “writes like ai”, you’re implying that ai actually writes and that ai is the blueprint. but what ai does is mimic human-made works.

ai writes (aka they’re mimicking) like humans. not the other way around.

saying “this writer writes like ai” is the equivalent of saying “your work looks like those other works that copied yours”

[lilaclynbo]

Well, this is another important issue that has come up in the fandom, and I think it's necessary to mention this, especially with the reaction of the fandom, involving the controversy with Michael, Ashley, that... joke, and racism.

So, what should be a common sense is : Any joke that involves this specific subject is distasteful, even if it's just "teetering" to the idea ( as Michael himself said. )

It's... a fact that they owned up to it and apologized, making it clear it's WASN'T cool AT ALL that they did that. Though, ideally, they should've acknowledged this way before. And it's also important to note that I wasn't just one joke as most are saying, it was... multiple times they made the same joke.

The gap of time they took to finally acknowledge this honestly has added even more fuel to this situation in the present, making it even worse and brow raising.

Now, I can see the possibility that Ashley and Michael did have the capacity to grow and learn from this. I don't think they're entirely bad people, but this is definitely a bad side they have to them, and I CAN recognize that what they did was ( and still is ) a terrible thing. No matter how much I admired them and their work before, it's was still a shitty joke to make, even if it wasn't ""explicitly"" racist. It shouldn't have taken 7 years for them to be held accountable for these jokes ( remember, "THESE". in plural. It was multiple times. )

And with that said, here's the truly important thing :

Stop invalidating people who got hurt by these distasteful jokes. Racism is a grave problem, people die because of this shit, and any kind of "joke" about it should be unacceptable.

I've been reading people's reactions to this and, honestly, we should only consider the opinions of those who ARE part of the black community itself.

Because they're the only voices that matter in this situation.

I saw people saying they understood that this happened a while ago, and believing Michael and Ashley wouldn't do something like that again in the present;

I also saw people say that were still hurt, angry, and genuinely disappointed about the whole situation. ( Justifiably so )

Both perspectives are valid.

It's okay to feel hurt, disappointed and tired. This is something that goes deep, and no one can fully understand how the roots of this kind of thing can deeply hurt someone, except for the people that are forced to live with that every single day.

We'll never know how it is, except for them. They have every right to be hurt and express that.

So, let's NOT mistake these people—that are rightfully disappointed—with others that are actually doing bad shit ( doxxing/sending gore to Ashley and Michael )

Even because, the people who are doxxing them aren't from the black community or even care about this important topic, I mean, it's the UTTP for fucks sake! They don't give a fuck.

And this makes me mad because this type of shit always happens :

A famous creator screws up regarding a extremely important issue we should be talking about, but the attention always and up being redirected to these motherfuckers who just wanted an excuse to do fucked up shit. Then the importance of the subject ends up being watered down and the responsibility of the creator(s) that said/did the bad thing ends up never being taken seriously, because—in the fandom's view— the victim ends up being the creator that fucked up in the first place, all because of the UTTP harassment.

And even if there wasn't a UTTP situation. White fans would still drown out black voices, just like it's happening right now; just like it happened 7 years ago, hence why this is only surfacing right now. White fans are way too quick to let these things go because it was just a "edgy joke".

Sure it was, to YOU it was. It just goes to show how safe you are in your own privilege.

We should be focusing on the fact that : they ( Ashley and Michael ) did most certainly screw up, apologized and that black people are STILL allowed to feel disappointed. Yes, even if it was 7 years ago, because racism has always been real and, disgracefully, it still is.

This shit leaves open wounds.

Actual criticism is different from harassment, we shouldn't let those crazy fuckos that harass anyone, just because they want to, take away the validity of the actual people that were affected by this whole situation.

And also, here's the worst part, is that there's white fans who are using this whole situation as an excuse to be racist and joke about it as well; now, that's the kind of people I think should definitely go fuck themselves with a brick alongside with the UTTP.

I add this because THESE fans should be held accountable as well (in a responsible way). people are genuinely defending these jokes as if Michael and Ashley were gods or something.

Like, I adored them; their content helped me a lot through some dark times since I was younger, but we shouldn't idealize anyone like this, especially famous people we don't even know personally. Especially when it's a situation that hurt a marginalized group were not part of; we don't get so say what they should feel or not, if they should forgive or not. White people aren't the ones who should decide if what Ashley and Michael did was forgivable or not. BLACK PEOPLE SHOULD.

Your favorite creator did a shitty thing? fucking deal with it; THIS NOT ABOUT YOU.

Let's just stop trying to simplify things and let the ACTUAL people that were affected by this express themselves.

Let black people express themselves.

That's not a lot to ask.

[holsy6]

Still trying to figure out how to draw Jax's legs😵‍💫😵‍💫

THANK YOU for the amount of likes on my previous post btw🥹 I'm happy

[wolfertinger666]

HOLY SHIT

[wolfertinger666]

mitosis be like:

(real talk I always see my art up here, but my black centered art being showcased means a lot more to me ngl)

[holsy6]

Some funnybunny cuz I LOVE THEM DEARLY💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

Pomni's hat squeaks. Jax loves it.

[darkmoonray]

not being soft, you're just in my space, PomPom…

Rabbits rub their chins to mark territory and communicate, Jax does the same to Pomni and would like to remind everyone that this is purely a tactical maneuver, not an affection (he's lying) (My animation was inspired by Spadelynnne's art and this fact about rabbits <3)